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There is literally nothing good about me.  I need to be disposed of.

Yup, when life is depressing, one eats and buys crap to feel better.  Sadly, this lasts o’ so briefly.  Then we feel bad for eating/buying too much crap we don’t need.  But we continue to rinse and repeat.  But hey, everything was on “sale.”

We know it’s empty and fleeting, but we can’t help but do it anyway.  I would go get something to eat, but am too lazy to make anything.  Good ol’ laziness…only thing that trumps eating…

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Standing alone in a crowd is a way of life. I can feel a wind blowing, making its spiral dance amid the bodies, leaves drifting from nowhere to nowhere again. It’s a forest of people and I’m one tree. Roots all intertwine beneath the soil, feeding on the same poisons, the same nutrients.

There is a river nearby, but the rivers in this forest are concrete, and the fish that swim in them are mechanical things that cough smoke into the air.

The riverbed is cracking under the heat of the sun.

Paint is crumbling off houses, revealing rotting wooden planks.

They should have used vinyl siding.

It lasts longer.

Miaow.

“People who self-injure are not sick, and are not insane or crazy. They just never learned how to cope positively with what goes on in their life. This doesn’t make them strange, sick, weird or any other insult others might stick to them. Insulting them for this will only make things worse for them.”

I heard somebody say this today, do you think their opinion was accurate?

I always thought I wouldn’t care so much when someone I know died I always thought well it’s fucking life u live and then u die that’s clearly true but this is unfortunate/: my bf just had to die of brain cancer I actually rather have it be me. I’m depressed as hell…..and I can’t stop crying I miss him so muuuuch! I still wanna die kinda but this made me realize if I miss my bf this much I can feel sorta how my best friend would feel of I died…I don’t want this stress I feel on him… Hmmm maybe I’m best off […]

Wow, talk about an emotional roller coaster. Yesterday I was on top of the world. Even this morning I woke up refreshed and feeling as if I had so much hope guiding my eyes that life didn’t seem all that bad. My therapist yesterday told me some of the most meaningful words I’ve ever heard. Most was what I really needed to hear. It was a bunch of positive encouragement, good job on getting this far and keep making beneficial gains for yourself, you’ve gotten so far and you should be proud. She also proceeded to tell me that all of this drama/tension between my […]

I don’t know what I’m doing anymore. Everytime I turn around my family is falling apart person by person. I never want to go home because when I do I fall in a pool of shit and feel like I’m drowning. I just want the pain and loss to go away and just be a happy family. I know that families have problems but I can’t take mine anymore. I just want to die and have no one miss me. I feel like the only reason they would miss me would be that they wouldn’t have anyone to complain to anymore. Everyone says that I’m […]

I’ve started too cut because i feel as though thats the only thing i can do. I can’t talk to my parents or friends. The only thing i can express myself with is my music. What the hell can i do? Things have gotten better at home. The only reason for this is that things went back to what they were before i tried to commit suicide.

i just had to say it.

i want to tell her, but she won’t care.

so now i am left simply being not ok.

Mom keeps yelling at me cause I skip school alot (bullies+social anxiety). She thinks mental illnesses are silly and doesn’t really believe in them. Saying I’ll end up on the streets and s***, which I already know I will, and I don’t care. She’s always complaining about me making her so tired and what not. I should just kill myself or get famous so I can get off her hands, and if I do kill myself I’m going to do it while she’s not home in her bedroom so she can have a little present, with a good suicide note telling her how she caused […]

I have aspergers sydrome and i thought i would off myself before i reached 18 for many reasons invloling social life, future prospects and depression. I “practises” killing myself by starvation…i would not eat for a few days and that how i decided i would go. After around 24hours i lose the sense of hunger and my movements become sluggish, whether or not i can do it in the end i dont know like resisting tempation.

i didnt do it because i got into the second year of my college course, but i still have seveer depression. now i am saying to myself i will do it when […]

Ok so im 27 i have two kids and that is the only thing that is stopping me from trying to kill myself now…my life has been shit since i can remember never had true friends…had relationships even married bfore but seem to all fall apart…i cant get a job because never graduated not due to my efforts…and seems like everything i had going for me is gone…i feel like i cant make my kids happy…and with no xmas gifts going to b under the tree this year i feel that maybe they will b better off if i am gone! and i cant talk […]