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I guess I didn’t notice I loved you until you held my hand. I didn’t know you loved me until my friend told me what you said. But you don’t know me. You know me….but you really don’t. You think I’m perfect because that’s how I display myself. I make sure I smile and laugh. I make sure not to show any emotion I would regret latter. You just think you love me. You don’t, truth me. Once you find out, you’ll change your mind…they all do.
But if you want to know the truth, fine:
Yes, I do have scars I hide.
No, I’m not the girl […]
Im in grade 12 and my marks suck and i keep trying harder but nothings helping. i have a tutor and I’m staying up till 1 to study. I have a really busy schedule which i can’t change. i try to be positive but this is really making me want to quit I’m trying my best i feel like i have no one to talk to. i really want to go to university i really want to leave but i can’t do shit with these marks. I feel like the biggest loser I’m such a failure. Im so stressed i haven’t slept in in so […]
I saw the sadness in your eyes,
How they’d always seem to stray.
I saw the cuts upon your thighs,
How they didn’t go away.
I saw all the long-sleeved shirts,
How you’d blame it on the cat.
I was through your “skinny” wall,
How you’d always call yourself fat.
I saw how boys had treated you,
How they never seemed to stay.
I saw how you cried in your car,
How you never returned that day.
I hope you saw how I needed you,
How I can’t fight the demons alone.
I hope you know how a friendship takes two,
How I can’t do this on my own.
THis is my story as I have seen it and why I did what I did. I was married to the love of my life and to this day wondered how and why I found a beautiful woman like her to fall in love with a loser like me. To this day I i still don’t know. Well years went on and we had 3 beautiful talented children. Somewhere our lines got crossed and we stopped having a relationship outside of our children. I know I am at fault for the problems with our marriage. My wife asked for a divorce, at which she tells […]
Okay, nothing is working. I’m always sad even when I’m happy, I feel empty. I stopped cutting. although it sounded like a good idea, but I can’t not cut. cutting was my way to release the fucking pain I feel inside. and honestly, I want to start smoking again. I want to smoke and just forget about everything. I’m such a failure. my friends don’t want me to smoke cigarettes anymore, but they have no problem trying to pressure me to smoke cigars (no not those big fat ones that mob bosses smoke all the time) where is your logic??
So, my question to you, where […]
I’m gonna go away for a while I think. I don’t know when Ill be back or if I will be back. I can’t take everything going on and everyone is so caught up in stupid drama to help. (And the drama I’m referring to is NOT suicide or personal troubles) I just can’t take this anymore. I think I might just be going insane, losing it….falling apart. I have been hurt and destroyed and now I’m crushed. So I just need to go…
All i can think about is suicide. In the daytime, at school, at home, in the shower, outside, and especially at when i go to bed. Does anyone else think of suicide that much? It’s strange, there’s really not much to think about it, but i can’t think about anything else. My 2 friends, the only people i’ve told, say i should talk to the school counseller. Should i go? I mean, maybe it’ll help, maybe it won’t. But i don’t like talking to people about my ‘problems’ and i don’t want it to get to my parents, i don’t want them to worry about […]
I keep getting told “hang in there, things will get better!” – well they’ve been getting steadily worse for 3 years, and that was when I finally managed to overcome bulimia so I wasn’t exactly happy at that point anyway! I’m now very overweight, single, lonely, hiding from the world, i always fall for the guys who dont want me, and generally a burden and pain in the ass to the few people who still want to be my friend and my family, I just don’t want to do this any more, I don’t want this daily struggle any more. I feel like my life […]
I’m having a tough time reconciling much of anything: the numbness I feel, the suffering inflicted on me and others, the deep, penetrating emptiness I feel… It’s existentialist really; I simply can’t find an explanation for the absurdity of this mockery of a life, this incessant suffering that undercuts whatever joy I have left, or, rather, had.
I was kicked out of the house by my dad a year ago after I got into it with him over his alcoholism and my apparent laziness and moved in with my mom and stepdad; however, I left home to live on my school’s campus (it’s a boarding/day school) […]
I am sick inside. Alone, overwhelmed, confused, and filled with hatred for myself and regret for my life. I should never have been born. I told my dad that once, and he said it was an insult to him and to my mother. The funny thing was, he said it as if he thought it wasn’t meant to be. Well, it was. They were too young for kids when they had me. They were irresponsible, and their own parents were irresponsible. And you can probably trace it all the way back to the Stone Age. Too many people who had no business raising kids. And […]
To whoever may concern,
Although I am young I already feel it is time to stop running well that is how I feel. I am running from my feelings, my emotions for the better good of others. I don’t want to ‘live’. I don’t need to ‘live’. I have read other story’s and they were the truth. I show no sympathy because I have spent so long hiding what feel that I no longer feel. I’m just empty. A ghost of what I should be. Today my ‘friend’ almost got hit by a car […]
The other day, I think this woman I used to know blocked me from calling her (not sure) and all I tried to do was get ahold of her, but she didn’t answer the phone or return the few messages that I left.
It all started when I told ehr I thought she’d be cute wearing diapers similar to Pampers (please don’t judge me) and it’s only gone down hill since. She got mad t me and accused me of making her look bad, and even beinga sexual deviant. I wihs I could set things right with her, but it may be too late for that.
At […]
After everything thats been happening, everything thats happened, all in my other posts, I’m supposed to see a shrink for depression.
I just want to die though, it gets better for two second it gets worse, the amount of hate I’m getting on my ask.fm is huge, I just want them to stop but i cant delete my sk, (showing it to police) life is just a shithole, and I’ve no way out.
I found myself writing earlier today in a notebook in the freezing cold as I waited for the bus to that would take me to work… The only reason I decided to write was so I could remember everything that was passing through my mind at the time. Reading back over it now, I’m steadily losing the will to fight with myself anymore again. I’m tired… I want to sleep and just not wake up… I know I don’t deserve that; it’s too easy, too peaceful…
I have a family I support solely, children I want to raise and a decent job by most standards, and […]
well im new at this i was a big big cutter and basically threw my life away. Till i met my fiance and he changed everything!!!! i REALLY smiled not fake and laughed a real laugh he completely changed me. And i love him hes the only reason why im still alive. but now hes in court and might go to jail and im thinking bout starting again i signed up thinking maybe this will help…. maybe theres others like me who dnt want to die but just want to live, get anger out, and dnt use the anger against others. maybe im just crazy
Dear people,
I want to excuse myself for my English. I’m from the Netherlands so it isn’t very good.
The reason why I wanted to post something on the site is because I wanted to share something with you guys. I know that life can be difficult and harsh, and that you can feel very lonely in the sad world we all helped to create. But I learned something that changed my life. Your life is the most beautifull thing in the world, even if you can not feel it right now. It is like we all have a curtain before our eyes that blinds us to see […]
You got to go there to come back! Problem is some kent the fuckin map away wi them. Now this kent is lost with no way back! FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCKÂ FUCKÂ FUCK!
and this shit hole of a fuckin chicken town doesn’t fuckin help, everyone walking past like they don’t know they are alive! Well i won’t be having that issue for long!!!
FUCK IT!
(pardon the french)
Sometimes it is like there is nothing inside of me. Â Like I can’t move an inch or budge my eyes. Â Like I can’t twitch my mouth into a smile or raise my voice from a whisper. Â There is nothing. Â I am nothing. Â And there is nothing to live for.
Other times, like right now, it is like I am screaming in pain. Â No one hears it because it is stuck tight in my veins. Â Never exuding to the surface to see the light of day. Â But I see it. Â And I feel it. Â And it hurts.