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been a while

by rawrimaturtle.. 11/15/2012

written by rawrimaturtle..

heey, well.. its been a while i guess.. been really down lately. even though im talking 30mg of prozac.. doesnt work.. no surprise tho.

been losing lots of weight! wooohooo!!!!! though of course my friends would disagree about the “wooohoooo”

i fainted the other day, fell down the stairs and sprained my ankle. of course my friend thinks its from not eating, and maybe it is, but oh well..

got a boyfriend. hes really sweet and nice. tho my one really good friend doesnt aproove. she saying i could do much better. but so what?? he makes me happy and thats all that should matter. hes thinking about […]

11/15/2012 2 comments

My friends ask why I have to be depress and I can’t answer that

by magdalena 11/15/2012

written by magdalena

So like an hour ago, I got a visit from 2 of my best friends here in Oxford.

One of them is a girl. Another is a boy, which if you read my last post, my crush.

I told them, I was drunk while I was in the State, I know I promise them not to get drunk again after that night in Oxford. They were pretty mad, which of course, they have absolutely right to, I deserve that.

They began to preaching me about being depress, choice to get drunk blah blah blah

And then they asked, why I have to be depress? when has this begin?

You know […]

11/15/2012 7 comments

Forever alone

by kindalostkid 11/15/2012

written by kindalostkid

Is it bad to say that you would rather be dead than to be without the love of your life your whole life?

I don’t think I’m going to be with the love of my life forever I just can’t handle thinking that cause I love her with all my heart

11/15/2012 1 comment

how do I get help

by CHOCHEEPO 11/15/2012

written by CHOCHEEPO

im depressed. usually i get out of it for awhile and then it comes back for a little. this time i cant seem to get out of it. i dont have any motivation or self confidence and self worth. im not doing anything, im failing my classes, i cant look at my friends anymore. when i do i feel ashamed and disappointed in myself. no matter what people say it doesnt seem to help. i talked to my mom about some of this but it didnt help and it seems she forgot about it. im scared to tell everything to the people i know. im […]

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I want someone to love me.

by christina-- 11/15/2012

written by christina--

I wish I was worthy of being loved.

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Recovering, trying to find purpose?

by 1029 11/15/2012

written by 1029

So I’ve been suicidal for a long time, I usually get this way after someone has treated me badly and made me feel worthless. I attempted the first time when I was 17. I have been struggling for the past year and a half not to kill myself, I’m 24 now. Sometimes the urges were almost overwhelming.

For the first time in my life I started talking to my dad about how worthless I felt. He held me and I was able to cry for the first time in five months. I cried on him for five hours, cried so hard I broke out in fever […]

11/15/2012 4 comments

This is so wrong

by magdalena 11/15/2012

written by magdalena

Don’t know if it relevant, but needed some advice.

I just got back from Boston. I live in Oxford, UK.

I am coming back to Oxford to face another problem of mine.

I have a best friend, we only be together about like 3 months but he is so nice to me.

A few weeks ago, I was drunk, really drunk. I didn’t remember much thing, apparently I texted him to come to pick me up. It was 1.30 am. He came, took me all the way back from the city centre to my room, put me in bed. The next morning, Â I found out about everything. He couldn’t […]

11/15/2012 6 comments

The Baptism Machine

by enjoytheraven 11/15/2012

written by enjoytheraven

(From a dream. Sorry if the size of the post annoys. Just scroll on down.)

I was standing in a large grove of oak trees. It was sunny and warm. The wind was blowing faintly. The grass was bright green and lush. It seemed to be spring.

Through the trees a crowd of people emerged and walked toward where I was standing. The people were all smiling and laughing. They seemed to be in very good spirits.

Amongst them was a procession of young girls each wearing white dresses and adorned with a crown of wild flowers and each carrying a bouquet.

I was swept up into the crowd. […]

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I should be in a Freak Show.

by Gumpy 11/15/2012

written by Gumpy

Oh god, who do i think i am? What exactly is my problem? I’m so confused and angry with myself. Sometimes, i mean most times, when i try to do my hair and everything, i just look in the mirror and burst out crying and get really frustrated by pulling on hair, hurting myself and swear at myself. Grrrr i hate being me -.- Sometimes, i might be happy, slightly happy anyway. And for some reason, i miss being sad and something just doesn’t feel right. And then i remember the bad days that’ll come soon and i get anxiety. Man, i’m retarded.

God, i’m so […]

11/15/2012 27 comments

What’s wrong with me?

by Noone300 11/15/2012

written by Noone300

I just don’t get what I’ve done..Maybe it’s cause I’m too needy.Maybe it’s cause I push everyone away when they are to close.Today I just looked at myself in the mirror and yelled.I let so many things I cared for leave me..they left me.But what did I do wrong?It was never like this since this summer it feels like I had everything ripped away from me.Im so alone in this world .Im still waiting for someone just to understand or possibly relate with what I’m going through and why everyone’s leaving me.Ive never felt my death wanting to happen so soon..

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I’m such a failure

by WishForHappiness 11/15/2012

written by WishForHappiness

My whole life I’ve been told that I was smart. Smart enough to do anything I wanted. I would be the one in the family to go the furthest and make everyone proud. Well, here I am, about to fail my first class in grad school. There’s no way out of it now, save death. The final is Monday, and I know nothing. Every time I try to study I look blankly at the slides for about a half hour, then cry for an hour, then I’m so exhausted all I want to do is take a shower and go to sleep. Everywhere I turn […]

11/15/2012 4 comments

On the inside

by falling_soup 11/15/2012

written by falling_soup

on the inside i feel sad and empty i feel like i am a walking lifeless soul. i moved out of my own house to live with a friend and too be in a better place yet the cutting continues and my thoughts of suicide continue. My situation is better yet i still do not feel any better. i get bullied at school and i know others are talking about me which is the hard part to deal with but sometimes i wounder if that is why i am still feeling sad. i do not think much of the bulling but it hurts. I stopped […]

11/15/2012 2 comments

To Be Lost

by Misery is a Butterfly 11/14/2012

written by Misery is a Butterfly

When you are lost, there is no light at the end of the tunnel.. or even a tunnel at all. There is only darkness with absolutely nothing around you. You wander, but cannot see and eventually just stop and stay where you are. There are no paths, there is no hope. When you are lost, hope is a lie made of mere words.

And to be truly lost means to quit trying to be found. You are lost in nothingness and that is all there ever will be. A hole forms, where you burrow into it in the darkness. At least that way, you have walls […]

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A war with myself

by lostchild445 11/14/2012

written by lostchild445

I have voices. Telling me I’m worthless. Hated. Despised. Ones that want me to die, ones that want to kill me. Every night I dream terrible nightmares of being happily together again with my exes or simply sitting next to and holding the people I’ve lost. My mind makes me see people kill themselves. My mind makes me physically feel what’s going on. Whether I’m being stabbed or drowned or hung. I feel it. Every night. Then I wake up to the horrible reality that they are still gone; dead; hating me; and I’m still alive alone and in pain. My mind distorts what I […]

11/14/2012 2 comments

I Never Thought…

by theblackpool13 11/14/2012

written by theblackpool13

I never thought it would come to this. Feeling sad and alone, sitting here looking at what I have done, and all that I know I will do. I think about suicide every day. I just look around and think ” If I jumped off that building, I would probably die.” Or ” If I open the car door and jump, I’ll be roadkill.” It’s constant. I have scars. I have tears. But most people around here don’t really understand. If I told my parents they would freak out. If I committed suicide then my siblings, they might blameÂ themselves. Â I’m at a dead end road, […]

11/14/2012 6 comments

alone

by baseballer13 11/14/2012

written by baseballer13

why am i so unlikable?

11/14/2012 1 comment

Shit.

by cossettelee 11/14/2012

written by cossettelee

I think my dad might have dementia. Fuck my life.

11/14/2012 3 comments

and then what?

by leavinitallbehindme 11/14/2012

written by leavinitallbehindme

i have been depressed which is a mild word Â in comparison to what i feel for so long i dont remember ever being happy EVER,i hate this life i hate everything about it, i hate my ex i Â would love to castrate him and Â engulf him on fire then shoot myself, but naw i would rather just end my own pain let him live with his and everything he did to cause all my newest pain, i dont see any reason to exist other than to be miserable and makes those around me miserable and uncomfortable to be around me, people tend to […]

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legit reason to die, need an accident tho

by littletrex 11/14/2012

written by littletrex

I am a survivor of childhood abuse…really bad scary abuse, i was under three when i was raped repeatedly and then i molested my little sister not knowing any better this all before the age of six. I have gone thru therapy and counseling. I have tried my best to make a good life for myself and am working on my bachelors degree, have a job, have friends, have a boyfriend, a good family, but the effects of what happened to me, and what I have done keep surfacing and i have reached a road block emotionally. My little sister was a complete failure to […]

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Masquerade

by Abselom 11/14/2012

written by Abselom

I’ve gotten to be very good at hiding what’s inside. Whenever somethings wrong or bothering me, I can usually hide it really well. I have several different masks though..

Home/Family Mask- When I’m home and just around my parents i usually just chill in my room and act tired (which i usually am when im upset). I curl up in my sweat pants and wrap up in blankets so they can’t see if I have hurt myself in anyway. ButÂ I havnt done that in a while.Â This mask is usually just hiding out and being tired.

Dance Mask- When i’m at dance, i just try to act goofy […]

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