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I’m falling to pieces. I’m breaking. Finding out you have cancer…worst news..
You don’t know what to do..your lost..you feel alone..
You feel sick…you feel empty…
I’m breaking down..
Breakdown..after breakdown..
I’m two faced, one good one bad. I hate it. I was suicidal, a smoker and an alcoholic for some time. Im only 13. I was in a hospital a few weeks ago for suicidal thoughts & attempts. I still hate myself, but I realize that if I commit suicide, I won’t ever rest. There, I met amazing people with problems. They made me stop hating myself by a little, and spending time around them helped give me a new insight to life.
My mom & I have never been on good terms, & when we finally were, I thought that now i could kill myself […]
Slept in on saturday.  I  got two extra hours of sleep on sunday.  Went to bed an hour early last night..  And i can barely even stay awake this morning.   I have no energy.  My body simply hurts – like I have just been swinging a sludge hammer all day.
Why am i always tired.  Why do i always feel like I have to just lay down.  How can I continue with the ‘stare at my computer and ignore all the work that is piling up around me?’ Absolutely nothing excites me anymore (other than literally for a minute at a time, and then right back into […]
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I’m not sure if linking is allowed, but this comic made me tear up. Even though I have thought about suicide several times, and though I can’t say there would be many people who would miss me if I do go–every time I think of how doing so might affect those who knew me, I hold off. I’d rather not hurt people like that.
…instead I just keep beating myself up inside, and that’s never good.
I’m glad I have a forum here to share how I feel, but I need to reach out more to the people around me for help. Just gotta find the […]
I don’t want to be here anymore.. I really don’t. The only thing that stops me is knowing how much I would hurt my boyfriend and how upset my mum would be if she was here. But I’m over life and it’s bullshit, I just want to leave.
Well long story short I come from a family that has made their own wealth through a private business of helping children with learning disorders. Love my family of two brothers, three sisters, and mom and dad.
The name is Gabe 19 years old. I’ve always felt like i have tried to do the right thing. Be polite, treat others nicely.Junior year of high school 2009 Â i just slipped into a huge depression sprial. Â Always kinda felt i wasn’t physically fit enough, felt guilty for how others perceived me. Â Never felt like i was there for who i thought was my friends. Always struggled in […]
Up untill 2008 life was going great. 21 living life at the full and with a good idea of what I wanted to do.
May 2008, My Grandad died suddenly and then from September I went to Uni in Newcastle but failed in May 2009. Since then my life has taken for the worst. Got asthma that effects me especially in the cold weather that makes me hard to breath a lot of the time. I am now failing at another university in the South East England and now being 25 it is hard to find a job with these reccesson that the uk is  in
I have been thinking about […]
After sitting in the bath with a razor blade in my. Thinking I should just do it. Just die. Just get it over with an leave. But then something stopped me. I thought what had led me up to this? What has been so bad that has led me to thinking that killing myself is the best answer. I sat in my bath for about two hours just thinking, and meditating. It doesn’t  have to be like this. I making it like this. I don’t have to be depressed I don’t have to constantly feel bad for myself and only think about my past. Yes […]
hello, well i recently lost my sick daughter. i knew she was going to die eventually but i didn’t want it to be through suicide. i feel so upset and ashamed that i wasn’t there for her. I’m the worst mother in the world and i did not deserve to have such a beautiful and kind kid. i got a letter and some of it was,
dear mum I’m sorry i have been such a disappointment i didn’t mean to. why did you never understand? but none of this is your fault and i will always love you.
she said more but its too heartbreaking. i miss […]
I get 2 anon voicemails today telling me I should kill myself. 3 texts too. My head has been going through every possivle scenario, thinking about how I could do it. I don’t see my therapist for a week, and I physically cannot go back to the hospital. I would not recover this time. The only option is death. I can’t keep living like this, with people hating me, myself included. Â With my life being slowly ebbed away by reality and sorrow. I’m one more breakdown from total psychosis. I have no where else to turn.
As soon as I am old enough I am going to admit myself into a mental institution so I don’t do anything that will make me even more of a disappointment to others. I have accepted that everyone hates me and my aunt is too kind to throw me out herself. I even accept that secretly my dad probably drank himself to death because he hated me and couldn’t stand me. I know everyone loves my sister and brothers more. I also know that if/when I kill myself noone will care or be sad. This is probably my last entry so for everyone that hates […]
Apparently I’m “Emotionally Detached” from my feelings and emotions and relationships.
I guess my therapist is right.
Because when I become “attached” I get depressed and want to cut/kill myself.
But when im “detached” I want to cut myself so I feel again. Than become depressed and want to kill myself.
So which is the better of the two evils?
I used to be a very happy person. In fact, I was that loud and annoying kid who was always laughing and didn’t care what others thought. I do well in school; I dont really try very hard and I get all A’s. I have friends; they all think I’m the happiest guy alive. At school, I still act happy even now; I don’t want them to know. I have a girlfriend; a beautiful, sexy, funny, silly girlfriend, and I loved and still love her very very much. But on October 1st, 2011, she sent nudies to one of her guy friends. When I found […]
We might be getting back together…I don’t know why I’m still crying…..
who said that we can’t give up and that it would be okay who said that we can’t fade away already…. i am at the end and i just can’t stand it any longer i just want too be happy but i have been stuck in a rut for the past 6 years when will it ever change. i am just wishing i could give up and never turn back i want to run away as far as i can *i prob. won’t run away but i wish i could* i just want too have a good balance in my life again <3
When I was diagnosed bipolar in 2007, my life was greatly devastated. Since 2002 I was taking online screening for depression on a pretty often basis and finding I was considered “severley depressed.” Now I was being told that sometimes I’m extremely happy? When have I ever been happy? I was hospitalized for 3 days a day after the first Christmas my Grand-Mother passed away when I was diagnosed by this hospital as bipolar. I could understand if I may have falsey put on a smile when saying hello to a nurse in passing but, it doesn’t even sound logical that I was happy. I […]
I wrote on here the other day about my life has fallen apart completely. I feel completely hopeless and trapped inside my own head, and in the days since that post, I’ve gotten blackout drunk, stopped taking my bipolar meds and had random anonymous sex 2 nights in a row because I have no other way to escape the way I feel. I hate being sober because all I can do is obsess about how my meds aren’t working, about how I can’t seem to pull it together and find hope in anything, and about how the one person I’ve ever truly loved in life […]
So (by someone on this site) I just got called ungrateful trash and that it wouldn’t matter if i died. Ummmm I have no fucking respect for someone who says something like that, especially on this site.
I’ve experienced all I need to now, I’ve loved, I’ve smiled, cryed and been torn apart. I’m ready to move on to the afterlife now, whats the point. I have no ambition or drive, or any passions, other then just being with a beautiful guy, but that will never happen, nobody cares for me or my tragic tale and says its a load of bullshit. Everyone these days are WAY WAY WAY WAY too different and freaky and it cause for way too many disagreements and incompatabilities! This world is officially FUCKED and I want out, now!! VERY soon, I will be heading to the […]
I’m ready to go but I’m afraid of what’s on the otherside. A soul set free? Or a soul still held captive? Not afraid of doing the deed, afraid of not completing it. Erasing the past, present, and future. Redo the equation and count me out. This emptiness has completed it’s mission. Time for me to go. The ground I’ve stepped on too many times is calling my name and it sounds so sweet. Going without a fight, and a smile on my face. Happiness. The lost ingredient of my life.. Found. One last memory written on paper. A whisper goodbye and her soul […]
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