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im just tired …

by RoseThatsIt 10/31/2012

written by RoseThatsIt

While searching “how to kill yourself” I came upon this site. I debated over the fact on wether I should join. Then I did … Well to begin I would like to explain why I was searching that in the first place. Idk I’m just Tired of my whole life completely . This is my first post. And well yeah my life pretty much sucks , I’m getting devoured by depression and anxiety..I hate myself I’m a piece of shit seriously .. if I post later on you’ll get to know why. ..

10/31/2012 3 comments

cuts

by falling_soup 10/31/2012

written by falling_soup

I cut myself today it was kinda was a way to numb the pain and help me forget about everything on my mind all the sadness I was feeling but now I’m just left with the cuts and I’m trying to hide them so no one notices I just want too stop feeling so sad all the time what is wrong with me!!!

10/31/2012 4 comments

What’s the big deal

by jjgirl13 10/31/2012

written by jjgirl13

I was just thinking. Why do people guilt trip over cutting themselves?
Who the fuck cares what other people think? (Well, maybe that’s more of my perspective.) It’s non-lethal, it hurts less than getting a tattoo, you just don’t get a pretty picture at the end. I mean, for pain itself, there would be constructive and productive things to do like yoga, or running till your legs give out, that hurt a lot more than some scrapes. The intensity of pain you feel from pushing your bodily limits are usually a lot worse than the actual act of cutting. If you consistently need stitches and […]

10/31/2012 9 comments

My Struggle

by Dancer1400 10/31/2012

written by Dancer1400

I have a really good life at school, but my home life isn’t so good. Ever since I started high school my mom has set stricter rules. I’m really getting sick of it. A couple weeks ago she got so mad at me for saying “okay” to her when she told me to dust. in fact, she got so pissed off she grabbed my arms, then my neck, and then my head and squeezed as hard as she could. I guess you could say she abuses me verbally with “You’re going to kill me.” and “You are the worst child.” She has never apologized to […]

10/31/2012 4 comments

The saddest thing about my life

by cyanidesofmarch 10/31/2012

written by cyanidesofmarch

The saddest thing about my life is not that I’m going to die alone, in pain and without a shred of comfort. The saddest thing is that I didn’t do it sooner.

10/31/2012 3 comments

by darko 10/31/2012

written by darko

i’ve never been a fan of halloween, but this year i cancelled plans with my best friend to drink 1.5 litres of wine, right out of the bottle, in my pajamas, in bed, playing with my box cutter, keeping quiet so my roommates don’t know i’m home.

i just can’t compete in this world.. everyone makes living and smiling look so easy but it just isn’t for me.

10/31/2012 3 comments

Why do you cut?

by xxVodkaAndRazorsxx 10/31/2012

written by xxVodkaAndRazorsxx

So recently, I have started to cut myself. I don’t know why I do it. Maybe it is because I’m numb and it makes me feel something. I have no idea.. But why do you guys cut? I’ve never understood why someone would want to but yet I ended up finding myself doing it.

10/31/2012 7 comments

I dont know what else to do

by i_hate_myself 10/31/2012

written by i_hate_myself

Im M/30 live in the Toronto area, grew up I was relatively quiet, I had friends, was popular on the football team.Â I moved away to a smaller city, I have no friends now, I can’t remember the last time I had sex without money changing hands.Â I have not been in a relationship in 15 years.Â The only positive thing in my life is my job, and that is starting to fall apart because of my anxiety, depression,Â and alcoholism.Â I can’t remember the last time I hugged someone or had someone outside my family tell me that they loved me.

I can’t keep going […]

10/31/2012 5 comments

stabbing

by NotReallyHereAtAll 10/31/2012

written by NotReallyHereAtAll

I was just sitting comfortably in bed watching TV and in a strangely good mood and then suddenly it all went black inside my head and all I can think now is that I want to stab myself multiple times. It’s sort of scary, really, the way I go from balanced and happy to furious and violent in seconds. I thought this sadness was going away, but it turns out it hasn’t, I’ve simply been distracted by school and a supposed social life but I’ve spent the last week at home pretty much alone. I don’t want my happiness to depend on other people or […]

10/31/2012 1 comment

The thing I like least about cutting.

by jjgirl13 10/31/2012

written by jjgirl13

I saw a picture of a girl’s arm covered in cuts and blood.
What did it make me think?

I hate it when it gets so itchy when it starts to heal.
The itchiness alone makes it not worth it, for me, at least.

10/31/2012 15 comments

Help me?

by littleprincess 10/31/2012

written by littleprincess

I don’t know why, but I can’t be happy. Seriously, everything is very well in my life, but.. I just can’t be happy.

I have only a few friends. They are not the best friends You can get and I feel lonely sometimes, but they are good for me. Still, they don’t make me happy.

I have a boyfriend and he says that he loves me. He tries hard for me. Many girls are jealous for me. But.. he doesn’t make me happy.

I’m pretty. Everyone tells me so. But.. I don’t feel pretty enough.

My life is good. So why do I want to die so bad? Why […]

10/31/2012 1 comment

Tipping point

by reductive 10/31/2012

written by reductive

Today I hit my tipping point into trying again. I will seek one last attempt for help with overcoming how I feel , but I don’t believe it will change the outcome i have planned. I haven’t been a large contributor here but have appreciated everyone’s posts.

10/31/2012 3 comments

Sometimes silence, can’t be undone;

by jjgirl13 10/31/2012

written by jjgirl13

sometimes silence can’t be undone.

I sit quietly and close my eyes.
I hear the world about me whir and buzz from a distance.
TV announcers raising their voices
debating this and that, arguments and choices

I wonder about the relevance
Of the questions of mice and men
inquiries abound, relentless in their prevalence

I grasp at them desperately, floating mid-air.
Always above my head
They fly by, with me unnoticed.

They tell me, that the answers to all my confusion
are just a step ahead, just a wisp away
But always my battles, end with Pyrrhic victories
Losses more than gains, condemned to mere memories

And…just
Just;

Just when I […]

10/31/2012 0 comment

Need someone to talk to about opiate overdoses and its effects

by MrSebastior 10/31/2012

written by MrSebastior

Basically I need to ask questions about said topic.

please email me if you have a fair amount of knowledge about opites!

MeSebastior@gmail.com, thanks

10/31/2012 0 comment

by oemh 10/31/2012

written by oemh

Halloween= candy= food= eat = self conious = throwing up = feeling like shit=. Crying all nigh = horrible next day

The next 24 hrs r going to be horrible, but wish me luck:) happy haloween guys. I love you all and thank you for everything!! Haha I’m being a bunny:)) I never would have thought that this I’d what my last halweenncostusme would be but angainn I never thought I would be this depressed or sucidal, buy here I am:'( anyway byE guys have a great day and ill see u later tonight if u know what I mean.

I know that probally sounded like […]

10/31/2012 0 comment

I watched the movie “Castaway” again today. “I am so sad…but I know what I have to do now.”

by isaac 10/31/2012

written by isaac

I had forgotten how much that film resonated with me when it first came out; how I cried and cried because of the loss, the tragedy, the helplessness, the irresolute – albeit hopeful – ending. Â The words still resonate with me today, now, even while contemplating my own will to exist:

“…We both had done the math.

Kelly added it all up…and knew she had to let me go.

I added it up, and knew that I’d…I’d lost her…’cause I was never going to get off that island. I was going to die there…totally alone…I mean, I was going to get sick, or get injured or something…

The […]

10/31/2012 3 comments

So I asked for help today….

by imsodone12 10/31/2012

written by imsodone12

I told my two best friends that i think i need help and that i thought i wasÂ borderlineÂ anorexic. the first one laughed and said that it was okay, then she turned the conversation to herself. like iÂ don’tÂ even matter. she turned to my other friend and said ‘i cut myself the other day after not doing it for so long.’ i wanted to turn to her and say ‘yeah, well i contemplate suicide every night and you ignoring my problems because you think all anyone ever cares about is you. thanks for letting me know you want me to stay here.’

the second person i told was […]

10/31/2012 1 comment

I SURVIVED, YOU MAY END UP WORSE THAN HOW YOU FEEL NOW.

by CameBack 10/31/2012

written by CameBack

I wrote this in response to someone who just posted, and thought I’d share it with whoever needs to see it right now.

I have lived with Chronic illness and Pain for most of my life. I’ve been suicidal many times, have attemped many times, and am today…choosing to live for today. That’s all I can do.

If you’re thinking you can kill yourself, please read this first.

I lived through taking enough narcotics (over 100) and alcohol. I woke up in a psych hospital a week later. Apparently I was found too late to do anything for me other than see if I woke up. I donâ€™t […]

10/31/2012 2 comments

Am I really just lazy?

by MayAstoria 10/31/2012

written by MayAstoria

I started college last year, this is my second year and is going worse and worse. I don’t feel like going to any lectures or doing any homework, I have no motivation for anything in life. I have recently found out I have Avoidance Personality Disorder, which means it takes me 100 times more effort to start talking to people, because I think I will humiliate myself somehow, so I have no friends at all. Ever since I started college I feel like I want to die, but not to kill myself, because I am really afraid of physical pain, but if someone asked me […]

10/31/2012 9 comments

Tell me I’m your national anthem.

by christina-- 10/31/2012

written by christina--

My mother told me once when I was about 11/12. That she gave more care to my brothers because she saw that I needed the attention less. I could take care of myself.

I guess that is sort of how I lived the next 10 years. I dont need anyone. I can take care of myself. Except for this site I never really talk about my shit.

I rant a lot. I am probably one of the most moody people you will ever meet. I nag about pretty much everything I see.

Im a negative person.Â The glass is always half empty.

Still it would be nice from time to […]

10/31/2012 0 comment

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