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Calling Amakua!

by Mary Lou
written by Mary Lou

Amakua, you were the one who first helped to keep me sane, okay temporary sanity, lol, VS the “insanity I was feeling.”  Life continues to spiral, and become more messed up everyday.  I remember you, Goodgirl, The Duke of Marmalade and Dawg.  Voices of reason, when life seemed to have no reason. So, I am here again after a 4-5 month hiatus.  Obviously not here because everything is fucking groovy.  Ah, showing my age.  So, the update, or the rehash, whichever you prefer.

I am 52, married, but not living with my husband, he moved out in February, yet, we are not separated, or so I […]

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The everydayl life of a 14 year old American boy..

by jesusjr
written by jesusjr

If you really knew me…
You would know that I had tried to commit suicide multiple times..
You would know that it’s actually not my mom who won’t feed me. She is not the reason I don’t eat I just starve myself for days hoping to pass out and never wake up.
You would know that I was once and still is bullied emotionally and physically.
You would know that I have a dangerously low self-esteem.
You would know that I take everything really serious it’s just that most people won’t take ME serious.
You would know that I’m not usually shy and all I’m […]

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Last Words

by A
written by A

Right now I have such a small amount of hope… but its enough to keep me alive…I really hope that its just enough to last…enough to get me through but its dying, getting smaller…everyday..dying. The source of my hope… Music…one song… Famous Last Words…”I am not afraid to keep on living, I am not afraid to walk this world alone.”……… Thanks My Chemical Romance for keeping me alive even if its just for a little while

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Life Sucks

by aphil
written by aphil

Life fucking sucks. Might as well get that out of the way now.
Some days it would be so much easier if it were just fucking over. And some days it seems like it already is, like living days that have no substance.
I’m living, but not really there.
Why does my life suck? I’m fat, I’m ugly, I’m mentally disturbed, I’m lonely, and everything.g is quite frankly very miserating. My motivation to do anything worthwhile has blantantly disappeared over the past few months. The larger disorders, the social phobias, the binge eating disorder, the anxiety, the OCD, the paranoia, they’ve been there for years. […]

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For better or for worse

by Burning Ether
written by Burning Ether

 

Zoloft a drug prescribed in so many western societies to deal with a range of health issues particularly depression and anxiety. Zoloft for me is not what I expected. I thought I’d feel happier, I do in a way but I don’t feel any less sad or miserable. I know I should kill myself but I can’t Zoloft has taken that from me. So now I’m stuck in a mood where nothing truly matters, I should give up. So tired…..

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I Don’t want someone who cares…

by GoodbyeImSorry
written by GoodbyeImSorry

I’m a 16 year old boy who is thinking about Suicide all the time, doesn’t matter where i am or what i’m doing. I don’t have a standard story, mabye i can cry about having disvorced parents or being bullied in primary school but that aren’t really reasons i contemplate about suicide. I’ve never had therapy, i think none knows how i am… I’ve tried a “online” therapy “test” and as diagnosis came out i am severely depressed. I’ve propably been depressed since i was 14 but none saw it, neither did i.

When i read post on this site i always see the sentence: Life gets better, […]

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Someday

by A
written by A

You can go, you can start all over again, you can try to find a way to make another day go by.  You can hide, hold all your feelings inside.  You can try and carry on when all you want to do is cry. and maybe someday we’ll figure all this out, try to find a way to make things better now. We’ll be better off.

We’ll be better off dead

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Time to bite the bullet

by whatisthepoint24
written by whatisthepoint24

I am a 24 year old  suffering with serious depression. I have become obsessed with committing suicide and have been on this site for about a month now haven’t really talked here much my social skills wouldn’t be the best tbh. I don’t like to go out spend all day on the computer and listening to music… to cut a long story short I have really set my mind that this weekend to just get it over with have a method planed out so yeah thats it.

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Other people

by sigh
written by sigh

Life is hard
because there are other people
who you will never truly know
you don’t know what they want
how they feel
or what they think
even when they tell you
what they want
how they feel
or what they think
about you.
You can never be completely sure
that they are telling the truth
or that they are even real

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Too Much

by katiebear12
written by katiebear12

i know i said im not ever going to post here again… but too much has happened since i decided not to post here anymore and im just absolutely terrified of every option i have as of this point… i’ve been so stressed out over the past two/three weeks and i’ve come to having panic attacks more than two times a day, almost every single day. first thing, Sunday night two/three weeks ago i was really struggling and i talked to one of my friends and she came to the conclusion that i was contemplating suicide, even though i didn’t say that exactly. so Monday […]

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I just don’t understand

by sigh
written by sigh

Sometimes I just do things and don’t realize how fucked up those things are until it’s too late. It’s like something just takes over my mind or body. I have sex with boys that I don’t really like then I get mad at them for calling. I am not a good person. Or I don’t know how to be one. I don’t really know. I always say that I’m not just one of those bitchy girls who plays mind games and fucks around. But I am, that’s exactly what I do. In fact, I’m probably a lot worse than all those girls because the entire […]

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shades of white

by chance3153
written by chance3153

I’ve been browsing here for some time now and I have to say each one of your personal stories have always helped me in some way so much obliged I strongly believe that expressing how you feel can assist you in finding a way to continue if it may only be for a few extra moments. Let me first say you can just call me Chance is a name I’ve aquired over the years for all the triumphs I’ve overcome over the past 10 years or so. I’m like everyone else I’ve loved I’ve lost overcome miscarriages with past relationships, […]

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suicide help!!!!!! PLEASE READ IT COULD SAVE A LIFE

by teela21
written by teela21

HELLO, my name is teela i am 18 years old and currently i am a suicide survivor…….ive attempted suicied numerous times..well im on here because in my defense i didnt have anybody to talk to like call or shoot a tex to and say hey this is whats happening……i may not be able to give u every reason to not kill your self but i sure can give u every reason to make you wanna live im from a small town and im about to finish up high school…every since ive been in school nothing but bullying has tooken my place…ive been raped…beaten and everything […]

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so this is it?

by iamready
written by iamready

so here i am on the internet rock bottom so to say… first of i am not from america or england so my english will be bad but i need to get this off my chest …

So where to start? the fact that every day i feel worthless a big fat loser with no future unworthy of love? or that almost every night before i go to bed i think on how where and when i could kill myself? oh and dont worry this isnt a sad story its freaking hilarius so lets start i have a decent life i mean shure i only have […]

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Don’t know what the hell I be on about, But from here and there, I belong nowhere….

by Nat....
written by Nat....

I don’t want to come back. Chat room is mentally destroying me.. And I don’t even come here much anymore. The Suicide Project is dying out.. And me? Well, I was just one of the many members. If you have taken the time to read this, Thank you. You are probably one of the very few left trying to keep the Suicide Project torch burning. Good luck… People need this place.

But me? Well, People always say.. There is no such thing as a happy ending. I guess this is the end of my story.. :'( It’s been Interesting though, I guess. Met some amazing people..

Orangish, For one. […]

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I forgot to add a title

by orangish
written by orangish

I confuse myself constantly.

Other people confuse me constantly.

The world must therefore be nothing but constant confusion, with only infrequent periods where people manage to convince themselves that they are able to grasp exactly what the hell is actually going on. Some can do it for longer than others. I seem to lack any capacity for that, myself.

So I’ve decided to give up bothering with trying to understand myself, other people, or any other bizarrely convoluted topic such as that, and instead I’ll just stick to simple topics like quantum physics or botany.

I love human beings, but I also hate them, myself included. Fucking vortexes of […]

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Sometimes it suddenly hits me that youre gone,

by christina--
written by christina--

It’s not that I forget that you did not want to talk to me anymore. I could never forget that.

You were the most amazing person I have ever met and you thought I was just as amazing.

And I knew this would happen. I knew when you got to know me you would get sick of me.

Its very painful to realize that someone has left you because you are really just an awful person.

 

Sometimes I’m just reading and a word or whatever reminds me of you and when I’m not high as fuck I cant help but burst out in tears.

 

It hurts knowing youre an awful […]

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I need an advice, please…

by genius.otaku
written by genius.otaku

Today, I am posting this because I need an advice. Like almost every comrades here on this site, I am suffering…A lot. I want to die…But I have no intent of suiciding. I have 3 personalities, so they gave me 3 different choices of what to do, so help me to decide:

My 1st: Continue to suffer, until somebody save me or I have an mental breakdown -> killer -> cops will get rid of me. This guy is weak, lonely, yet gentle and kind.

My 2nd: Cry loud enough to gain everone attention/fake mental breakdown. This guy is stronger, easier to get rage, but is also […]

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