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My mom found out that I cut a she said if I do. It again the I would be are the mental place whatshould I  do

Hi my name is Rachael and I’m 17 and my mom wants me to get on anti depressants and I’ve been on the before and they didn’t help what should I do??

i am a survivour of suicide i tried to kill myself and now i an’t make the feelings go away, i can’t really share my feelings with my gf, i’m a lesbian which makes things worse, cause people say stuff, and my family won’t accept it and i’m also a survivour of childhood molestation. i see things at night and i feel like why bother some times. help

Rhetorical questions. I don’t expect anyone to do anything. Part of me doesn’t want them to.

It’s the 27th of September next Thursday, Those of you who know me well will know how I feel about this date. For those of you that don’t, I guess you will find out.

Today has been shit. Really shit. To the point where I realized that I don’t want to do this anymore, And don’t fucking tell me that medication will help. I know it won’t, It will just basically numb my emotions so i’m like a lifeless robot (funnily ironic right?) I don’t want to do these routines anymore, I figured […]

Ok, been to the doctor today and he tells me I have cancer. I’m killing myself if I don’t do a treatment option. So, the only thing that comes to mind is a noose and latter. I’d rather die quick than let them kill me or make me the walking dead. I’m just stuck.

I always comin back on my black days.. Some of small comments always helps me a little bit..

I got knife to my back yesterday… New lesson of life: “never believe in people too much” “never plan too far” “never trust somebody too much”. My fucking roomie, he called me and said: “im moving out, i quit studies. bye”. It means i cannot rent this big flat alone, too expensive! I am going to Asia after three days – it means i have no time for searching […]

My friend. She started dating this dude. But last week she hated him? I was taking her to homecoming. Still am, but her boyfriend may be upset. She said if he has a problem he can’t be with her. But I want to be with her. This is only a small piece to the puzzle for my reasoning. Help

im so lonely, and sad.. i just want a friend, someone I can talk to everyday about anything and everything, someone who won’t judge me, someone who will listen and understand. anyone? 

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love to all!

I am sitting on the couch next to my beautiful girlfriend.
I am on my iPad writing this. She has no idea. I think she loves me. But I’m not happy. Every night the only thing that helps me sleep is the thought of suicide. I have failed at most everything I have tried. I have run out of options. For the last few years I have been telling myself “next week will be better”. It doesn’t get better.
I can’t be positive anymore. The eternal void of death looks so inviting. I have got my method planned. It some […]

Every choice you make makes you unique
“You are the universe experiencing itself”
-Carl Sagan
We are a random assortment of protons electrons and neutrons or quarks if you want to go deeper
Of all the different combinations possible a vast and infinite universe is built
In that universe a galaxy completely unique to every other galaxy
In that a solar system, quite different from others a planet
where the particles combine
to make chemicals that send signals to biological organs
made of cells made from the particles
all within these natural machines called humans
that convert food into love and movies and music and […]

Hey there, I know it has been a few weeks. Lately just been thinking, not over thinking like I did before, but still. I have isolated myself for a few, but started and tried to hang out with a few old buds of mine. Since Labor day Monday, my dreams have gotten better. I’m not stressing out like I used too. I have realized I have done a lot of disappointing choices in the past, but I am accepting the consequences and slowly developing, understanding what I have done wrong, and accepting the choices on why things have gone down the drain. Since I have always disliked changes […]

The feeling of being abandoned I know all too well. I know it like the back of my hand. Love hurts, being lied to is expected.. but being and feeling as if ur abandoned completely fucking sucks. Sometimes I feel like a dog who’s master has gone away and as a dog I patiently await the return of my master to no avail. Sometimes I still shed a few tears from the horrors of my life. I am matured far beyond my age in the aspect of trials and tribulations I have endured thus far. I can’t say I have endured all the conflicts which […]

I came across this site purely by mistake … a mistaken type in google search but decided to check it out anyways.

I don’t really know what to expect or what this place is but I do know that I think I belong here.

I’m lost. So completely lost. And the will to keep going is unbearable. I’ve run out of steam. I’ve run out of options.

Suicide and death and other forms of self harm consume my head on a regular basis. I don’t know whats keeping me from doing it. But whatever it is it’s slowly becoming weaker and weaker.

I’m just lost.