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I use to shiver at the thought of cutting myself, but your words cut right into me, sharper than a blade, I would know, because I’ve felt the blade pierce my skin, but it was all numb. Where was the hurt I should feel as I watched the blood drip down my arm. Worthless. I may be numb on the outside, but the inside is constant pain, when will it stop. I stare in tears as I watch drops of worthlessness drain from my body. Until there is nothing more to drop.

You know I don’t know if I consider myself necessarily suicidal so some of you may think that I’m misusing this website, but I am just so tired. So god damn tired of everything. I’m tired of being strong and putting a smile on my face when I don’t want to, I’m tired of being called a “cold *****” even if it is a joke. I just wish (and i know it is a long shot) but I wish my parents loved each other as much as they love me. They fight and he throws things at her and stomps out of the house and […]

so i haven’t really posted anything lately because life has been alright. my bestfriend and i don’t talk anymore.  i still love him, i think i will always love him, but i couldn’t take it anymore. he told me to never look at him, because he doesn’t want people knowing he knows me. it’s fine though because i’m becoming stronger, and i’m on my road to recovery. i haven’t cut myself in almost two months, and i haven’t made myself throw up in a month and a half. i’m not happy, but i’m not depressed. i’m peaceful? i don’t really know how to explain my emotions, but […]

Weakly wandering through life

My facade fragily held together

By a smile and a happy face

But if you took the time to look

You’d see the tear streaming down my face

You’d see a heart filled with hate

If you only took the time to ask

You’d see the true pain

You’re perfect…all I can say is….it was enchanting to meet you <3