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I have the balls to do what i need to, i just dont have the things i will leave behind prepared yet but really, the way im feeling waking up everyday just kills me, so i find strenth to keep going until i take care of business.
My chemical romance, just thought it was worth posting..
Famous Last Words lyrics
Songwriters:Â Iero, Frank; Pellisier, Matt; Toro, Raymond; Way, Gerard; Way, Mikey;
Now I know that I can’t make you stay
But where’s your heart?
But where’s your heart?
But where’s your?
And I know there’s nothing I could say
To change that part
To change that part
To change
So many bright lights to cast a shadow, but can I speak?
Well, is it hard understanding I’m incomplete?
A life that’s so demanding, I get so weak
A love that’s so demanding, I can’t speak
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to […]
I’ve never understood why the people around me see me being suicidal as an assault on them. Sometimes I feel like the attempts that people have made to save me are just vanity driven allowing them to remain void of guilt largely because when people realise they can’t save me they get fed up and leave. It’s clear they don’t care. But worse than all of this is the way everyone from ‘friends’, family, and sometimes even mental health professionals use emotional blackmail against you. I’ve been called selfish because I have a 5 year old daughter (she has been taken from me). My alleged […]
Hi again, Im Elico. I posted once here (I dont have anything is the title of it)…
I-im just tired you know? I just need to end it all, Im happier that way actually… Life sucks for me. Im beign selfish but for once I want to be selfish… Ive made decisions to make others happy but to make me… alone.
People will never get my pain, it might be superficial, manageable and shallow to some but for me it simply isnt… and I just do not care with other people anymore…
I need to simply end you know? And I do not want to resort to violent means with blood splatters and […]
I am a deployed military member on my 3rd combat deployment. Since joining I have never seen any combat. No mortar has ever come close. No IED has ever went off. No shots have been fired at me. I joined to go fight. I wanted to achieve greatness and kill the enemy. I changed jobs this time in order to give myself a better chance of getting in an engagement. This time like every other time I have beem deemed too necessay for staying on the FOB. To make matters worse, my spouse was hit by […]
Is here anyone that has failed suicide here? I’m not talking about changing your mind, I mean if someone saved you or something went wrong.
Would you comment your experience and tell me/us what happened, what you felt etc
And if you need someone to talk to, email me, no matter what it’s about, even if you feel stupid, it’s still serious and i’d like to try and help
MrSebastior at gmail dot com
I’ve tried everything to get better. Meds, therapy, at least 7 hospital stays, vitamins, diet, ECT…10 years i’ve been in this hell! My last episode has lasted all of this year and most of last year, without a break!! I’m never happy for longer than half a day at a time and that happens very rarely (maybe once a month). I’ve been suicidal for over 7 months since my ECT treatment failed to help me. I’ve seen over 8 psychiatrists and none have helped. My current doctor’s only suggestion was to come off meds entirely (cause they do nothing) and find a new therapist. That’s it. […]
i’ve dealt with complicated thoughts and feelings my entire life, all of them in their most extreme form. i daily go from being angry at everything else that exists, to quietly loathing myself in a corner. i had suicidal thoughts from the time i was very young, maybe as early as eight. i first really plotted to kill myself when i was sixteen. i even learned how to tie a perfect hangmans noose. i’m 20 now. and the thing is, that it really has nothing to do with my life. i don’t have any significant problems, hell, i even just got engaged to my girlfriend. but i hate […]
I am Just a Person Like you all.. I also live a Unwanted life.. I am living but nobody can see that By each Passing day I am dieing.. I am killing myself inside.. My soul is no more.. I am Spiritually dead.. But I physically Smile Only for the ones who love Me.. And I don’t know why!
I know how it feels to cry alone in the blanket.. just crying and crying!! I don’t know what my future gonna be! My Parents constantly giving me Tensions and Tensions.. I am Killing myself inside in these Stress tensions..
Sometimes I feel “Relations are everything and the […]
Feel like I can’t make it in this world. I’m 19 years old and my family is begging me to stay at home because they know I can’t cope outside…. they’re trying to help me but this is exactly what has ruined me…. not leaving the house and going out for once. I feel pathetic, I can’t live like this anymore .
a year and a half ago, i stood on the train tracks awaiting death. however, two women pulled me off. i was instantly hospitalized. i spent a month there, between inpatient and outpatient care. before then, i was in my first real relationship. we’d been together for over a year and he would constantly tell me how he plans on proposing to me. i get that i shouldn’t have believed it, that I’m too young for talk like that…but it all felt so real. a month before the incident, i approached my boyfriend, explaining to him how i wanted to end my life. at first, […]
I cant take much more of this live, i just want to be done and not wake up again.
I’m no longer daddy’s little girl. The princess of his castle. There is no wonder left, no stories of wonderful lands and castles in far away places. Just the terrifying nightmares that haunt me in my sleep. The ones of innocence taken away, the ones of betrayal. Daddy stars in my nightmare and this time he brought friends. Because I have no hope of being successful there’s only one thing I’m good for now.
I stand lost in my nightmare with pain and sadness. I see myself shatter time and time again. And then suddenly I’ve had enough i can take no more pain. I don’t want to feel anymore so I […]
It’s gradualy filling up.My heart is turning jet black,I just feel it.It always felt so empty but now the void is replaced with hatred and disgust.Hatred for my own kind.Hatred for myself most.I’m such a trash.A trash that live in this dump called earth.A dump filled with being I consider trash as well,all piled up together.
I just can’t feel contempt,I can’t be happy here.The only thing that kept me here so long are video games,pathetic as it may.I’m tired of wasting every days away on those stupid games so my poor little self don’t have to think about anything.I achieve nothing everyday.
I just hate humankind.
I […]
Im done with this shit, i refuse to let my heart get broken again, i get so high on pain meds but im not gonna even attempt to move on this timr.
Honestly, this is killing me. Everyday, I wake up..
My mom is on drugs and she wants nothing to do with me,
My brother is in prison.. And dad’s getting older. Nothing easy anymore.
Guys, (girls) This isnt a cry for help. This is an honest statement.
I can’t go on much longer.
I’m in a relationship with someone I’m so in love with, but I get ignored on a daily basis.
It hurts more than anything. I could be happy. I really could, but not like this.
I’ve attempted suicide 5 times
I have scars, and I’ve be committed into the hospital 3 times.
so i told my friend i wasn’t happy and she started to try to preach to me… i know everything she is saying and some of i believe to be true… but seriously… wrong timing. especially when she is one of the few people i can sort of talk to about how i feel… and she knows that when i say that i’m not happy that there really is more to it than just being unhappy.
Im afraid of what happens after you die
i almost fully had the will to continue on living..then i go to a friends house and her sister tells me she is tryin to split my bf and i by telling my parents im still secretly dating him. my parents find out; i wont have internet access at all! let alone my bf? i cant live without him, hes half the reason im still alive and if i lose internet access il lose the other half, i cant let that happen…but if she does tell she has no proof. haha jokes on her now but still freaking i just might lose everyone close to […]
its not really that easy… i wish it was
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