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Tonight I won’t lie about it, I won’t hide from it. I LOVE you end of story. I’m finally crying for once and I feel a little bit. I just want to tell you that I forgive you and I love you and I want to be with you. But that would be so selfish of me and I can’t be selfish with you. I love you too much, you were unhappy with me and I couldn’t bare to know that I cause you that unhappiness. I know who you were and who you became I know that you’ve become an awful person who did awful […]

I’m 23, turning 24 in a month.  I haven’t made any progress in life in 6 years, and it’s gotten to the point I can’t motivate myself to leave the house.  It takes me effort to eat a small amount of food each day.  I haven’t had friends in years.  My family has pretty much given up on me.  They stopped trying to understand, or make me happy a few years ago.  I’ve become a burden on them emotionally and monetarily.  I plan to commit suicide, but I’m terrified that it would fail and I’d end up even worse than I am now.  I have […]

What a funny name for a flower, that’s what I want my family to recieve at my funeral. They can throw it on my casket, cry, weep, and moan. Whatever. I know it’s really awful to do this, but they can’t seem to notice, hey something is wrong with her. Look at that fake smile. I’m not as brave as everybody else, ballsy, I can’t do the antifreeze or overdose or self mutalate. It scares the living day lights out of me. My fear would be a coroner say “this girl lived a pathetic life and took the easy way out.” I care too much […]

I sit here so alone and no way to make it go away…..I have no parents and the only family I have is a grandparent. I gave birth to two children who were unaffected by my short comings. I managed to fake it long enough to make them successful people but I can no longer do this. For 23 years I have lived with this horrid pain and I thought I finally escaped it only to have it resurface due to someone else’s actions. I can’t find a way to make this go away again. I cant live with that pain again. To have to […]

hey anyone hear from lifeishorribe lately??? i haven’t heard from him in awhile and kinda worried…

hey guys haven’t been on in forever…so things are starting to look better, me and my parents are getting along better and last week the guy i like asked me out and is now my boyfriend 🙂 so why do i feel like I’m waiting for the floor to fall through???  because when things seem too good to be true it cuz it is….right?

Anyone hear from AtTheEnd? been missing him… a lot..

I know it’s long. Short version is at the bottom.

I don’t even know why I came here… I pretty much know what I plan to do, and more or less why to do it. I guess I want to let my story be known anonymously to somebody. Part of the issue of not being to tell people is the reason why I’ve cut ties with my family (which I will discuss here) – and thus going to a cycle of alienating those who may have been willing to care in the first place.
So my method of choice – in keeping with my lifes choices […]

(A poem I wrote about a girl who is deeply in love being stood up)

At the risk of a wait

She put on her lipgloss
and fastened her dress
preparing for the date
with the man she loved best

she curled up her hair
and polished her nails
she felt like a princess
in those princessy tales

she looked beautiful
the mirror agreed
she just kept on saying
can’t believe he picked me

as she stared at the clock
her smile could not fade
he had picked her
at the risk of a wait

and she waited and watched
as minutes passed by
maybe he’d come
just a few minutes […]

It's one of my better pictures I guess…thank you effects.

Been thinking and feeling things that even I’m surprised about 🙁

I live in a spiritual community and I finally realize how unhealthy this whole place is. There is no love here everyone here is so judgmental and fake. Its all political. You go away for a while and no one greets you with even just a smile when you come back.

I only feel good now when I am on my meds, and they always wear off in time.

I’m in hell. My boss here is a manipulative a-hole who has no boundaries. I had to tell him I needed to go to the hospital.When I came back, he asked me how it was in front of […]

I’m alone. once again,not the first time. Have nothing to live for. not a care.  After you’ve gone through hell heaven seems like a better place. What am I supposed to do. I just wan to die. but i don’t want to be a coward ughh! someone kill me !

I feel like I have no more life left to bother living for.

I am 40 years and divorced for over a year.  I have two boys that I had no choice but to let them live with their mother — thanks to the state since fathers have no rights.

Otherwise I have nothing to complain about.  I have a great job, have enough money even after the ridiculous amount of child support I pay, I live in a nice house way too big for one person, I am educated with a Masters degree, and have some friends.  I gained a lot of weight due to medical […]

Hi,
I don’t really want to write my story here, but for a long time I’ve wanted somebody to talk with… Preferably someone older. I don’t know why; I’d just be more comfortable. 🙂 Anyway, I’d like someone to talk with, and I’ve always been too scared to ask. I have social anxiety, severe at the moment, and even online I’m badly anxious talking to people. But I’d like to be there for people who need someone to talk to, even if it’s just once, or whenever you need to vent. If you need someone to talk about anything with, I’d really like for it […]

I miss what I once had. I miss it so much, and for years those feelings have consumed me, and they have taken over me until I was no longer me at all. I have blamed so many people for my own problems, and I have lived my short life hating almost everyone who has come into my life. I have caused so many people pain because I let my feelings get the better of me. I have pinned my suicidal thoughts and actions on specific people. I have blamed past experiences for the depression that now consumes me. I have blamed my birth defect […]

I’m high and really suicidal right now. I think I’m gonna go and find something to kill myself with. That or plan to. I’m a wretch and I lose all my friends. I don’t deserve to live nor do I want to live. To much hurt and pain.