For general topics related to the site.
Any boys/men who cuts themselfes.
I’m one of them, and it is a very awkward topic for me to discuss because it is mostly girls who do it.
Thnx for your time
For general topics related to the site.
Any boys/men who cuts themselfes.
I’m one of them, and it is a very awkward topic for me to discuss because it is mostly girls who do it.
Thnx for your time
So i just got out of the hospital for overdose about two days ago. Actually it wasnt the hospital it was the er. I spent most of my time there in four point restraints since i kept trying to leave. The only reason i wanted to leave was because i hate being in the crazy section of the er cause thats were the gaurds are and there not so nice. Then they put moved me next to a baby getting a spinal tap in case you dont know what that is its a needle in your spine i still hear the screaming in my […]
Pain…its not the sharp or intense pain that is experienced when first separating the skin. No, it’s the dull, deep, and gnawing pain after cutting too deep and you’re waiting for the incision to heal. It’s the long week(s) of paranoia and wearing long sleeves in the summer hoping no one will notice or if they do, praying that they don’t call you out. That’s what it has felt like for me this past month…and i am not quite sure what to think about it all….
Ahh… the bitter sweet recognition of failure. Realizing that all you ever were was in reality, nothing at all… Seeing […]
I’ve probably had depression my whole life. It runs in my family, and I was diagnosed at age 13. I am now 18. When I was 13 years old and in the eighth grade, my mom passed away unexpectedly on the morning of Christmas Eve. I began seeing therapists, but it was too soon and I got frustrated and was not getting the help I needed. The very same day I lost my mom, I was forced out of my house by the police. My father, brother, and I had to find somewhere else to live. We moved 5 times between Christmas 2006 and May […]
Do any of us take the advice we give others?
Is the answer in view only from the outside?
My name is Daniel aka Xeeno. I do have an past with “Suicide” and it’s painful to live through. I tried many times to jump off an bright, I tried many times to cut my self, I tried many times to shoot myself, but for some odd reason something in my life through me off. Something wouldn’t let me jump, something wouldn’t let me cut myself, something wouldn’t let me shoot myself. But for some reason now I feel that I shouldn’t live life anymore, I should let life pass by me like the wind, I should let life go, I mean I have no […]
I hate my life. I hate my school. I hate everything that’s been going on. I cut everyday because I hate myself. Nothing helps. I hope I get shot. I hate life. I’m tired of my depression and anxiety. I constantly think about suicide. I need seriouse help. I really want to die
I dont usually cut my wrist cause its hard to hide. Its usually my tummy, legs, or privateish area, sometimes the top of my arms. Whatever its called. Anyway i just had the urge to slice Up. My wrist. So I did. And i never thought about this but this semester I have art. We are making paper machae masks out of chicken wire.. So basically tomorrow im starting the paper machae and Im gonna have to pull up my sleeves. Please help me hide the cuts. Asap!
Im saving money, running away, then killing myself. I’m hoping i get this job first, then save up to at lease 800 and hopefully that’ll be by the end of march. and if i dont have a job by then end of march 31st which is a Saturday and a little bit of money (at lease to get me to a plane ticket) then im still leaving. far away. When i  get there, ill get a hotel and kill myself. Why do all this? Well, I just cant take it here no more, i just want to leave everything and everyone. and When i do […]
hey guys! this is my first post (and hopefully first of many)! if you need any help at all, no matter what your story, i’d love to help! talk to me!!! my ears are open!!! don’t give up! talk to someone first! i’m not a counselor, i’m just an 18 year old kid who found hope! email me!!! PLEASE!!! don’t give up!!
nic2053574@maricopa.edu
PEACE!
HOPE FOR THE HOPELESS
I’m not sure if I don’t want to kill myself because I finally have a better life, for right now, or if I’m just to numb to feel sorry for myself.
For my art class I had to paint something with emotion… It took me about two days to think of something to paint since I’m almost completely emotionless.
In every painting I have it has a heart somewhere incorporated in it. I’m not sure why but I always paint hearts. I guess it’s because I’m always looking for love. I don’t know, I just always feel empty, like I’m missing something. I’ve never had this feeling before, not […]
I’ve been reading articles from this website for a few weeks now and thought i should right something for people to read. I found out about this site when i was researching ways i could kill myself and found an article about exit bags. I suffer from major depression and i don’t wish to live any longer at least in my current situation. Its not that i always feel sad most of time i don’t feel much almost like i’m not here kinda of a lifeless feeling. I’m never really happy and I don’t see the point of living. I kept myself going by thinking when i’m 18 i can move somewhere else where i can be […]
I can’t do this. Why is it so hard to live? I hate living so much but I’m so afraid of what happens after death. I want to die so bad.
Hey there, how are you? I’m new here. I’m Soulless-dawnkeeper, an 18-year-old girl.
I’m so sorry if I will bore you with my story, I just got to vent. I have read a lot of stories for I think half a year now, but I didn’t have the guts. If you have any comments and/or advise; you are more then welcome.
I’ll start at the age of 7. I had this huge crush on a boy, but he rejected me, over and over. That made a huge scar. I was the dumb-fuck. I was/am terrible at maths and everybody thought I was stupid. When I was 8 […]
I’m young and I’ve struggled with depression since I was about 8. I really dont why when I was so little. but now Im stressed to the point where i cant achieve what used to be able to, and i feel useless, hopeless, and in despair. ive been having mild/moderate mental breakdowns since fall, but about a week ago i had one so severe i was convulsing in frustration induced pain. the knife on the table next to me looked so inviting i wanted to grab it so badly! but i didnt, because i didnt want to offend God. he gave me life only […]
we’re always dying. dying to live. dying as each day is passed. constantly dying. but does it every stop? do we ever stop dying? or will we conqure death and roam Earth forever with our souls? i guess we are always partially dead. so why do we freak out and cry when someone is completely dead? life has so many unanswered questions. some of the answers we will never find and yet we still search. life is a game. a constant game of pain and fear. you could even say that part of the game is waiting to die. roaming Earth having fun, laughing, and […]
Death, Just one simple word that can change everything.
Good afternoon all,
 I’m a Washington DC filmmaker finishing my 1st film titled Catch the Bus
(CTB). CTB is a phrase that means to commit suicide. I 1st learned of this
term while reading an article about teen suicides in the US.
 My film touches on a lot of the feelings that young & old people have that
push them to the brink of despair.
 In order to finish my project I started a kickstarter.com page to help fund
post-production cost. Kickstarter is a new way to fund creative projects of
any kind (music, film, art, etc) through donations. Each project must reach
its goal (for us it’s $5,000) in the allotted timeframe (for […]
I am unable to keep this up. I just can’t. I want to go so badly. I am in so much crushing debilitating pain. Everything I thought I knew, thought I had is gone. Apparently never was. I can’t live in a world where that is true. I have been staying for unknown reasons. I went to therapy I took their drugs and now I am left with even less. Everything that was once me is now gone. I am gone. I am already dead. I am so sad for what is gone, for what will never be. I don’t understand this life. I feel […]
He left… I found out through out the last year.. He’s been cheating.. Until each time he left. Then he cheated on them. He used me.
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