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Suicide

  May 3rd, 2010 by Xatu

If you cut you get tagged as an emo. If you burn you get tagged as a hero. We want to die but do not want to harm others. We are sad, angry at our own lives for we feel useless and empty. Even so, learn what I have learnt: Life is what YOU make of it, not what others expect you to make of it. You lack motivation? Then take a break and look for it. You failed a semester or two? That’s fine, retake them. You yourself cause yourself NO stress, it is those around us who pressure us into thinking that what …

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I’m feeling so weird….

  May 3rd, 2010 by Evan

The other day I met a girl and we talked. We talked about suicide and just misery in general. We connected so well. I have never had someone care so much and be so understanding. Now I feel so miserable, all I do is think about the conversation we had and about her. She was so comforting, but all I feel now is pain. I hate how I get so obsessed when a girl opens up to me. I want to be with her but I know that will never happen. I just want to rid myself of this. I can’t take the pain and …

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…..Waiting for the end

  May 3rd, 2010 by sKaVeNGeR

Afraid to get the oils from my hands on the razor blade…..I am careful…only using my thumb and pointer finger….I hold in my hand…my possible death weapon….an item so small, it could take the life of even a giant….a slow killer indeed….it must be slow…sliding…and slipping into this deep world in which…only the sick people can live…sigh…it feels good…the sharp edge against my clean, shaved, hairless forearm…I whimper just a tad to know that I am alive…and press even harder, to cause such deeper wounds than the last….suddenly I pause…I gaze at the clock…then to the song that is playing on my iPod….then to the …

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Where’s the light?

  May 2nd, 2010 by Something.

She lays in the floor
Back against the door
Tears run down her face
Black toughts take place

Death wispers in her ear
And she no longer have fear
Almoust over now
Just waiting to die somehow.

Sorry my english.
I’m 18 now.
I have social phobia.
I think I felt depressed all my life.
Since I remember, every single problem I had was transformed in a catastrophe in my head. It could be insignificant but in my head it was the worst thing.

I don’t know how to explain right now how I feel so I leave here some  entries of my kind of journal.

<02/09/09>
It’s unberable and we know that we can’t run from it, we know …

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I’m here for anyone

  May 2nd, 2010 by METALINGUS

Hello I want to let you know if you need anyone I am here
So if you want to talk my email is metalingus5150@yahoo.com
I will do my best to help
I am only 16 btw but I know how it feels

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there’s a possibility that all i had is all i gon’ get.

  May 2nd, 2010 by possibility

I am empty. a shell. and when im not, im pain. im using. im self-harming. im trying to escape. fucked up family, to the max. i cant even write all of the shit i’ve been through with them. molestation memories haunting my mind. 2 lost loves. who use me. i was in a abusive relationship… still am. no one wants me around. my thoughts eat away at me. i feel trapped on this earth filled with black hearts and evil souls. cruel happyness surrounds me, yet a grey cloud always seems to hang above my head. I have wanted to die ever since i was …

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just another story, except it’s mine

  May 1st, 2010 by Bobby

Exactly one week ago tonight, my girlfriend and I were on vacation at a resort – having a few drinks in the nightclub. My girlfriend was dancing, the smoke was getting to me, so I went for a little walk to get some fresh air. My sense of direction isn’t the best, perhaps my girlfriend assumed I’d gone back to our room. But I eventually made my way back to the nightclub the back way past the swimming pool, and to my surprise, I saw my girlfriend nude, in the pool, screwing some younger guy she’d been dancing with in the …

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Angels

  May 1st, 2010 by solntse

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If you are feeling suicidal now, please stop long enough to read this. It will only take about five minutes. I do not want to talk you out of your bad feelings. I am not a therapist or other mental health professional – only someone who knows what it is like to be in pain.

I don’t know who you are, or why you are reading this page. I only know that for the moment, you’re reading it, and that is good. I can assume that you are here because you are

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hey there, thank you for the site. i don’t know if i’ll do it, i was very close to it once. it’s true the pain is unbearbale smtms, well, most of the time, i’m scared to make people that love and trust me sad, my mom, dad, sister, my kids, even my husband although he is the main reason i feel this way. i’m afraid to make them sick, or feel guilty. i’m trying to find a way how to end it all without them knowing that I did it on purpose.. i want them to think it was an accident so my kids or my parents would never blame themselves for something they are not responsible for or me for being such an egoist. it’s just too much. or maybe being able to express my thoughts for the first time will help.

  May 1st, 2010 by the

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Everyday the same fake smile.

  May 1st, 2010 by disconsolate

The same fake laugh.

People think I’m better, cause of those two techinues I perfected, and becuase people havent seen any new cuts on me. Yet. Everyone knows I’m troubled, cause my arm is riddled with scars. I dont even try to hide them anymore I know people will somehow find out I’m still harming myself; then I’ll get sent away to a looney bin. But I dont care anymore thats in the future, I dont plan on living much longer anyway.

I know only being 15, I shouldnt be complaining, other people have it much worse then me. With some having to deal with …

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How do I get through today?

  May 1st, 2010 by Tika

I’m sorry, but as usual I’m feeling sorry for myself.  I’m all alone.  I used to be somebody.

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I’m the problem

  May 1st, 2010 by hellknow22

Here is the problem:

I’m married my wife is distance from me we hardly ever talk anymore, she comes home after work I sit at the computer looking for work, my background could or well screw me over for a job. I’m a disable veteran my back always hurt which causes me to lose sleep and I stay up for days on end. I have nightmares every night. I feel her pain that we cant talk and she would not understand what I’m think to cure the problem. I understand the problem is me. She trys to help me feel better. But I’m a drain on …

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I’ve never belonged.

  April 30th, 2010 by jbm555

I don’t feel like I belong. I never have.  I can feel completely alone in a room FULL of people.  Sometimes I feel like I was born in the wrong century.  I have a decent job a wife and 3 kids that I love and adore.  They’re the only reason that I keep trying.  Maybe someday I will give up and just call it quits like my mother, father and step mother did.  Some days I still have hope that my outlook on life will get better but those days are getting fewer and further between.

I can’t afford to see a counselor but I have …

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Just to get of my chest.

  April 30th, 2010 by RedWine93

I don´t know why am i writing her. I don´t feel sad or happy, just numb. Like everything is so far from me and even if I try to reach for something everything disappears. Incloding me with it. I don´t understand whats wrong with me? Why do i feel nothing?
In school i don´t let people see me depressed anymore, because they don´t understand whats wrong with me. I don´t want anyone to laugh at me and talk about me behind my back anymore. so to stop it i act crazy, laugh and make silly jokes. They say i am crazy and act like an adult …

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OnisionSpeaks

  April 29th, 2010 by unknown227

onisionspeaks is a youtuber who helps with problems such as depression. watching some of his videos sometimes get me through the day, they may help you too: youtube.com/onisionspeaks

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all i want is this

  April 29th, 2010 by everwaiting

to be able to hold your hand when you’re shaking from fatigue or frustration

to kiss the back of your neck when i see you at the university

to pick up the phone and call you whenever i want to hear your voice

to hold you until i absorb every bad thing that’s ever happened to you

to feel like you love me even half as much as i love you

But I know this won’t happen. We’ll go back to being perfect strangers in the company of others, and once every few days, when neither of us have a class too early the following morning, you’ll invite me over …

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Once bitten twice stupid…

  April 29th, 2010 by nocturnus

Ok, at 50+ years old you would think I would be old enough to be wise, yeah…right. Two years ago my partner left me for a younger guy (quote: “She wanted the excitement”). That took me a year and a half to get over; the thoughts of darkness, the nights of fear and loneliness, often thinking how inviting the thought of taking myself into the painless arms of ‘eternal sleep’ was.
I was finally getting on an even track when she came back into my life.
She told me how wrong she had been, how much she still loved and missed me. She said that she wanted …

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Depressed when hubby sulks

  April 29th, 2010 by arthi

Have been depressed for the most part of my teen life, and I thought i’d conquered it in adult life, but tiny things offset it now…

Am on H4, and hubby likes to restrict my freedom, he doesn’t know what it is to be a woman, and to be inside home all the time, he even once asked me why I keep the window blinds open in the day, as people from outside can see me inside.

Lack of sunlight, friends, laughter, the discipline, independence and self worth that comes with working, everything is driving me nuts.

Things seem fine, till he starts sulking, and I find …

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death

  April 29th, 2010 by surge20037

im 21 years old and i have tryed to kill myself alot (pills)(mixing pills with alc) hanging myself) ….. the resone i try is becuse i fell deaply in love with a girl that i have known all my life we were in 1st grade together and became friends well we fell in love and i did everything just to make her happy i moved out of a 3.5mill house sold a 15gcar and moved in with my other friend shering a room with 2 men the room was no bigger then a van or a small buss vary small but i dident cair i …

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it’s tempting

  April 29th, 2010 by kiest

i’m tired. i don’t wanna be depressed anymore. if i can’t be happy, i’d rather end everything now. i’m living on 15th floor. it has a balcony. it’s so tempting. i can just jump off the balcony, then eveything will end in a second… right?

i just keep think of my mom. she kinds of knows that i’m depressed again. i don’t wanna let her down, but i still wanna end everything. i have no hope. no reason to live for.

a while ago, after writing a short memo, i went out to the balcony and sat on the edge of the wall, looked down. no one …

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