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Big Brother

  August 11th, 2010 by pink404

 

For a long time now I have been ‘depressed’ or maybe it’s ‘enlightened’ I don’t know. I have not participated (as much as possible) in general life as I have come to find nothing but lies there. Today, I decided to go online and catch up with what’s happening in the world and check out what lies are being inflicted on us lately, as now I feel in a place in my head where I can view them objectively. I came across Big Brother (the UK one), this is a program that I have never watched, stuff like this was never of interest to me …

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Wish it worked

  August 11th, 2010 by undercover

I give up i need to die, i have tryed for the last 3month trying to kill myself but nothing is working need help need all this to be over

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life is my purgatory

  August 11th, 2010 by darkgrrl

i just want out of this darkness. the first time i wanted to kill myself i was 11 yrs old. there’s a sign to come of a life of misery – what healthy kid thinks about suicide? none, that’s who. my childhood was shit so my foundation was already wobbly and deeply cracked. how am i supposed to build greatness or just plain ole happiness on that?

i’m 33 yrs old and married. my partner is good, kind, loving, which i could be more of, but just can’t because of my inner blocks. i’ve had 2 devastating heart breaks …

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Let me help..

  August 11th, 2010 by EmeliaJane

My life is a mess. One thing helps me through; helping others with their problems. I will talk to you about anything; from the weather to your deepest fears and problems. Email me and I will email back.. You deserve a chance..

emeliajane@hotmail.co.nz.

Love&Light.

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My secrets are out!

  August 11th, 2010 by Nikki

The world around you is falling and Life seems to vanish. People are running by. The cries they scream are no longer there. The night grows longer and longer. The main thing is that being alone sucks. I look around for someone and silently call for help. To bad you’re not there to help. You call and say you will be late but never even show. I’ll cry inside and not tell a soul. You will never know the nightmares that are there every day. Three hours tonight, hopefully I’ll have more tomorrow. People are all around and yet I feel so small. I’m not …

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Goodbye, soon, what to do?

  August 10th, 2010 by z

Quantity or quality. I ask myself that everyday. I am somewhat happy now. On meds that stabilize my mood. But I am still empty inside. It is that emptiness that no one understands. I have borderline personality disorder. (And I don’t even know why I chose to share it with any of my friends, they say that I am not borderline and that I am just fine. Yet they fail to answer why I wish to put a bullet in my heart to replace the emptiness.) So I continue to tread lightly. I avoid my …

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I still think about it.

  August 10th, 2010 by amethyst97

Even after i told my friends about my problems the showed little care exept for 3 people. And i thank them with all of my heart. But even if it made me feel alittle better. I still want to die, so do day just to see if anyone truely cared about me. I send a text saying “if i died would u cry? would u care?”. i had 4 responses. But only to the 1st question. “YES” “mabey” “of course” and  r u asking this? To those people who resoponded i thank you again. because that one word saved my life today. And i may …

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What Method did you Choose?

  August 10th, 2010 by JennyA

I was just wondering… maybe this has been specifically discussed before on a different thread (before I joined), or maybe there’s an unspoken rule of not talking about this… but since the subtitle of this site is “Tell Your Suicide Story with Others”, is anyone open to listing the method(s) they chose to end it all?

Obviously since we’re reading this, the method was not completely carried out, but I was just curious if anyone wanted to list the method(s) they chose (or perhaps are thinking about), kinda like a survey of everyone’s plan(s). Or am I way out of line here …

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Isn’t posting & discussing in this website is a CHANGE already?

  August 10th, 2010 by niki

This thought just suddenly occur to me.
For those of you who feel so much apathy and hopeless & pessimistic with how our current world is, and that you somehow feel hopeless & helpless to do anything about it, in other words, you feel that you just can’t “change the world”, the current fucked-up state/condition of the world we’re living in, no matter how much you’re aching for it,..but honestly, has it ever occur to you all that, even by posting and discussing in this website, has already created a CHANGE, even though it started only a little, and as an “idea”. But like the premise of the most …

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I will dedicate a special gift for all of you here..(pls read)

  August 10th, 2010 by niki

There are two things I hope and I wish to say, and share, with all my deepest heart and sincerity to all of you here:

First, is that I’m a musician/composer,..
and after finding this website (about last week) accidentally, and then reading all the posts & comments, and mostly they’re just so strikingly similar, in such a honest, very sincere, real,..and even beautiful ways,..I have thus vow and swear today, that I will do my BEST, using my whatever utmost talents & passion in Music,…to create and compose a song, specially dedicated to all of you here.

Please give me around one month, at the very least, to …

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Let’s face it, we’re all evil in some way

  August 10th, 2010 by splinter

I’m sorry, I don’t mean to be provocative but I’ve given this a lot of thought over the years. This earth is of course hell (or something like that), that cannot be denied, it is riddled with bad things happening constantly, some of it seeps through your TV and it just washes over you. You see it, yet you do nothing.  Oh, you might feel upset by it but the act of feeling upset does not qualify you as a good person in itself. I too see it, and I do nothing, what can we do? Really, what can we do?  We can’t do anything …

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How suicide has shown to be the only answer for me and not a decision

  August 10th, 2010 by pink404

I first took an overdose at the age of 14 , although there was a boy involved in my unhappiness at that time, deep inside, I knew it was more than that, although I was too young to be able to understand it fully. My parents didn’t know I took the overdose, they just thought I was sick for a couple of days, but my mum knew I was upset about the boy at that time. She told me that I am young and boys will come and go blah blah and I have a whole life ahead of me. To which I replied that …

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Oh God I can’t go on anymore

  August 9th, 2010 by swimmer2000

I’ve been planning to kill myself but also in the process I’ve been trying to find a reason to stay alive. I’m struggling.

Today, for the first time in ages I switched on the TV and I don’t know if I’ve finally gone mental but all the faces on the TV just seem ridiculous, I have noticed that even people’s facial expressions are fake these days. Then earlier I was googling something and came across a yahoo answers question link, I ended up just out of boredom just looking at other questions (this was the first time I had been on this site). The questions I …

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Anyone watch the movie “Numb” ??

  August 9th, 2010 by JennyA

I was wondering if anyone has seen the movie “Numb” with Matthew Perry. Although he has a different disorder than the ones I have, I thought it was comforting watching him struggle as I have with life – feeling numb, feeling disconnected with the world, not understanding why, part of him wanting things to just go back to “normal” but feeling frustrated that it never can.

I just thought it was interesting to see life fall apart to an otherwise quite intelligent man and how he had to try to live a somewhat “fake” life because people just didn’t understand what it was like to …

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Well then a story to unfold.

  August 9th, 2010 by Zeke2010

It appears long time ago that I have slipped through the cracks of life.  It seems though I am watching everything from a glass window with no interaction with others.  I am 29 years old and I honestly do know what to do anymore.  I have had long term friends just shove me aside like I am a pile of feces waiting to me turned to dust.  I told all my friends they mean the world to me and that wasn’t enough. My last friend said “We are married and no longer have any time for you.”  I no longer have any friends.   I sit …

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The (not so) hidden reason for so many suicidal thoughts

  August 9th, 2010 by seekthetruth4u

I can see that slowly, more and more people are beginning to see the truth, or at least seek the truth. Many are now really feeling that there is a deep and irreversible dark world at work here on earth. I am not talking about religion.

I have posted a link at the bottom of this post, it is a 3 hour talk about what is happening to mankind. Some may say that this is a conspiracy theory, but everything in this speech IS proven and CAN be seen by anyone. The control that we are all under here on earth is so great that you …

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IN MY MIND IVE NOWERE TO GO

  August 9th, 2010 by peterjames

Dear reader

my name is peter im from leeds in westyorkshire united kingdom im 44 yrs old and need help

i suffer with post traumatic childhood stress syndrome

explosive personallity dissorder

o.c.d

I wont write pages to explain what happened all i will say is from the agess of 10/16 i was sexually abused and have only now found the strenth to talk to the police about it.. ive tryed so many times to die thinking if i was dead the pain would stop but then i wake up in hospital and it starts all over again

ive never been able to keep a relationship going for to long and im …

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Here, just not sure for how long…

  August 9th, 2010 by G1974

Hey all,

Kind of struggling just now with feelings and am just not sure what to do. I have Complex PTSD and this week has brought new challenges since being diagnosed a few months ago. Not sure of next steps…

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there IS still Hope,..try to find it!

  August 9th, 2010 by niki

I am a Christian who has turned into an agnostic (and up to this day, I still honestly can’t find a single valid, reasonable reason to go back into ‘pure’ Christianity again,..though I’m always remain open-minded),
and from my own observations & experiences, & also seeing others, I can tell you this:

God, whatever It is, usually means HOPE.
People need hope, to keep living in this world. otherwise, he’ll find many & any kind of reason to end his/her life (because he/she feels NO hope anymore).
It’s that simple.

Now although I’m very much still questioning whether God is a “He (Him)” (and why does it have to be …

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for those who wants 2012 (or end of world) to quickly come

  August 9th, 2010 by niki

I have to tell you that I feel you all who wants 2012 to really come true (no matter how much “B.S” you might think about this. we’re talking about FEELING here, not THINKING scientifically or whatever!).

Seriously, when I’m just fucking tired with what’s happening in this so-called “real world” and all its ‘ugly’ hypocrisy, backstabbing, cheats, tricks, lies & more lies, pain, and how ‘hopeless’ humanity in general might seem,..it becomes VERY easy for me to hope, even PRAY for 2012 to really come,
for the comet or meteor to come and wipes like 3/4th of the Earth or whatever, to make these goddamn ‘dirty’ …

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