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please let me help you

January 3rd, 2010by whydiebeforeyourtime@gmail.com

hey everyone.

i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself.

there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help.

the only way things fall away from goodness is because of a lack of God.   so basically what i’m trying to say is that if you really want to make your life and yourself better, you need Him, and you need Him more than just an hour a week.

if you’d like to talk about Him

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Another self pitying ramble

January 2nd, 2010by N_C

I had no idea this kind of project existed. In the past I’ve come across ‘suicide deterrents’, usually the religious sort, but this is certainly a great way of getting these feelings out.
Writing for me, always helps, a little. Unfortunately it just never cures these feelings, because they always doggedly linger on. My life has been plagued by deep depression and anxiety – low self esteem – but frustratingly in the past two years I had hoped that it was behind me.
I’ve had a lot of input over the years (I’m 27 in Feb) since I was 15 in fact. I wouldn’t say it’s …

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January 2nd, 2010by fuckthis

Every fucking nite I ask the great useless allmighty to end my existance. but no such luck …. Sometimes I fucking wonder , I m so so so so so so  so times a trillion  sick of nothing but pain, what the fuck have I done to deserve this shit.

Fuck You you good for fuck all prick

Hell Must be more fun

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Real eyes. Realize. Real lies.

January 2nd, 2010by rose.

For the longest time, I felt alone, So alone. My boyfriend and I broke up, and I thought we would hate eachother, we didn’t talk for months. About 6 months ago, we started talking again. He became my best friend, still madly in love with him, things started to go my way. I thought I was flying, I felt amazing. Sex with him? .. No, But the simple holding hands, watching movies until we fall asleep on the couch, just the little things. He made me feel like I had a reason to be alive, like he needed me here, wanted me here, he made …

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Alone

January 1st, 2010by Idec

Just started high school few months ago i was excited of going to high school so excited, but not anymore since i moved to a different city. I thought it was gonna be great being with my friends and hopefully getting back with my ex-girl friend who would make me happy she had a nice personality, and really pretty she is everything i ever wanted. Out of all my girl friends i loved her so much i never actually knew how love felt and well now i know and i know how much it hurts and the other girls i dated i felt nothing

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I don’t get it…

January 1st, 2010by CooLDsteR

Why are there different religions? Is there only one real “good” religion? Are some real, others not? What if they’re all real, and whichever one you believe in, you reach its respective afterlife?

Why do we live in an imperfect world? Why was I born in 1984, and not 2147? Why was I born with only one good eye? Why weren’t we born perfect in a perfect world? Why do people believe different parts & values, etc. of different beliefs/religions?

If there is a supernatural being/God out there, why do they allow harm to people? For mistakes to occur? I do not get why a “God” would …

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i hate my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

January 1st, 2010by ANGIE

i really dont know what to do any more i dont want to live any more i hate my husbands family

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Broken shattered and forgotten

December 31st, 2009by shatteredheart

About 5 months ago my boyfriend of 3 years dumped me for someone else. I was and still am shattered. He was my everything. Everyone said I would get better but I haven’t. If anything I’ve gotten worse. I hate my life so much and I really don’t want to be alive. Since he broke my heart my whole world has fallen apart. I’m sad and lonely and have no hope for anything. I have literally cried myself to sleep every night since it happened. He hurt me so much yet I would do anything to have him back. Does anyone know how I feel? …

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order of death

December 31st, 2009by darkmetal

There is an elite group of eugenists out there that have a lot of power and influence over the societies we all live in.  So much so that we are now living under a scientific dictatorship and pretty soon we will not even have the sanctity of our own minds for escape.  Doubt me?  Look up the declassified US Government experiment called MKUltra.  That is just the beginning, the Georgia Guide Stones are dedicated to the cause of killing of over 90% of the worlds population to keep in perfect balance with nature.  We are all going to be killed and only those elites and …

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not so silent suffering

December 31st, 2009by kerri

I have been depressed off and on for about 5-6 years. It seems to come and go, but when I am down, I get really down. I dont think, for the most part, that anyone around me cares or even takes me seriously.

Even though I dont come out and tell people how bad my depression hurts, they know I am suffering. I call friends and family and even tell then that I am in a deep and life threatening depression and you know what? It doesnt seem to matter to anyone.

I think what prompted this depression I am in right now is mainly being lonely …

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Suicide Is Selfish

December 30th, 2009by Selfish

Why does suicide have to be such a selfish act? Why can’t it just be that a person can kill themselves when they fell they’ve sufficiently fucked up this life enough to no repair and no one has to suffer. But it’s never that easy.

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lost it all

December 30th, 2009by sissy

worked hard,three jobs,raising two kids,was hit in car wreck by 17 old boy. lost all three jobs within mins because one had m.s. one is a quad perapliject …and couple in wheel chairs….i was a caregiver, went to school i have my medical assitant cert. i am now on disibility due to the wreck but when i only receive 814.00 a month and my rent is 995.00 ~~~ it just dont add i have 3 days to pay 469.00 pg&e bill…..i have attorney but who knows when lawsuit will be over…think my landlady cares….no she wants her rent and think pg&e cares no…..internet & …

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poems and promises

December 30th, 2009by Annie

ive written on here once you may rebember me from the post “if you care please read!!”

ive decided on something. ive read through comments and posts and decided on something, if i ended my life, i would end up hurting everyone who has ever cared. about a week ago i made a promise to my self that i wont end my life until i am sure, i will go on with the old plans of my life with a couple of new additions.

first i will find out if the person i love loves me back.

second i will start a few extra curiccular activities to help …

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failure

December 30th, 2009by kelsey-xx01

It all began when i was 11. I lived with my mom my whole life, and with both parents up until i was 8. My mom has always been a very emotional person, so in 2007, she got put into the hospital for depression. I never really thought anything of it. Until i knew something was wrong when me and my sister were moved from house to house not knowing where we were going to stay next because mom didnt want my dad to know where she went. She finally got better, and i went back home, my sister then moved into my dads house …

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please. its not worth it.

December 30th, 2009by havehope923

please dont do it. have some hope, please. im not gonna sit here and tell you that jesus loves you and God loves you….cuz i know its crap. but please dont give up. my best friend gave up in may 2009….she suffocated herself. and now her family is miserable, and im miserable. there is always hope. please, i am on my knees begging you not to do it. i know it hurts, i’ve hurt so bad in my life that at times i didnt feel like i could handle it anymore…but the sun always comes up. please dont end up like my best friend. it …

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Please no tomorrow.

December 29th, 2009by fringle189

I’ve been depressed and suicidal for about a year now. This all started when my boyfriend killed himself. We were really close, i have never been that close with anyone. We got along amazingly, we could talk about everything. He was the one who made me laugh when i was feeling down and vice versa. We had the same sense of humour, music, art, movies and even people. We were really alike. If anything happened he was the first one to know. It didn’t matter if it was good or bad, important or not that important. He was my person…

I found out about his suicide

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I’m Invisible

December 28th, 2009by aprotic

Throughout my life I always new I was different. I didn’t make friends like the other children, and I was always alone. I was my own best friend. I ate lunch alone, and was alone throughout most of my childhood with the exception of my older siblings and my mom. When I was a teenager I had a slight breakdown because I remembered being molested as a child, but with the help of my mom I managed to get through it and piece what was left of my life together. I learned to throw myself into school, and I was the star student with a …

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Miserable life

December 28th, 2009by twitchn

I am now 18 years old, living with my parrents in Ohio. My parrents never really did anything with me especially my father. I am an outcast from my school, and have no real friends when i was `16 i withdrew from people and started playing a game called Second Life(a type of online chatting software). It was amazing how much better this made me feel. i met people and made friends, and it quickly became an addiction. Recently though i havent had anyone to talk to there either. People avoid me in both lives. i have come closer and closer to pulling out one …

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please let God help you

December 28th, 2009by whydiebeforeyourtime@gmail.com

hey everyone.

i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself.

there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help.

the only way things fall away from goodness is because of a lack of God.   so basically what i’m trying to say is that if you really want to make your life and yourself better, you need Him, and you need Him more than just an hour a week.

if you’d like to talk about Him

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I was used for sex, now I want to die

December 28th, 2009by TM5344

I feel so disgusting, used and pathetic right now.  I think I should be over what happened by now and the fact that I’m not only makes me wonder, “Why bother?  It will always bother you.”  If this is the case, why keep going?  I’m bipolar, diagnosed when I was 13 and now I’m 22 and worse than ever.  I should be getting better, but I’m not.  I felt pressured into have sex with a guy in class and throughout the semester we did a few more times.  Now the semester is over and he doesn’t talk to me at all.  I feel so sick …

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