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If I don’t post November 1st
Then I’m dead.
For general topics related to the site.
If I don’t post November 1st
Then I’m dead.
I dont know if i should just end it all, or stay. Lifes been really difficult and i just dont think i have the strength to fix all the problems.. or keep going.
Turned to bitter sweet memories, tales of days gone past.
Open minds and empty hearts, for love it seldom lasts.
Hopes get washed away by tides and dreams fade fast to dust.
Empty promises, long lost trust.
How many times has it all been tried?
We see, we reach, we stumble, we fall.
But somehow we always survive through it all.
And as each night turns into a new day, I hope you’ll find it in your heart to stay.
Nvr wuld hav though my x friend wuld talk bout me on hiz fb n ididnt say shit 2 him..goez 2 show wat a friend he really waznt..thought he waz my friend but iguess he nvr waz he tried sayin my gurl haz me ***** whiped welll so fuken wat at least igot a good relationship goin on wit my gurl n ur goin around fukin wit other gurlz lik alwayz..ur a PLAYER!!..U EVEN TOLD ME ALL U WANTED 2 DO IZ GET IT IN A GURL N ON 2 THE NEXT 1!!
just wanna say hey im here and hi!
I have suicidal thoughts and I’ve been tempted to resort to self injury so many times, the only reason why I haven’t is because of my mom, because knowing her she wouldn’t try to help me or ask why, she’d just get mad and start yelling at me, saying something probably along the lines of “Why the f*ck would you do that?! You don’t have any reason to! See all the thing you’re doing to your body!” and I just really don’t want to have to sit through ANOTHER annoying and aggravating one of her lectures.
Sometimes, I wish I was brave enough to do […]
My name is Holly i’m 22 & i feel so lost. Â I’ve been lost for over 5 years now and I just don’t know what to do every year it seems like i’m sinking deeper and deeper and that i’ll never be able to keep my head above water. Â I tried to kill myself for the first time this summer I don’t know how to feel that i failed. Â They say i’m lucky that this is my new begining, sometimes it feels like i failed at everything else so of course i failed at that to.
I miss feeling clean and good this feeling of dirtiness […]
I’m not gonna judge you if you wanna die. It’s your life your choice. You only have one life. Use it to do whatever you’d like to it. It’s called freewill, but let me put you in a different perspective for a minute. You have said “That your life is boring, pointless and meaningless” or some of you might’ve said “my life suck, my family don’t care about me, I’d better off dead” or some of might’ve said “People hurt my heart, people disappointed me from time to time again” so you thought uhmmm…..my life is pointless so I’m gonna think away to “END” my […]
I entered the room not expecting him to be there. He was sleeping in the chair, I shook his knee to wake him. Then I saw the gun and a small pool of blood. IÂ looked at his face then saw behind his ear the little bloody hole where a bullet must have gone in. He wasn’t sleeping, he had shot himself in the head. Is he dead? Do I touch just under that hole in his head to see if he is alive? I can’t, I can’t, I can’t touch him, I don’t want him to be dead! My thoughts went to the little […]
The door to my balcony is only five feet away. I’m on the 19th floor. I’ve tried killing myself four times. Why can’t I jump? Just thinking about going over the rail makes me cringe, yet it wouldn’t be a bad death. I’d have a beautiful view going down, it’d be quick and certain and quiet. I sat out there for two hours yesterday, wearing only a t shirt and shorts in 6 degree weather. I tried to psych myself into jumping, hoping that the cold would numb my fear. Â Eventually I gave up when I heard my next door neighbour come into the cold […]
I’m sick of this life. I can’t remember or think of one time where I was genuinely happy; a moment where everything felt just right. Fact of the matter is, I’ve always faked my smile. I’ve always had to fake moments of happiness, nothing was or is ever real. No one would ever believe I feel suicidal or that I’ve suffered and continue to suffer from depression if I told them. I try really hard to mask my internal state and the pain I feel with jokes, just so I don’t give off the impression that I’m actually sad inside.
When I see myself, the only […]
Good time of day! My first post did not bring results. I’m not sure that helium help me to die. To purchase two helium tanks, I need to collect money half a year, denying themselves all over. I would really like understand the scientific basis of the method with helium. And in this post I will try to ask for help. The dramatic changes in life will help me positively exist in the future. I live in Belarus. At the moment I’m studying at the Faculty of Biology 2 course. Biology, my passion for a long time and has had some success. More than anything […]
I wrote this email to a co-worker today:
“I’m going to die alone.
This is all that’s bothering me, it’s all that ever really bothers me. There aren’t any other people, that I know of, with the personality of a robotic alien for me to fraternize with. Every time I see other people, hear them conversing, laughing, and so on, I can see the differences between me and them. So in my mind, I don’t want to be around others, just alone in my cave, behind walls, because I feel safe and secure. But life without people is even more boring. So, I’m kind of not here […]
This month marked 10 months since my son Daniel took his own life and ripped my soul in two. I advocated on here in my sons name trying to help those in despair with even a little hope and look at me now. I can’t go outside. I hate myself for failing my son. I take 15 different medications every day to help with the symptoms of PTSD, yet the flashbacks remain. I really don’t want to live, yet I fear death. I thought about OD but read it was painful and I cant do pain. Everything in my life has exploded in my face. […]
okay, hi. im 13. and a fairly pretty girl. c: ive always had my moments where i just needed to stop, & calm down. but riught now, as im writing this, crying…i dont know if i should stop or just go on with this pain. 🙁 im invisible to everyone! except my family which are the only people who love me. & i need my mom so bad right now!! i wish my brother died before i was even born. that way i couldnt ever do shit to anyone. he causes all the pain i feel. :’c not saying that i wanna die, WHICH I […]
Been having hysterical laughing fits all day. I’m not on drugs, I’m eating no worse or much less than usual and I’m sure as hell not happy. It sounds unhinged as hell to my ears. Wheeeeee
I have episodes. Yesterday, it was gone. I looked at myself in the mirror and wondered what the hell I was thinking.
As one of the preceding posts mention it, there are steps. I’m at step 5: Do It.
I survived through yesterday and today I am determined to survive through today. Even though it started out as a shit day, I’m pretty sure I want to see tomorrow.
I’m scared. I know it will come back. I know I will go through a week of hell sooner or later and everywhere I go and seek for help they always turn me around. I’m scared my […]
I just tried drowning, and must say i dont recommend the experience to anyone. Also warn about it in my suicide guides, but i became frustratdet and panicked, when i heared people were going to call the Police on me over my suicie guides on the internet.
Later learned that assisting suicide is not actually illegal in Finland. Even if i was planning MURDER it STILL would not be illegal! There planning to change the law somewhere around 2012 Have to start being a bit more carefull over what i write on the internet. Anyway i finally started ordering the tools for my little “magic trick”
People, dont […]
I’m sitting alone in my room. Lights are off, got my song on iTunes. I’ve taken the maximum safe dose for whatever I’ve taken. Another could throw me into cardiac arrest, or shut down the respiratory system.
Should I do it? No one knows. No one has any idea at all.
What’s holding me back? The finality of that choice? Fear?
I don’t know. But I’ve got the rest of the night to figure it out.
i am sure that probably all of You sometimes wondering “whats gonna happen after death”.
Death is beautiful. In my work practise i’ve seen death many times.. I like death at home, when human is laying in bed and waiting it in silence. The last breath. The last words. The last gaze.. Usualy when we have dying patien with some serious disease and we don’t need to make CPR, i just sit and watch. It’s magical. Sometimes i put electrodes to see heart’s stopping. It is really magical. Slowly, saint.. Sometimes human dies,but the heart is still fighting and still making some single beats, so we […]
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