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Was a few days ago..don’t remember which day..doesn’t matter. Was one of my worser “depressed” days…broke a razor. But instead of the usual slit across the wrist,i followed down,across and into the vein. Let myself bleed out…then i’d cover it..bleed out..cover..then i just..let it bleed. Got to the point in which i almost could not turn back. but then..well i dont know..i decided not to leave this world yet. I told everyone who knew..that it was because i was thinking of them..but now that i think back again..i dont think that was the case…i dont even know..but i cut off the bleeding and..here i am […]

Hi.

Today i made a decision, i will kill myself. And, i have a date, is 6 or 7 december morning. I have plan – i grab  rope, i go to forrest next to my house, and i hang myself.

And, question is, why?

I am a 26 year old man. If you ask me to my last friend, i tell you: is 15 years ago, before my family move to another place. I define friend as person, that is willing spend time with you outside school/work. In my college studies, i have some good classmates – all in last 2 months. Before that, i was alone for […]

I’m sorry.

I initially wanted to send this little prose out as a text message to a bunch of people, but I though that would be vindictive and petty, and I don’t want people to feel blamed. These are just my reactions to the world, not the reality. Anyway:

I was a person once
The other people told me I was different, and so I tried to be like them
They didn’t know I was scared and I thought I was worthless

Just a hollow ghost that nobody can love, I am no longer a person
Poison raised to my lips, I toast this wretched earth
A toast […]

– Tiny penis

– Virgin

– Morbidly obese

– Unemployed

– Broke

– Partially educated (dropped out of college twice)

– Live with my parents

– Depressed

– No friends

– Soon in my 30’s

…

Yep, that’s me. So… should I kill myself or what? I probably should but I wanted some external point of views.

Off on another day of school, will I make it through the day? The pain? Or will I just end it before the sun goes down? There’s a dance tonight and I’m going, not sure why. Maybe I’ll end it there. All I know is it might end. My schools to small to have theripsits and my family can’t afford one. I feel so hopeless and unworthy of life. This, this will end.

Hi! I don’t get any attention. I’m ignored. My problem is getting bigger and bigger. I have enough of it. I don’t know what to do next. I’m thinking of ending with it. Is there somebody who cares? Is there somebody who feels as I do? I don’t know what to do.

Today, the exact day of her death.. Just to feel closeness to her. we are so far apart. Her in heaven and me in hell(mylife). Today, i feel like i lost her all over again. Even if it has been two years it still feels like the first day without her. How can i live any longer if every day it gets harder? I would die just to be with her. To have her answer all my questions would be the best. So here is the worst day of my life.

I have just lost my daughter today from the exit bag. She did this on Thanksgiving morning. The EMTs got a pulse, and she has been on life support for a week. She actually left her license on her bureau to donate all of her organs, which she is doing as I write this. Please, please anyone out there, do not do this. We tried so very hard to fix her. We needed more time. It is so very, very unfair to those you leave behind. We will never be the same. This is so very […]

its been 2 mothes since you fucking destryed me and i walk through every fucking day now more depressed then i was before i have to sit beside you in first period and hear you tlak ab out fucking your new boyfriedn after a week of us breaking up wow yea 2 years didnt mean shit to you but it mean everything to me all the shit ive already been throught he abandonment and the deaths not haveing fucking parents or anyone that gives a shit you get close to em and fuck me over and now im posting this sad ass shit on this […]

I’m done.
New year’s day. Can’t wait.

I can never get along with my mother, I tell her I wanna kill myself and that I cut myself. Ive tried so hard to kill myself but always have backed down. What’s stopping me? I love to cut. Makes me feel so much better. Why does it make me feel like this? I just want my mom to care. She used to tell me to kill myself. Idk what to do. Can anyone help me??!!