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So much has happened in the past year. I am slowly getting worse and it is scaring me. I have more friends who support me now which is why I gave up cutting two weeks ago today. They thought it would be good for me but I crave it and I am going crazy. I told my mom about my cutting and all she did was give me a speech about how I am throwing my life away. She hasn’t since mentioned the topic and it makes me feel ashamed that she won’t talk about it. My friends are getting upset with the fact that […]

I never meant to be back here, never meant to start cutting again, but I did.  It’s surprising the temptation a small pocket knife can bring in the right mood.  It’s amazingly sharp too.  The little droplets of blood just bead up like dewdrops with a small scratch.  I’m too much of a coward to try anything deeper.  It does feel calming.  I’m not even going to think about how to explain them to anyone just yet.  With any luck, the weather will stay cold and I won’t have to.

please some one m**der me im tired of life end it pls

Has anybody hung themselves and lived? if so what did it feel like?

I can’t seem to help myself. I’m drawn to this site. It’s how I start my days. And I frequented the general section today. Off and on, wondering what to say. I don’t really have a story…not a short one. I’m not suicidal or even depressed, but I feel for you who come here and I can relate on certain levels because I have been suicidal in the past. I attempted suicide when I was a young teenager with pills. No one could even tell because it was the wrong kind of pills and probably not enough. I can go back in my mind and […]

So my family and I put up all the christmass decorations and all the trees up.. Its really depressing. I really love christmas to the point where i want to cry but i just cant do it. It hurts to be teased with all this joy and then dec. 26th its all gone. back to being depressed. i hate this but i love it! F*ck Life.

Suicide tonight….
Email: idiotsoftheworld2@gmail.com
Password:idiotsoftheworld2
Adieu and see you all in the next world.

does anyone know of any cases where someone didn’t die but just paralyzed part of their body.

At Thanksgiving dinner my uncle paused all the conversions and asked the table what their passion was. Everyone was taking their turn and saying things like golf, brewing, home care, horses. (family was excluded) When it came my turn I realized… I didn’t have a passion. I don’t love to do anything. A passion is something that your always relating other things to, something that is always on your mind. The only thing that fits those requirements for me is the thought of dying, or more specifically killing myself. Its all I ever think about, it’s on my mind 24/7. Its all I want right now, […]

I think in darkness we are able to snap out of the “routine world”. See life more than jobs, cars, shopping centers… We see humans. We see them going to work, going home, making plans, seeing friends, making mistakes, and moving on. We see their problems, and their worries. We see their goals and desires.

I have always though of life as a story you watch on TV. Even at times, I see myself like I was on the screen. I sit there, and I contemplate. Life is confusing, and the future is always uncertain. When is it going to end? What am I suppose to […]

It took me over an hour to get out of bed this morning.  It wasn’t because I was tired.  I had slept for 12 hours.  But I didn’t want to get up.  I didn’t want to be awake.

I don’t know how I am going to get through this semester.  Papers to write, assignments to do, tests to take and hopefully not fail.

I am so tired.

The depression immobilizes me.  I can never seem to get everything done.

I wish I could stop time.

When we part ways at the end of each day, we smile and wave goodbye, occasionally spewing some witty statements as our final words until the next day. I always end up finding myself resisting the urge to wrap my arms around you, but I’m aware that this would be crossing some sort of line. Our relationship is simply too formal for that.

People tell me that it’s strange that nothing has happened between us given how much time we spend together. I spend all my time with you, every day of the week but Saturday, and even though we base our meetings around academics, I […]

Hello everyone,

I thought I would post about myself, though whether anyone reads these I dont know, and I’m sure my story is nothing special. I am young, I just graduated, I spent three years at university trying to hide my depression. I made friends, but I dont keep in touch with any of them, I dont want to talk to anyone I know any more. I have come away to a foreign country with my savings, I lied to everyone, making up different reasons for coming – some think I am volunteering, others working. Truth is I do nothing but lie in bed all day […]

I’ve been wondering just how long I could make it before the benefits of ‘giving up’ outweighed the cons. A few years feeling the way I do seems to have done the trick. I have so much going for me; a good education, a roof over my head, a wonderful group of friends and a brother and sister who love me. Unfortuantely for every good thing there was a bad thing; a hateful, cotemptuous father, an emotionally absent mother, an abusive ex-girlfriend, a run of incapacitating bad health. I’m an academic. So it pleases me to see this as a problem, just an equation that […]