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Being suicidal is like being in an avalanche.
I am buried in snow and can’t tell up from down, and care even less. Which way do you start digging?
Okay first post, found this thing and seems a bit more up my street than all these other forums- seems to be acceptable to say I want to die and NO i don’t want to be saved just want to get this stuff out my head before i go even more nuts than i already am.
It hardly like we can chat away with friends and family over dinner.. anyways i feel like the box i am living in is getting smaller and smaller and im isolating myself more and more- i don’t think this stupid weather and it getting dark half way thru the sodding […]
If he is white and European you can have him and if you think I am catholic or have ever been catholic you have been framed big time.
Never have been and never will be Christian, you are all crazy.
You think Allah is stupid enough to create such a story that fits in with the stupidest, vilest trashiest desires humanity could ever come up with?
That is the God you deserve.
Move away from me, keep your queens and kings, keep your faggots and your whores……..AWAY from me.
Sick farm animals from hell, any man that desires you does not deserve to be called […]
I was given a man and the prospect of a family.
The world conspired against me for no reason whatsoever.
Who the hell wants to live in a world where if you find happiness 50% of the people will seek to destroy what God himself has promised you?
They don’t just hate me and my children they hate God too.
Tell me who the hell would want to even try and be happy in a world like this?
I wake up every day and every other person I meet hopes I will loose my husband and child or even worse than that….
Would you raise […]
the time is near
I touched the tepid fluid, tried to grasp it and it slipped.
My fingers recoiled from failure. Â I bunched them against my chest.
There now, you tried, you see? Moist tips. Soft.
Weave a tight basket with flipper fingers, slippy dippy, try once more.
Clumsy ways. Suck the tip. Nip the cuticles. Next time maybe?
I need to grip it tightly otherwise it’ll slip away again. Is that the right mind- the right brain? Yes. Just hold on. Touch the wet.
Touch it.
Hi. I don’t really care what age you are as long as you’re over 15. I’m 21. I don’t need to be reached out or saved. Simply lonely… haven’t had a friend in about nine years now. I’m tolerant towards nearly everything so don’t feel bad about contacting me.
Aim is thepurplemo0. The last part of moo is a zero.
If I don’t post November 1st
Then I’m dead.
I dont know if i should just end it all, or stay. Lifes been really difficult and i just dont think i have the strength to fix all the problems.. or keep going.
Turned to bitter sweet memories, tales of days gone past.
Open minds and empty hearts, for love it seldom lasts.
Hopes get washed away by tides and dreams fade fast to dust.
Empty promises, long lost trust.
How many times has it all been tried?
We see, we reach, we stumble, we fall.
But somehow we always survive through it all.
And as each night turns into a new day, I hope you’ll find it in your heart to stay.
Nvr wuld hav though my x friend wuld talk bout me on hiz fb n ididnt say shit 2 him..goez 2 show wat a friend he really waznt..thought he waz my friend but iguess he nvr waz he tried sayin my gurl haz me ***** whiped welll so fuken wat at least igot a good relationship goin on wit my gurl n ur goin around fukin wit other gurlz lik alwayz..ur a PLAYER!!..U EVEN TOLD ME ALL U WANTED 2 DO IZ GET IT IN A GURL N ON 2 THE NEXT 1!!
just wanna say hey im here and hi!
I have suicidal thoughts and I’ve been tempted to resort to self injury so many times, the only reason why I haven’t is because of my mom, because knowing her she wouldn’t try to help me or ask why, she’d just get mad and start yelling at me, saying something probably along the lines of “Why the f*ck would you do that?! You don’t have any reason to! See all the thing you’re doing to your body!” and I just really don’t want to have to sit through ANOTHER annoying and aggravating one of her lectures.
Sometimes, I wish I was brave enough to do […]
My name is Holly i’m 22 & i feel so lost. Â I’ve been lost for over 5 years now and I just don’t know what to do every year it seems like i’m sinking deeper and deeper and that i’ll never be able to keep my head above water. Â I tried to kill myself for the first time this summer I don’t know how to feel that i failed. Â They say i’m lucky that this is my new begining, sometimes it feels like i failed at everything else so of course i failed at that to.
I miss feeling clean and good this feeling of dirtiness […]
I’m not gonna judge you if you wanna die. It’s your life your choice. You only have one life. Use it to do whatever you’d like to it. It’s called freewill, but let me put you in a different perspective for a minute. You have said “That your life is boring, pointless and meaningless” or some of you might’ve said “my life suck, my family don’t care about me, I’d better off dead” or some of might’ve said “People hurt my heart, people disappointed me from time to time again” so you thought uhmmm…..my life is pointless so I’m gonna think away to “END” my […]
I entered the room not expecting him to be there. He was sleeping in the chair, I shook his knee to wake him. Then I saw the gun and a small pool of blood. IÂ looked at his face then saw behind his ear the little bloody hole where a bullet must have gone in. He wasn’t sleeping, he had shot himself in the head. Is he dead? Do I touch just under that hole in his head to see if he is alive? I can’t, I can’t, I can’t touch him, I don’t want him to be dead! My thoughts went to the little […]
The door to my balcony is only five feet away. I’m on the 19th floor. I’ve tried killing myself four times. Why can’t I jump? Just thinking about going over the rail makes me cringe, yet it wouldn’t be a bad death. I’d have a beautiful view going down, it’d be quick and certain and quiet. I sat out there for two hours yesterday, wearing only a t shirt and shorts in 6 degree weather. I tried to psych myself into jumping, hoping that the cold would numb my fear. Â Eventually I gave up when I heard my next door neighbour come into the cold […]
I’m sick of this life. I can’t remember or think of one time where I was genuinely happy; a moment where everything felt just right. Fact of the matter is, I’ve always faked my smile. I’ve always had to fake moments of happiness, nothing was or is ever real. No one would ever believe I feel suicidal or that I’ve suffered and continue to suffer from depression if I told them. I try really hard to mask my internal state and the pain I feel with jokes, just so I don’t give off the impression that I’m actually sad inside.
When I see myself, the only […]
Good time of day! My first post did not bring results. I’m not sure that helium help me to die. To purchase two helium tanks, I need to collect money half a year, denying themselves all over. I would really like understand the scientific basis of the method with helium. And in this post I will try to ask for help. The dramatic changes in life will help me positively exist in the future. I live in Belarus. At the moment I’m studying at the Faculty of Biology 2 course. Biology, my passion for a long time and has had some success. More than anything […]