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my chosen method is overdose. i wanna thank everyone who’s talked to me, even though you don’ know me, you’ve made me feel happy and not alone. it’s nice to know that there is people who will listen and people who wanna help, sadly i don’ personally know anyone like that anymore. people say ‘it gets better’, but it doesn’t always get better, sometimes it get’s worse. but thanks for the support and comments, it’s beena nice help for me and i wish i could’ve gotten to know a few people better, that would have been nice. ) i hope that other people on here […]

I’m so lost and confused right now, I don’t know where to go in life, I have no direction, I’m sick of the continuous need for material things. I hate my mind and all the memories that are stuck in my head, all I want to do it die and just be done with life. There isn’t anything to live for…I’m so over it all

Has anyone one here ever set the date and then just never made another blog?

Before you diagnose yourself with depression or low self esteem, first make sure that you are not, in fact, just surrounded by assholes.

(after a line attributed to William Gibson)

How, when and why are you planning to go?

Personally, i ain’t decided when yet, probably sometime soon though, and i’ma go for ligature asphyxiation, and as for why, well, it’s a long story and i cba typing it again, i’ve already written a few life story posts

I feel lonely… But I don’t do shit about it. I want to ask Janel out, but it’s really hard to do. Well then. I’m here to hopefully soothe my want to be with a cute girl. What’s up with this urge to be with one. It’s not a sexual desire. I don’t know. I prefer dying than to suffer. Well then I guess teenage drama and I guess nO reason to die over a loveless teen life but that just adds to the weight of shit. I guess I’m just looking for a good reason to keep going. I am the type to ***** […]

I have felt the ultimate sadness, i have cried so hard and for so long until finally i felt nothing!.

It was like a switch went off inside of me and i no longer cared, this happened in the blink of an eye.

I am empty, nor sadness nor happiness could be stirred i feel nothing.

I dont think about killing myself because i am already dead inside. I am not afraid to die nor am i scared of evil in the dark or the rapist around the corner.

My best friend is a murderer he murdered my best friend!

I asked for help and was turned away by my […]

when we first met he called me a lesbian, i hit him with a 2by4. i was placed in a foster home that was right next to his house. i lived by him for a couple of months in that time for a short time i was his friend. i thought i was in love with him. i was wrong.

i just dont know why i kissed my worst enemy. if any of u can explain this to me please do. im so lost and confused

how can god love something so stupid and ugly and worthless. people tell me to pray but god doesnt want to hear me so why should i even try. i just want to cut myself into a million pieces. i hate everything about myself and i know i will never even get into heaven because i know god hated me even before i was born. i dont know why the fuck i exist when im so worthless. im such a piece of shit. i cant believe i even wake up every morning when i dont even do anything important in my life.

Can I get any lower then I am? I lost a place to live 4 times this year. every time I live some where I get kicked out all the time and I don’t know why. In the past couple of month I lost 4 places to live. Lost my car and job cause my one roommate got me fired and called the repo people on the car. whats wrong with me. why do every one hate me. My step-dad told me I could come home but now hes talking bought kicking me out and winter is coming, me and my two dogs are going […]

Is it possible to think yourself into insanity? I think it would be better if I stopped thinking so much…. Or at all…That would be nice…..

(lycanthropy) A more modern use of the word is in reference to a mental illness called lycanthropy in which a patient believes he or she is, or has transformed into, an animal and behaves accordingly. This is sometimes referred to as clinical lycanthropy to distinguish it from its use in legends.

I don’t know quite why I’m posting on here but here goes. This is my first posting. On Wednesday I took a big combination of drugs, including methadone, zopiclone (sleeping pill), diazepam and nortriptyline. In other words, the kind of combination that might have done the job. I took most of them before going to see my doctor which I suppose must mean subconsciously that I expected and hoped to be ‘discovered’. I don’t remember anything about the day at all, or the days that followed. Apparently I did see my doctor and was very sleepy and confused. Then I saw the nurse and she […]

I’m not even stoned yet. That won’t last another hour. I cooked enough bacon for sandwiches for everybody.  Thanksgiving dinner is tonight, at the Mom’s cottage. It’s also a small celebration for my birthday, as I won’t be seeing any of these people next week on the actual birthday date.

I still feel like I want to kill somebody. A story in the news brings me hope.

Two crack heads. One lives in the apartment, owes a bunch of drug money. One pissed off crack head, wants his money. The angry crack head brakes into the others home, the crack head in debt fights to defend himself, […]