For general topics related to the site.
Love this song. It knows me so well. Just hear the lyrics and might understand what its saying O:
For general topics related to the site.
Love this song. It knows me so well. Just hear the lyrics and might understand what its saying O:
Oh man. Meeting him in less than a few days. Why am I so nervous. I don’t LIKE him. I CAN’T like him. Too many complications.
Fuck! I really can’t do this again. Keep fucking liking people I can’t let myself like.
Stupid teenage hormones.
No one can change who we really are.
We have our own Mind
& we Make our own Choices.
I may not be perfect, But no one is.
I do thing’s the way I want to.
I love who I am.
yesterday I realized, You can’t let anyone judge you for the mistakes you make.
What you do Is your responsibilty.
I honestly could care less of what anyone thought of me.
I am who I am and No one is going to change that.
I want to take a stand in this world.
So I’m Stupid?
I got raped when I was 11 & […]
I haven’t posted in a while. I have been actually seeing my friends. Leaving the house. To be honest just trying to get out of my own brain. I broke up with my boyfriend of two years in February and just heard that he has a girlfriend, a business up and running and is doing well. I do not regret breaking up with him and I do not want him back but it really makes me question it all. Why wasn’t he like that when he was with me? And why don’t I have it all worked out now? I could potentially grow old alone […]
i just want say a huge THANK YOU to all of you post here. This has been a life-long struggle, and just having this forum and you folks has been a great help to me.
I’m am by no means done fighting, and knowing you all are there for me to express these turbulent feelings too helps me to keep my head in the fight. My heart seems to have given up long ago so a logical approach is all I have left. When the illogical and irrational thoughts creep in it helps me to tell you all.
I hate that y’all are struggling too, […]
So first things first, this is me scratching at the surface of my family history, before I say anything….I am the youngest out of 4 and the only girl (Filipino/Chinese mother and father; whom all are very, very, very, very, STRONG personalities/leaders and most likely the five most absolute hardest personalities to deal on earth with if you are in close proximity to them). Parents divorced when I was 2 yrs old. My dumb(for marrying my dad), loving, hurtful, queen-complex, Cluster B personality, mother MARRIED and DIVORCED my totally narcissistic(confused with OCPD?), its-okay-to-cheat-on-and-beat-my-wife-and-children, hell-of-a-social-climber, insane, oh-maybe-I-should-start-to-treasure-my-relationships-with-my-children-now-that-I’m-getting-older, OCPD dad THREE TIMES. My three older brothers […]
I know many people say they are a disappointment and maybe they are, but I know I am a disappointment. I can never live up to anyone’s standards. I get told by my mom almost everyday that she has higher expectations for me than my sister. My sister is 5 years older than me. Why do I have higher expectations? Yeah I got better grades, but that doesn’t mean anything. It just means that I don’t have a life so I can waste my day studying for something we haven’t even learned yet. I have always had to take care of myself. One day I […]
I’ve tried 3 times. The first one I took 16 sleeping pills. The 2nd I tried to drowned myself. The 3rd…I slit my wrists. I survived. I wanted to. This thing is like a disease..I want help but I don’t want to end up in a mental home..
You never talk to me anymore. Yet, you still talk to everyone else. Everytime I see that you’re online, I send you a chat message asking you to please talk to me again. You reply to me with silence, or you just go offline. You dont know what you’re doing to me when you dont say anything back to me. I dont know what happened between us, we went from being the best of friends to complete strangers. I feel I am the only one trying to rebuild what use to be our friendship, but you stop me everytime I try. You never listen to me. […]
i don’t know how to survive anymore.
i cannot live this life.
i cannot stand this pain.
i can’t do this.
Continued from: here.
Letter didn’t go so well. I threw too many complaints at him at once, completely blindsiding him. But I had no other way to get it out. I was hoping this could open an avenue of discussion between us and we could be more comfortable around each other. Today… the next day… I feel like I’m choking. I was fine all day until he got home from work. He acts like he’s walking on eggshells around me. He says at dinner, “I would tell you about my day, but I’m not allowed to talk about anything negative.” … I had […]
ever since I realized how hurtful people’s words can be, I have hated myself. I always will, that will never change.
I know there are people in this world who truly love me, somewhere down in them, even though they don’t really show it. I’ve thought about committing suicide on one of my birthdays, I think it would be really cool to die on my birthday. wake up, get a rope, go to the living room, and hang myself before anyone else gets up. it’s perfect. but my birthday is so far away, ughh.
I always imagined who might be at my funeral, maybe some friends, relatives, […]
Suicide is what i crave
Suicide is always on mine mind
twenty-four seven.
Its something that i need
desire even.
Its all i really want
for my birthday or Christmas.
I dont need anything
except suicide taking me away.
I crave it like a desirable sweet
we cant somehow have.
I cant controll myself,
its like an eating disorder
that i cant conqure.
I cant help myself
i just cant help it
I really do crave it
i can feel it.
what happened to the old sp where everyone cared and didnt post mean commments? where we were all here to help each other and this was a site of comfort and a site to get help? its really changed
I’m 20 with a 3yr old son. I love my boy more than life. But recently, I realized, I can’t feel anymore. The only thing I feel is that I’m waiting. Waiting for my mind to realize what my body has already decided… Suicide. I feel like I’ve been waiting ever since I was raped  when I was 12. That ruined me. I can’t afford a therapist or anything like that, so, I’m trying to find help on my own. Today and tomorrow, I will try. And no, what happened when I was 12 isn’t the only thing. I’m just tired of explaining it all. […]
Sometimes I wonder if I’ll actually do it. Will I ever kill myself? I might accidentally. Would I do it though? I might take 10 pills, but I might also think I’ll still wake up. I might slit myself all over and bleed and bleed. Will I actually KILL myself though? I came on this website after someone told me they didn’t love me. After they didn’t want anything to do with me. He told me he hasn’t for a while… So why did he pretend? I started cutting then. I started drinking because of him. I got into drugs. I smoked and I lied […]
It’s a funny thing when you look at this. An actual person who literally slices themselves open on a daily basis just to get away from the emotional pain and come back to a physical state. I bet there’s someone you’ve said something rude to that went home and add a another scar to their already beautifully scarred skin. So yes in a literal sense you just made a mark in their life and you are now embedded into their skin forever. When I put it that way […]
Today I failed at being anything but worthless.I sat in the rain and cried.My time is almost up the date seems closer and closer I can’t go through humiliation.my fears have taken over my life.I relized happiness I something I could never have.today you said I was stupid and yesterday and all the days before that.you’re my infection I take my time to give you all affection I have nothing left.you hate me I hate me.the last thing I’m living for is fading away
I feel like my time is up in this world. I haven’t even accomplished what I want to accomplish. I feel like a total failure. I feel misjudged. I feel taken advantage of. I’m ready to go away now … If my family reads this, I love you.
Recently my life has taken a turn for tge worst. I had a decent life living in savannah, ga. Then my mom got diagnosed with stage 3 colon cancer. Moved back home (Jasper, ga) to be with her. It’s tough. So then tine passes, mom has defficulties with chemo, all going down hill. Well I have to have a regular colonoscopy as a check up. Time goes by. Yesterday I found out that my boyfriend of 4 years cheated on me. I can’t sleep, I can’t eat, I have migraines from not eating. I feel like it’s my time to go. I wish God would […]
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