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READ THIS, IF YOU CARE….

  June 17th, 2008 by Emily F

I’ve tried to commit suicide on 3 occasions, the first to was when I was 6 YEARS OLD, I tried to stab myself with a knife- my pereants were hitting each other and I was knocked down while trying to sepperate them, so I ran to my room, with a knife in my hands, thinking about pain and death and hid in my closet, the knife inched nearer and nearer to my neck, but I could not do it. I didn’t know what suicide was, all I knew was that it would all “end”.

The second time was when I WAS NINE, I was constantly bullied …

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My letter

  June 17th, 2008 by sla5af

Dear all,
When any of you has read this, I will be far gone. Most likely in downtown KL or somewhere nearby. Watching my final sunrise.

I can’t cope with the pain and the loss anymore. I don’t know how to describe how I feel. I really suck at talking, making friends, and everything. I hate being me.

I’m just tired of this life. I’m tired of having my old lives being wrenched away from me. Over and over again. Different parts of me is like scattered all over the world. I left a part of me behind every place I used to be. I’m …

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My Gift

  June 16th, 2008 by rabidrabbit

I have lived a dishonorable life. I have done dishonorable acts, and deeply hurt two different women. I have lived my life like a steamroller, destroying everything I have ever touched. I must destroy myself, for I will only continue to destroy everything in sight.

My death is my gift to all mankind.

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Tired of living

  June 16th, 2008 by johnw

I’m 22, I live with my parents, which makes me feel not very free. My father was a verbal-violent alcoholic before, thou he never hit a fly, and he still drinks which makes the ghosts on the house to reappear. So I wanna get the hell out of here, but I don’t have enough money to go by myself (I live in South America). I can’t find a way to live, I’m feeling from a homosexual to a loser and my mind is continuing killing myself with bad thoughts about me and another people. Life is shit, women are whores, my friends are great, but …

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Bah

  June 16th, 2008 by yutz

I’m in my mid-thirties, I’ve got a decent career, money in the bank, girlfriend, no major responsibilities other than getting my current projects in on time, no major health problems yet, yet I think of suicide almost daily.

Nothing feels good. I’ve got the trappings of a good life, but I get no reward from it, which magnifies the day-to-day obstacles and makes them a thousand times worse. Most people’s status quo is to be generally happy. It feels like my status quo is to be in a state of despair, or panic. Socialization doesn’t feel good. Work doesn’t feel good. I’ve started taking antidepressants, …

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MY DREEM IS NEAR why do i fear

  June 13th, 2008 by sexualoverdrive

babay im writing this to all and none as i search for the reason of my depression and my hate as my family has killed me off why should i wait i want to do the dirty deed but i cannot as i surely need the life i breath and the kiss i take your the one who keeps me awake im so lost in my deepression as i get all lost in life i hav elost my jkob my family and some friends i need to take some time and make amenze i wish to end it al my life my …

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Fight for life…

  June 13th, 2008 by faerie

It’s never easy to think of suicide as just to end your life. It’s more than just slitting your wrist, popping pills, poisoning by gas fumes or running over a cliff.

my entire life, i’ve been nothing but a huge scar. You see a sweet girl one day, then you start to see what sort of pain is really hiding inside of my heart.

I am very anemic and my heart is very weak. I couldn’t breathe sometimes due to post-traumatic stress. I had 3 blood transfusions in the past and one day may need heart surgery. But I lived with this torn heart.

I …

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If Anyone Cares…

  June 13th, 2008 by Irrel_Avant

Growing up I was really poor but I was always told, “You are going to be something great!”. School was so easy most of the time I felt like I wasn’t challenged enough. I have always been good at most things I try. Girls have always wanted to be with me. I’m smart, wise, artistic, good looking and athletic. I can do everything from paint portraits to fly a plane, all self-taught! I have a wonderful girlfriend who is everything I ever wanted in a girl. But I feel so lonely. So empty…. My heart hurts and I don’t know why. I feel like I …

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I’m Sorry

  June 12th, 2008 by pauldugan13

HAPPY FATHER’S DAY

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i made a mistake

  June 11th, 2008 by sad and trapped

i know so much. i know things that my boss did, that are wrong, but i have no proof, and his victims will not speak. i try so hard. all i want is to be a superhero and do the right thing i just want to live a life like in the comic books. to fight crime. i think that is how i will die, saving someone, because jesus said there is no greater act than to lay down your life for somone else. i am crying, i have a gun and i really want to use it on me. i want to die, …

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ready to die

  June 10th, 2008 by doesnt matter

i am a married white male 47 years old married for 24 years or so been with my wife for 26 or 27 years. have a first grandchild on the way (its a girl). but i am thinking i wont be around to see her.but its ok . i did my best raiseing 3 sons none of which can even stand to be around me. all in all i am not that bad of a person but people precieve me that way.had one affair on my wife . she would have you believe it was 7-8 but its just not true.i lost one week of …

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Why me ?

  June 6th, 2008 by Xgothikal-emo-bbeX

People allways think that bullying doesn’t hurt well I can prove them wrong ! Way wrong !
I get bullied because of what my mum is . Because of what I am . Why does it allways happen to me ?
I get it all the time . My family and friends stick by me but half the time I just want to end the lot ! No more suffering ! No more pain ! No more bullies ! No more torture !
But does it solve anything at all ?
Well the answer is no !
It helps them win ! They allways pick on the people …

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People

  June 6th, 2008 by Xgothikal-emo-bbeX

It was verry hard goin to high school,meeting new people for the first time but I knew I wouldn’t fit in with these people.My mum was a lesbian.People soon found out and I was tormented by it.I felt I couldn’t deal with all the trouble as well as my school work. It was causing my grades to fall dramaticaly and I wouldn’t tell no one.I was afraid , thinking people would class me the same.People found it funny to be bullying me and it was causing me to self harm.I hid the cuts by using make-up.I thought it would be better to end my life …

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I’m Sorry I am NOW Happy

  June 3rd, 2008 by pauldugan13

I’m Sorry..

EAT DOG SHIT FOREVER !!!!!!

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Ready

  June 3rd, 2008 by BAM

I was really surprised such a site existed where we can discuss wanting death and not be put away.

I’ve already been there, wrongfully.

I’m a writer, it’s the only thing I’m good at and it’s gotten me into trouble. Back along, I was expelled from school because I blogged in a dark lamenting sort of fashion.
I didn’t mean anything by it, but the school had enough. They didn’t want to be liable.
It was actually two ex friends who gave me away. They destroyed my life like I was an ant.
They expelled me because they thought I would kill students or myself.
They washed their …

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why me.

  June 2nd, 2008 by m0ntana

if you want to know my life traumas comment on this.and ill get back to you.

so im 16 & on the outside i look fine and normal.
but wait till you take my clothes and layers off.
im one big scar. i have to many cuts to count. i have to hide them everyday from my sibblings.
i try to be happy,i swear.
i LOVE to cut,thats the problem..i love the feeling.
i use to use a key to cut,it left a nice scar.
then i moved onto scissors,and they left little scars.
so i moved onto a knife with teeth..i also punch things tempting to break my hand..but instead it just …

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Its my fault

  June 1st, 2008 by blonde

I once thought i was coping well till i hit rock bottom It started when i was about 14 when i got beat up and we moved away from the area i grow up in i was never close to my mum so all i had was my dad but then he got cancer i becambe his carer he was only 44 he was young i never thought i’d lose him but in 2001 he died i was there when he died and from that moment on i was on my own no one held me and gave me support i felt like i had …

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Untitled

  May 28th, 2008 by TkElle

I’ve literally been aware of this website for no longer than five minutes, but I can’t explain how relieved I feel for having typed ‘suicide’ in a search engine. Some of the stories I scanned are heart-wrenching and I don’t feel I can compare (even though that isn’t the point), or even justify why I feel so awful. I’m 15, and in the midst of my examinations. I find it impossible to revise for them, maybe because I have a constant thought of how I may fail if I don’t revise. But that makes the process worse. I feel pressured by myself – guilt-tripped in …

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life and trials

  May 27th, 2008 by andrewk5

Hello my name is andrew and Iam writing this because Iam at a crossroad in my life on weather to live or die. through out my child I was raped by adults and some of them are family but some how I made it through even if I block out the pain I tred to kill myself onces and did not get my wish but I here today still dealing with the pain of my life Iam considering it again but something keeps telling me you will regret it I don’t no where to go in my life I feel as if my …

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  May 27th, 2008 by malisala

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