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He’s gone he’s gone he’s gone
it hurts alot to know
he left and not say goodbye
i cry myself to sleep at night
i keep getting sympathy
but now its over
nothing left but memories
its so hard to feel the struggling
oh gosh im now depressed
i feel my heart fall
i feel the tears fall
i see him up above
now he’s in a better place
i hope he’s happy now
he got what he has now
i can feel the pain
as i keep thinking and thinking about you
i loved you like the best friend should
i will always be […]

I wrote a new song last night but didn’t post it. It might be a tad confusing, I apologize if it disorients you. 😉

I wonder what it’s like not to feel this way

I wonder if it’s nice to see the sun and smile

What would it be like if I woke up to another day

And didn’t wish I wasn’t here, for a little while?

I wonder if it’s nice to worry about tomorrow’s test

To stress out with my friends and worry about my grade

What would it be like if my mind had some rest?

If I could sit and sip cold lemonade

Would I sit and smell the flowers?

Would […]

Nothing ever goes right for me and im through with being fucked over time and time again. Ive had enough.

Someone wrote this and I really like it.
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I find people that scream “selfish” to those who consider suicide sort of…well…selfish! It seems like they’re saying “I don’t mind as long as YOU are the one that’s suffering unbearable pain for years on end with no end in sight. Buck up…it’ll get better…maybe.” The second someone actually commits suicide however and it’s them feeling any sense of pain, all of a sudden it’s a big problem. Are you saying that your feelings and emotions are more important than someone considering suicide? The huge difference is that a lot of people never get over suicide, […]

…an old country song by Don Williams

Lord, I hope this day is good,
I’m feeling empty and misunderstood.
I should be thankful Lord I know I should,
But, Lord, I hope this day is good.

Well I have not posted on here for a while as but I figure it is a good place to vent without fear of consequences, anyway I am just so tired of it all. I’m just running through the motions, yet another day, exhausted and lost. wishing it to be undone. I’m stuck in limbo, can’t go back and I can’t or don’t want or too scared to go forward…I just don’t know. all I do is think about ways to leave

I’d thought that I share some song lyrics as this song plays over and over constantly and I feel it very apt  for me, even tho it’s about something […]

I figured I’d tell my story, given that I decided today that I want to live for a while. I almost let myself bleed to death, but I didn’t want my sister to find me in a puddle of blood in the bathroom. Anyway, I’ve only given you guys bits and pieces you’ve had to gleam from my poetry and such, and that’s not fair. You shouldn’t have to work hard to understand me. But that’s just how I am. No one really knows me, not even my closest friends. My best friend always says that: “Lisa, you’re so mysterious. It’s really cool.” Anyway, I’m […]

They say we are selfish for wanting it to end.They say we should stay alive we are too young.Do they know what I go through each day?Do they know what she does?The dark feeling begins,first the whisper of the voice, saying it’ll all be over soon.Then the screaming of the voice telling me to just do it. Then something good happens so I get an inkling of hope. Only to have snatched around by her.
she is the reason for my problems. Once again you say it is selfish for me to want it to end. It’s selfish for you to want me to stay […]

Hey,

I know you didn’t ask for one, so I don’t have a poem specifically for you. But  I do think about you and hope you are okay. I hope that even though I haven’t seen any posts or replies from you, I hope you are still “lurking” and still here. Hopefully this place still holds some value and you still get some positives for your life by being here. If not, I certainly understand, but this post is in the hope that you read this and get some needed love. I cannot repay what you’ve given me, but that won’t stop me from trying.

Peace be unto […]

Please shoot me in the fucking head. I want to die. I want to die.

I feel completly stupid. I just want to bash my head against the wall till my brains show. I cant beileve i actually believe that. Ugh im so fucking depress that i am ready to go kill myself. Im just want to jump in the river and hoping my death will be fast.(btw i breath differntly like everyone else. i have to take deep breaths just to get oxygen into my lungs. :/. Ugh fuck my life. My best friend in the whole world is dead. It hurts alot v- v. I miss him too much to ever let it go. Every time i […]

She’s a *****, for no reason.  She doesn’t like me, and I’m kinda glad cause she is a slut.  However I do hope one day I fuck her.  I hope I grow up to be rich, then one day I’ll see her again and then she’ll approach me.  I’ll fuck her and leave her and make her feel like shit.  That may sound mean but I’m in a shit mood right now and could really give a fuck.  Sorry.

What is the point of life if your just gonna be lonely all the time and everything feels empty. If you try so hard to be happy but your just unable to do so. What’s the point of life if your just gonna be judged forever by people. If you can’t keep a friend because of something you done you regret doing. If true love is impossible to find. What’s the point of death if you die lonely, what’s the guarantee that death will bring us happiness and love. What’s the point of living if you have no talents, you can’t help people because you […]

Do to a lot of reasons i think all of us should forget about the Helium option, because of all the bad things that can go wrong with that, like…

“I ran through very carefully lastnight what was to be my exit and am now apprehensive about still being here. I made my exit bag and was careful to regulate the flow of helium to the correct level. I emptied the remaining air from the bag then turned the flow on. Once the bag was full with helium I then emptied my lungs, pulled the bag down and […]