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It’s taking all my strength right now not to take the painkillers I have beside me.

For the first time, I felt a glimmer of hope for about 2 days and I’ve just lost it. Or rather, it was taken away from me.

I just don’t see why I’m fighting this for anymore. Why should I bother fighting this? There’s no point to it.

what is the definition of depression?

is every whining pessimist depressed?

are you depressed? am i depressed?

how does one diagnose a persons inner feelings and pain.

and how do i define what i am, and how i feel.

‘he’ might say i have a case of depression,

‘she’ might say i just get sad sometimes

and ‘they’ might say im just pathetic.

and i, might say…

that point when it gets so bad and you dont even like the sound of your own heartbeat anymore

Not every problem has a solution. Some problems are innate, unsolvable, and you have to live with them till the day you die.

“Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem” is just a cliche said by those who are lucky enough to never experience the worst life could offer.

I didn’t want to hear that, I didn’t want know, but it’s to late, I asked. I already knew the answer and now I have the thought and the image that entails.

I wanna scream, I am trying here but I am by far not out of the woods yet. So yes it does still hurt but I will pretend for you that it doesn’t.

TOO many memories I wish I didn’t have and now I cannot make them go away….       ….

id sit here and blame it on my sleep deprevation but its really just you. im sorry forr what i did its been a year not a day goes by where i wish you were here. but you hate me. i ruined it all. i sat there screaming and crying as i watched the dominoes fall. i went insane and grabbed my pills. overdosed and passed out thinking it was the end. woke up three days later wishing i could go back and start all over again. why does your name have to be so long? if it were shorter id have fewer cuts on […]

I gave up trying
I gave up crying
As everyone is dying
I deicide to quit lying
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Was it just a project
or am i a nervous wrecked
Althought he grab my neck
it was all just a side effect
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Does he hate me
or let me free
He walks alone
even when i shown
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weed starts as a seed its all i really need it fells so right in my pipe i think it might die tonight it puts my boyfriend to fright caus it means we cant fuck all nightth only time he wants to see me is when im on my knees his like come on ***** please weed starts as a seed its all i really need it feels so right in my pipe i think i might die tonight i sit in my jeep and the boys yell out damn that ***** is ceep i like my whiskey hard like my boys i cant die […]

Why do I feel like everybody hates me?
I haven’t even done anything wrong
All I do is care for other people…
And of course it’s shoved back In my face.
I really hate life, I annoy everyone I know
What’s going in my head?
All I think about is death, my death
When it will be, how it will happen,
I really don’t see a point in living
Wish someone would murder me, poison me?
It’s even sadder that my best friend is my blade
Was doing so well till tonight, 7 days free
But yet again, I fail. Can’t do anything right
I […]

i look up towards the full moon
how so bright that it shines in the dark night
i really will miss you when i go away soon
you brought happiness to my soul without light

not realy good but an honest attempt at least

Cast out, like yesterday’s trash
There’s no hope left, for you to grasp
Living this life, full of contempt
The powers that be, labeled you exempt
Your body, ready to collapse
There’s no time now, for you to relax
The world left you cold and rejected
Your soul cast away and neglected,
And they all denied,
The things you felt inside
Now’s your chance, to wake them up
It’s your turn now, to fill the cup
All eyes on you, as you race for the exit
The pain inside constantly resurrected
Let them know your pain, let them hear your voice
The emptiness, that left […]

If i want to commit suicide
I want to be successful
I want you to know
what i am going through.
I wish i knew
what im going through.
I may seem happy at first
but later i would be sad or depress.
I dont want people
to be sympthic
I want help
I want to bash my head
against the wall
untill i pass out.
I want you to know
that i am in pain
that i am crying in shame.
Am i a terrible person.
Could i possible find a way
to put my life to an end.
If i want to commited […]

I am not trying to harm anyone.

When I say some things, it’s not that I’m trying to upset you.

I’m just trying to help- the way that people didn’t help me.

I’m sorry.

If you don’t want me around

Just tell me

I’ll leave

Because I don’t want to harm anyone

I don’t want to hurt anyone

If you don’t like me

If you don’t need me

I can just go

This is almost the end for me anyway

I just wanted to help someone out before they ended up like me

I’m sorry

I’m sorry

I’m sorry

fuk ill try to write it again…..

can anyone help me grow a pair… i want to die so bad but i ran out of balls…. i got the exit bag system all ready, but id rather sleep and dream… wont it be just the same except i dont have to wake up… every time i wake up im cranky becuase im not alseep dreaming where no1 can bother me.

so in short, how do i get more strength to follow throu????

in summary im a 26 yr old male, who has wanted to die since primary school, i used to write poems about death and dispear, my […]

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