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 I fall in love with you so easily. Yes, you. As you read these words; as they drip so easily through your mind. I am falling in love with you. Not only you, but your emotions. And your life. And your beauty.

I am falling in love with you falling in love with others. I am falling in love with the music that pulses through both our bodies: the idea that our hearts are beating to the same drum rhythm. I am falling in love with the tears that cascade down your cheeks: that stinging feeling in your soul and the aching at the back of […]

okay so im only twenty and feel like i have had a life from hell and im not sure what to do so here i go. ever since i was little my mother used to manipuate me and my brother she is a compsive lair and to tell you the truth a complete ***** i dont even know who she is a person still to this day so from being a pon on her chess board and being raped by her boyfriend used to rape me and he did it for years and i never told a soul my dad met my step mom and […]

LETS ALL JUST FUCKIN DIE!!!

I Want to die next to a suicidal stranger so it´ll be less painful

I recently realized that I was depressed from a very early age. Probably from around the age of 5. I used to watch my dad beat my mom. Finally she left him. I was the youngest of six so after the seperation I was raised by my sister and was basically neglected by both of my parents since my dad was never around. In Junior High was the first time I tried to commit suicide. I just took a bunch of OTC pills and made myself very sick for a few days. Then I started to cut and burn myself with lighters and act out […]

I viewed this site 6 months ago shortly after trying to kill myself. I couldn’t find the strength to actually go through with it when the time came. I wanted to die. I wanted to die more than I wanted to live, but for some reason I just couldn’t do it. I hated myself for a little while, thought of myself as a coward.

Since then I have been seriously working through things in my head and exploring every possible reason for me to stay alive. Suddenly, last week, the darkness lifted from me for no apparent reason. I felt lighter, happier and could see things crystal […]

i have charcoal method and h2s-struggling 2 decide which one is best 4 me-can sum1 with intelligence tell me the better of the 2 methods-thanku

I love reading things from you, I feel your pain and I share the same views. All of you, to me, came across as such beautiful and honest people, ones I would really love to know. It makes me so very sad that I don’t see comments from you anymore. 

Alluvion commented a couple of days ago but it was not his/her usual style, I feel something is wrong. I know JennyA is terminally ill and I pray that she is okay. This site is a sadder place without words from you guys.

Beautiful souls, that I fear don’t belong here.

x

It seems the largest and most popular posts on this site have been ones about capitalism being the fundamental cause of upset and depressions, and also whether or not society as a whole is ‘evil’.  It made me think very deeply about these topics, as I too am very depressed about how the world is, and I spoke to the people in my life about these topics also. It seems that most people (except on here) are unwilling to go deep into these concerns, the conversation always stops when it becomes to horrid for the listener. So, I thought of these things this way;  What […]

It’s true. I live in London, and whenever I am out and about now all I see and hear are the kids bossing the parents about and taking charge. Is this the new freedom? Or is this what the book 1984 predicted? It’s got so bad that I only leave the house when I am about to die from lack of fresh air. I used to love to visit parks, galleries and cafes but now they are teaming with loud obnoxious families, or single mums with prams that are bigger than cars, that carry around around their offspring that are shouting their constant demands. 

I know […]

I’m standin’ on the bridge
I’m waitin’ in the dark
I thought that you’d be here by now
There’s nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I’m listening but there’s no sound

Isn’t anyone tryin’ to find me?
Won’t somebody come take me home?
It’s a damn cold night
I’m tryin’ to figure out this life
Won’t you take me by the hand?
Take me somewhere new
I don’t know who you are
But I’m, I’m with you
I’m with you

I’m looking for a place
I’m searching for a face
Is anybody here I know?
‘Cause nothing’s going right
And everything’s a mess
And […]

People are very jealous when someone posts a popular piece. I have noticed that someone, at least one individual will join that thread with an ‘alternative viewpoint’. The ‘viewpoint’ is not the real motive, it is designed to cause upset amongst the agreeing majority – because they are jealous and despite having posted many times, they have never been quite so popular and it pisses them off, understandably so. Sometimes they even create a new profile and attack (in an innocent way of course, with their ‘alternative viewpoint’) as a new person. 

Oh how I love watching our species play up!

I know who you are! yet another identity hey? Why don’t you just post under the one identity? What are you afraid of?

The only reason I’m still alive Is that I’m so afraid of failure, that I can’t even pursue to take my own life. I am so afraid of surviving yet another attempt. How pathetic is that?

I see no light in the end of the tunnel, my future is a void, a black hole, where nothing can or will exist. I usually hate every single person I meet, not because they are rude, just because I feel inferior, they are happy, lovable, beautiful.

I can never hide, or run from this feelings I’m having. I can’t talk about these feelings, because they are so deeply rooted that […]

i feel like a reject. No one sees me, no one hears me, no one wants me. I try to get my voice heard, but I’m always overpowered by someone else, usually by those with a stereotype. I don’t fit in, but that’s the trend right now isn’t it? And it’s usually the odd ones that get all the recognition. But even I don’t feel like a part of that group. It’s as if I’m the reject of the rejects.

Its funny, I dont think im suicidal at the moment. Im currently chain smoking and drinking to get my self to go to bed and stop thinking.

The problem is i have no one to talk to. not anyone whio would understand. im 20 years old and living in my parents basement. i dropped out of high school in my senior year (because of panic attacks from being harrassed) and i have somewhat of a social phobia. ive had friends..they’re all on drugs now so I dont communicate with them. my parents are fine but I dont like to talk with them about serious issues..i told […]