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If I kill myself today, everyone will be at peace for the rest of their weekend. No one will stop by until the festivities are over. I will finally be free.

Well at least that’s my hypothesis.

I’ve read pretty much everything on here and this is where I’m at, and I guess what I’m searching for, but failing to find;  Out of everyone I have ever known, met, or out of everything I have ever read on various forums, I can say that I am either more, or at least as philosophical or spiritual as they are. I could go right now and probably turn someone’s thinking from despair to hope and joy, I’ve done that all my life with everyone I meet and also myself over and over again. I am tired of ‘deep thinking’ and seeing the bright side […]

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I feel so alone, even though I’m surrounded by a lot of people. Nobody understands me. I just want to get this over with and end my life. I don’t see the point of living anymore. I’ve been depressed all my life, and nobody even notices. Nobody listens and I’m tired of pretending. So please, tell me easiest and painless way to kill oneself. I can’t take it anymore. I just can’t.

It would seem that this place is popular. I guess this would be a good place to explain my story, and in truth, my confessions. We will begin with the problem:

My problem is that I will never really amount to anything. I don’t know if anyone understands what my situation is, but I will explain as best I can. For years I have struggled to become something great. I want to be an actor and have my face everywhere. I mean it sounds childish, but I was accepted to a college for acting. I was going to go, but something held me back. I can’t […]

the truth to why I act this way. They can’t see that I’m just a robot saying and doing everything they say. Why I don’t see the details, just the outlines and why I look unresponsive and cold. Nobody knows because nobody cares.

I posted a few days ago about my situation. To keep it brief I won’t go into all that again, but basically I’m considering suicide and if it comes to that, it’s likely to occur within the next 2 weeks or so; or when my money runs out, whichever comes quickest.

A few things occured today that I find, ironic for lack of a better word. My mom picked me up and we’re driving to pick up my sister. She turns down the stereo to tell me a story. An old friend of hers, Gloria, called her last weekend and had some sad news. A very close […]

If you put 20 mice in a cage, and each day shake the cage and jab the mice with sharp pins as they run past. Around 3 of the mice will refuse to eat, and prefer to die instead of putting up with being tortured, aren’t they the smart ones?

Thanks, Stragers, Comrades in arm!

Hi Jenttar, I noticed your reply to niki on another post, I responded to you but it is waiting in moderation, so I thought I would post my reply just for you 🙂

Being suicidal doesn’t always have anything to do with your circumstances, many wealthy people kill themselves. I think it depends on how realistic you are about life, weather you’re poor or rich, if you are smart enough to to have a realistic view of what your future holds, and you don’t like it, that can make you suicidal. Whilst I agree to a certain degree that we never really know what our future […]

She walks up to me, a cold white dust on her coat. She looks me squarely in the eye, a tear falls from her cheek to the blade she holds. The snow crunches beneath her feet as she imparts upon me a final embrace. “Good bye” she says “I’m sorry”. She holds her dagger over her left breast. Unimaginable grief adorns her face. The dagger plunges into her chest, into her heart. A brief cry of anguish escapes her lips. She falls to the ground blood flowing freely from her wound, turning the snow a deep red. […]

Having been sexually abused as a child, I can safely say that I believe that all of my gender-related parts need to be surgically altered/completely removed.  Knowing that I cannot pay for such surgery, my alternative, instead of suffering with that my entire life, seems to be suicide.  That would be the one sure way to deal with it so that I did not have to feel anything about it anymore.  Beyond that, my military combat experiences do not help my mental/emotional state or views of myself.  As a matter of fact, a bullet in the brain sounds that much better because I never anticipated […]

My name is Steve and I will be 47 in October – and after my recent experience, I feel so grateful I am still here and might likely see age 47 come to pass…

I’ve always been a wilderness lover, and as such, tend to be a loner because few people I know feel so comfortable in the  “boonies” as I do. In fact, it is my preference to pass-away, when the time is really right, deep in the wilderness, in a peaceful, lovely setting of a few chosen spots I have found during my lifetime of wilderness camping and hiking – like a
native person.  […]

I want to stay alive because I love laughing and dancing, I love music, the weather, the river and the garden. There’s so many films I haven’t seen yet, so many books I’ve still to read. I love traveling really early on a Saturday morning when everyone’s still in bed and the roads are clear, and I’m escaping to somewhere remote for the weekend. I love sitting in sweet little coffee shops and watching the world go by; the world that I hate in the main, but now and again I see the movement of a kind person and it touches me to tears and […]

They told us what life’s about,

Grow up, do well in school, and don’t act out,

Make friends, find love and get employed,

Marry, get a mortgage, be overjoyed,

Have kids, watch TV, don’t forget to vote,

Go to church, find some hobbies, congratulations you’re afloat,

Donate to charity, go on vacation, but ignore temptation,

Grow old, retire, spoil the children, and thank your democratic nation,

Reminisce, be at peace and look forward to the afterlife of your choosing…

Yawn.

Forgive me for snoozing.

I can’t help but think how fucked we all are,

If the above is the ideal then we’re all screwed,

We’re told from birth “this is the plan”,

Society sets this norm…builds this pedestal,

There’s no […]

if you are suffering and also interested in getting better, I have some info to offer that may or may not help.

first and foremost my email is asprin4themasses@gmail.com. If you ever need someone to talk with email me, I’ll even give you my number, we can chat at odd hours.

Second is for those of you who are depressed because of economics, I can offer the subsection of a website called reddit, called frugal http://www.reddit.com/r/Frugal/top/?t=all. These guys are the best, simple  to advanced tips to stay alive in hard times. They also have a community about suicide, http://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/

Third is the information that depression has physical links, […]