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Just yesterday I broke down and almost ended up hurting my sister in the process. She was being her usual mean self absorbed self and didn’t notice that I was on edge. So she decided to pick a fight with me. Verbal. Almost never phisical anymore. I have been doing karate to help with the helpless andger and frustration o not being able to kill myself and I Noe am able to relly hurt someone. I guess martial arts was a ba idea. Even though I skip so many classes.
My sister continued to pick on me and enfuriate me until I just lost it. […]

Many of you are fed up with this reality world.
It’s the substance world you care about that disappointed you.
So you don’t care about the talks of any non-substance BS, without knowing it’s the value of this non-substance, spiritual comfort, is disappointing you.

Religions are good, it gives support at least to those weak individual minds.
And it provides positive direction.
And to do good deeds is nice, being kind and knowing the beauty of real love, that is asking for no returns.
But the main thing you have to know, religions are just a guide, but not representing you yourself.
When the time is ripe […]

all of u or some mybe have taste your first love right? well mine got me into a very “freaking” situation. Who would have thought that a single smile would bring a “nightmare” i mean ahh… how can a smile from a pretty lady would put you in a life-taking-situation and this dangerous weapon she always carry called “FACE” well.Here’s the story im almost 18 and i meet this girl in our campus she was new transferee i think well..anyway the very first moment that I’ve seen here i have fallen in love it even b’come more when she smiled at me […]

how do you delete precious comments youve made. I cant seem to find this information anywhere

Oh, this must be the conference room. 1666. Knock knock. Monkey Pizza !
What’s happening to the last digit dangling and rotating while opening the door ?
Oh it’s flipped to a 9 ?
Wow, the room so dark without the lights on. Oops.. I thought noone’s in this dark room.
Sir, here’s your piz…Oh, you’ve got a gun ! Please, don’t kill me, I’m just a pizza boy.

“You stupid son of the B, you are all monkeys. Animals don’t suicide. Only a real perspicacious human can learn when to live and die.”

So you’re attempting suicide. But pardon me, sir, animals do suicide. I once […]

I am almost 33 years old. Growing up I was always the “happy” one in the family. You see I was adopted at the age of 6, abandoned at the age of 2 1/2, grew up in foster care until a “suitable” family had been chosen for me and my two siblings. No one could possibly understand how I felt so I masked every little negative feeling. I didn’t want anyone else to feel sad like me so I played the happy part quite well. As a teenager my depression began so show but my mother told me to pray about it and it would […]

Life has never been that great. I have been planning my death for 11 years. I’m almost 18. My mind has never been my friend. My parents rag on me every day and night. I go through school one day at a time. People yell at me and call me less then dirt. I am kicked around by kids twice my size. My own brother can never come by b/c my dad hates him. It’s not his kid. I have to sneak to see my own family. I started hating life when I was 7years old. At the age of 17 I have been through […]

its been a long while since ive touched this site, but here i find myself again in a bad way. i feel like trash in many ways.. with who n how i am n how i look. it hurts bc i know its wrong n im only harming myself. i hope to never wake up again but im still here. i am capable of taking my life away in so many ways. but there goes my conscience telling me that ill hurt my family, ill ruin their happiness, ill disappoint them, ill mess everything up n ill leave them with guilt. but i find no […]

My birthday is coming up, wouldn’t it be ironic to do it that day?

Not a good day today. Never felt more alone in a room full of people then I do now. I have been married for over 22 years and four children of all I love, but things are overwhelming right now… tooo much. I tried to pull the trigger, but just couldn’t, even did it while standing infront of my wife…foolish.
We just had the hugest argument that we have ever had and I just can’t take it anymore. My life is worthless, my married marred, and my example as a father destoryed. All I want to do is leave. […]

“Hi, my name is Gerard. I’m just a bit concerned by the tendency of the medical profession and society in general to want to put a label on us as depressive people and therefore that there’s something wrong with us.
I think that some people may have an inability to cope, and maybe this might sound a bit extreme, but that might be Darwinian theory, the Darwin theory of survival of the fittest.

Maybe some of us aren’t meant to survive, maybe some of us are meant to kill ourselves because the only people that really suffer are the ones left behind, but the person who […]

You would think that being different would work for you.I handle all my personal business like a good person. I mean you’ve seen or heard about that guy thats not a typical idiot, that wants only to be happy and someone to share it with. All he ever thinks about is doing for others in the hopes that others will be just as kind if not than more so. Of course your family will say they love you. BUT THATS WHAT THEY ALWAYS DO. It’s only natural for them to say I love you. But its a whole different story when someone from outside your […]

Remember when we all dreamed of what we wanted to be when we grow up? What happened to that? I guess life has a funny way of showing you how your life is going to pan out. I have dreams. I have lots of dreams. But will I ever achieve them? I’ve been told over and over again by people to be “realistic” about life. But why? Why can’t I dream? Do you think I will never accomplish them? So what if they may seem outrageous or stupid. It’s my life. Yes, I want to be a WWE Diva. Yes, I want to live in […]

Sometime in the past 6 years, I found myself. I still know who I am… but I can’t be who I want to be. No, not because of peer pressure and whatnot. I genuinely have this sickness thats preventing me from doing the things I love and being the person I am.

There should be no walls, no obstacles to stop me. I have my supportive parents. I have a warm home. I basically have most things I ask for. So why do I still sit here and want to be gone? Not dead, but gone. And if dead is the only way to be […]

or at least no worse than any other night. i wrote my letter. summoning the courage to do what i think is right. or what needs to be done. i resisted for so many years. these past days i woke up and fell asleep with the thought of suicide.
well, thanks for creating this site. i hope you guys get better, i hope for a good change in all your lives, and be safe. if i survive i guess i’ll be back (:

i hope hell aint that bad that i cant laugh at it.

ps. this is a primal fear song, i found it fit […]

Just like you all I have experienced depression ,depression so bad that it drove me to almost killing myself and even praying death upon myself. Life seemed unfair to me, it was like everything I did failed ,it was as if God was against me ,I hated him for it and even went as far as cursing him multiple times without any fear of him whatsoever. I was constantly disappointed in the world and people ,because everything  seemed “fake” , superficial and cruel ,life just seemed like a popularity contest with winners and losers and I was losing(each and every time no matter what lol). […]