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I Will Survive

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Feeling Confident..

by BrennaBear 2/4/2014

written by BrennaBear

all my life I have been the freak, the weird one, the one nobody wanted to be friends with. people would look at me and laugh, call me ugly make me feel uselss. fat ugly weird scary whore slut emo, were only some of the names….

grade 2 was when it started. I never realy knew what it was, and I thought it was all a joke, I dident really care, cuz hey I was young. grade 4 was when it hit me, this is bullying. I never wanted to tell anyone becauseÂ I was scared it would make it worse. the names that I was called […]

2/4/2014 2 comments

by gaby 2/4/2014

written by gaby

I don’t really know where to start with all my emotions because they are very confusing even to myself. I’m 14 and I had depression when I was about 12 or so and I had suicidal thoughts every day. In that time I saw the world in this very ugly way like if there was no more innocence or beauty. I was able to get over my depression by myself (my mom didn’t believe I actually had depression and I didn’t know who else to tell) and with the love of God. After that experince I learned to look at life with great gratitude and […]

2/4/2014 1 comment

I Cannot Fall In Love Again

by k2fraser 2/4/2014

written by k2fraser

For eight years I had maintained the defenses of my mind. They protected me from the pain of existence; they allowed me function, to act, like a normal human being. And they kept me alive. I was living a lonely life, but I was content.

And then I met you. Something happened. The walls in my mind shook, shifted, and I felt a feeling I hadnâ€™t felt in a long time. A desire to get to know this person. A desire to want this person in my life.

I was scared. I had spent so long keeping my distance from people. As I got to know you […]

2/4/2014 1 comment

Seeking Help

by Mr.Try 2/3/2014

written by Mr.Try

I feel so goddamn helpless and hopeless. anxiety, paranoia, apprehension, guilt, fear and pain are my companionship, they seem to never leave my side.

As far as I can remember, the happiest time in my life was kindergarden, I was carefree and enjoyed life, when grade school started the world around me got colder, and gradually, things got worse and worse….. people, other human beings, are the root of my misery. Instead of being the popular kid in kinder garden, I started grade school and had no friends, other kids often treats me with as insignificant. I was socially isolated and had very few friends. other […]

2/3/2014 3 comments

The Pills Again???

by Krys 2/3/2014

written by Krys

I’m wanting my pills again. I know where I can get some too… I’m craving them. Badly. I obviously haven’t and won’t stop cutting. I just I don’t know. I know it’s not good but I ant them so bad.

2/3/2014 4 comments

Help me I think I’m gonna brake down

by Bloody 2/3/2014

written by Bloody

I’m supposed to be in the work where I am at practical training right now but I just couldn’t go there, I’m sitting here, crying and sobbing and I feel like I can’t breath. I think I can’t go there today but I don’t know what to say to my teacher and those people in the work, I feel ashemed of myself and I feel like Im good for nothing and I’m just i everyone’s way and causing troubles to them.

I don’t know I’m feeling that everyone thinks I’m just lazy but I really just can’t do those things that normal people can, and it […]

2/3/2014 7 comments

My first friend I know personally attempted suicide

by RogueShadow1281 2/3/2014

written by RogueShadow1281

bullies in the army. Some shitbags making fun of Abagis for being gay, he was accepted by us back at basic training. For him to slit his wrists and be chaptered out for his suicide attempts. I want to hurt those bastards for that yet i take no action against my bullies on the homefront in the army. I should just fight back full fledged (starts out with shit talking then gets physical and i punch back and they kick harder and suddenly theyre beating on me in formations. I guess i should be the one beating on them. The. It’ll be fights behind closed […]

2/3/2014 2 comments

The woes of living with my parents

by Anabanana 2/3/2014

written by Anabanana

I live a life that’s not really mine. My mother has been emotionally and physically abusing me since I was a young girl. My father left when I was only seven years old, and lives with his fancy girlfriend. He doesn’t care what happens in my life. I acheive high grades, I have friends, and I seem like a normal girl externally. Internally, I am forever suppressing an intense desire to put an end to my life. I only find comfort in dance, music, poetry, and for some strange reason, science. However, I dread every moment I spend at home with my mother. I live […]

2/3/2014 2 comments

Consuming Guilt

by EndlessWhispers 2/1/2014

written by EndlessWhispers

I found out Thursday that my cousin ended his own life. The entire community is devastated. My father and Grandfather were both close to him. I have this guilt in me that is just all consuming. All I want to do is cry. A year ago, this could have been me. If I succeeded in killing myself, I would be the cause of more pain than I could ever deal with. I should have been a better family member, a better person. Maybe I could have done something, seen the signs, and now my entire family is feeling so much pain, and al I feel […]

2/1/2014 2 comments

Bad relationships

by whitewinterhymnal 1/31/2014

written by whitewinterhymnal

It seems to be a lot easier to share things here than it is in real life, so- to mark the fact I have put on half a stone (which makes me feel quite disgusting) I really wanted to share my depression and eating disorder story. There’s definitely a lot more to it than an emotionally abusive relationship, but that’s the shortest, and easiest, explanation. I must have been about 14 when I first started going out with this guy. I was at that awkward age where I was terribly unsure about myself and hopelessly desperate for acceptance. That acceptance came in the form of […]

1/31/2014 11 comments

a good song with amazing lyrics read these lyrics and see what you are feeling

by lissbabe 1/31/2014

written by lissbabe

Every 14.2 minutes someone in the united states dies by suicide Nearly 1, 000, 000 people make a suicide attempt every year 90% of people who die by suicide had a treatable mental disorder when they died This is our message to give hope back To those who are lost in despair
Staring blank at the wall Never been so alone Why can’t they get me? Would they care if I was gone? Spinning around all alone In my head tonight Would it all be so easy? Would they ever miss me?
You can’t let them win I won’t let you give in,
You are […]

1/31/2014 2 comments

New here! These Lyrics Tell you how I feel now.

by DontReallySeeThePoint 1/29/2014

written by DontReallySeeThePoint

I remember when I was a very little girl, our house caught on fire.
I’ll never forget the look on my father’s face as he gathered me up
in his arms and raced through the burning building out to the pavement.
I stood there shivering in my pajamas and watched the whole world go up in flames.
And when it was all over I said to myself, “Is that all there is to a fire?”

Is that all there is, is that all there is
If that’s all there is my friends, then let’s keep dancing
Let’s break out the booze and have a ball
If […]

1/29/2014 1 comment

I should be dead but I am not

by toxicluminoth 1/27/2014

written by toxicluminoth

I am lost and scared and I’m no where near fixed but I am not dead.

I still think about suicide often and I remained un-medicated until a few moments ago when I popped the first pill to happy (doxepin).

I am getting therapy. Every once in a while it will give me something useful but not often. I don’t think I’ll be sticking with it in the long run. Maybe once every few months.

I may be unable to sleep due to apnea or even my sinus being closed off because of a random act of violence back in 07′. Apparently sleep deprivation is a bad thing…

I […]

1/27/2014 2 comments

I like being alone

by hellblau 1/27/2014

written by hellblau

I like being alone, I like when I have my own.

I can think enough to talk to myself,

But not enough to forget how I felt.

He still remains on my mind,

Like I can’t take him apart.

I like being alone, cause I can talk to him,

I can hear his voice on my head, telling a verse,

but somehow I forget,

How to make him go away.

27/01/14

9:23 pm

1/27/2014 0 comment

2k14

by youwouldntrealise 1/27/2014

written by youwouldntrealise

havent been on here since last year. I’ve been to hell and back

i want people to know they can email me if they need someone to talk to or advice.

naomirogers1996@yahoo.co.uk

1/27/2014 2 comments

More than one cause…

by PhantomShadow 1/26/2014

written by PhantomShadow

The deep and uncontrollable need for that pure dark silence…Â The blissfull absence of all senses…Â I want it, but I know I am not allowed…

On a good day, the suicidal thoughts used to roam my mind on and off through out the day.Â At night, while in bed, no matter what I did, my mind would wander to the topic.Â The medication has helped…a lot, but now, with the weather being so unpredictable with rain coming and going and the humidity, my body is contributing to the reasons “why not” and is pushing past the barrier so carefully constructed by the various pills I […]

1/26/2014 0 comment

Why?

by hellblau 1/24/2014

written by hellblau

I’ve been so close to almost call him or text him saying that I love him, so much. That I miss him so much. I thought that being drunk would help me to do that, cause I get more sensible, thought that would help me to do it by impulse, but not even drunk I can. I’m such a coward and I’m so fucking afraid.

1/24/2014 2 comments

Whats Underneath?

by Can-You-Hear-Me 1/24/2014

written by Can-You-Hear-Me

I feel so alone.

I know im not though, im surrounded by friends, a thing many people wish for and want.

But i feel so dead inside, I don’t feel happy underneath that grin. I act like a joking clown and don’t take many things seriously. In return, when i am serious, they don’t take regard of it and over look it as one of my jokes. I’ve tried telling them that i hurt, that im sad and pitiful and it makes me hate myself because i don’t deserve pity but, once again, they brush it off and walk away. I act like a hero when i […]

1/24/2014 4 comments

I hate it .. so much

by crazypops 1/23/2014

written by crazypops

everyday … everyday i go into college i feel so judge , that i don’t belong where i am . in my college class everyone has there friends … i do have mine to but they are all older then me by a couple of years but now its got to a point where everyone is turning on me ..i don’t know why or what i have done wrong … i was just being my self i guess . i cant tell my parents or my boyfriend .. not even my tutor , i have given up hope because no will understand, i know […]

1/23/2014 4 comments

The Failed Overdose

by The Distress 1/22/2014

written by The Distress

I’ve experimented with a lot of substances in my life. Over the course of probably like 7ish years I’ve tried Psychedelics (LSD, 2CE, DMT – my FAVORITE DRUG), Cocaine, Benzodiazepines (Klonopin, Valium, Xanax, Restoril, Ativan), Stimulants (Amphetamines, Adderall, Focalin, Methylphenidate, Vyvanse), marijuana, alcohol, and the best of the best: opiates (OxyContin, heroin, hydrocoone, oxycodone, oxymorphone, hydromorphone, morphine, methadone, suboxone, subutex, etc.) – you get the point. For the most part I’ve been responsible with drug usage. Things never got out of hand and addiction was a foreign concept to me. But when shit hit the fan a few years ago, I lost all […]

1/22/2014 5 comments

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