I did this, you can too.
She’s mearly 16.
Still fragile and afraid.
She hasn’t actually been in
the real world since 8th grade.
She’s fine
or so she says.
She’s calm for all we know,
but when the darkness goes
away, and she starts to show,
you realize, she’s living with the demon
that’s inside all of us.
She’s too afraid to show it.
Honestly, she barely even knows.
She always try to smile,
and even tries to pose.
But when someone so young,
is just sad as can be,
there’s […]
No fucking wonder I don’t have friends (according to my parents). And pretend to be depressed and tried to kill myself for attention.
I’m an 18 yr old college student so I stay home for breaks. I see my parents for like 10 minutes. First they dis my new tattoo, it’s on my ear. Which I don’t mind that they just said I look trashy. Then I warn my dad about dying my hair an orangish color. Well apparently that makes me trashy too.
So moral of the story, I don’t get a long with my parents and I’m becoming more of a freak by the day, […]
I am a 30 something male. By all metrics things should be going pretty good for me. I have been recently married, I have a good job that i like most of the time. But I still struggle with depression. I have had struggles with depression and suicidal thoughts since I was 13 or so. I’ve sought help but I’ve never really been able to find the way to help the nagging feelings.
A bit more background information. I am also on the Autism Spectrum, diagnosed with Aspergers syndrome.
I’ve just always felt that I don’t belong or fit in anywhere. I change jobs frequently hoping to […]
… because making shadow animals during projections is really cool and if I stay alive, I’m able to do this again in a week.
Why are you staying alive today?
for all those cutters out there i know this addition i know what you feel im going through the same thing and the only thing thats keeping me going is my friends and music, music is always going to be my world no matter what even if you dont have friends or people around you music will always be your true friend whatever music you listen to there will always be a place for music, it will help you and keep you going you will be able to self harm no matter what because of that additiion but music will help you a bit more […]
I’ve been awake. But asleep inside. I hate being alone, but i don’t like company. I miss you like hell. But i won’t let you know.
I’m well aware of how it aches , and you still won’t let me in.
Asleep or dead.
I used to be the one stuck on the sidelines-
but lately things have started to change
I would’ve never thought that being the way I am could make everything end up this way
this is never what I would have expected
there is nothing wrong but they still want me corrected
why can’t they just let me do what I do
I’m not hurting anyone so why are they?
how could they try and change who I’ve always been
what did i do wrong? IÂ never wanted any of this
I’m sorry if I ever offended any of them, but I am who I am,
there’s not much more that […]
i’m 25 male. no drive left to even type. don’t care enough to use grammar. have a baby girl. everything else, i don’t care. just want to sleep, not wake. tried no food water yesterday but wife started kicking me until i had food and drinks. i don’t like suicide. want to make look like accident.
i can’t feel emotion anymore except unhappiness, so no point in going on. just tired of trying. everything is boring except baby girl. should do this now before she’s old enough to remember.
don’t want to read response about don’t do it. i’m like a car that’s totaled, it’s hopeless and […]
When I attempted suicide in 2012 I spoke with a shrink before I left to an institution. Do you know what he said? He said what I do to myself would effect not only me but my loved ones as well.The reason why I thought of suicide was because I over think what others think of me. Doesn’t that suck that even before we end our lives were suppose to still care for everyone else. What do you think?
From the get go I’ve always said you had to be strong to commit suicide, I still do. I’ve attempted several times but still not to avail. Two of those times leaving me in hospital from overdosing, one of which for several days, and another time submitting me to a mental hospital for a week. I’m not proud of this, it makes me feel weak, however a part of me, and it’s a very small part that is glad I made it through.
Only I have the need to hurt myself again, only I don’t know how anymore, (but I’m not asking).
I grew up without a family, […]
I dated a girl in secret during freshman year I remember she would look so sad and hurt when I would ignore her. After school she would sleep over my house and cuddle and hold me. We had the sweetest relationship I’ve ever seen or experienced. She left me though she was tired of me feeling embaressed. I damaged her self asteem without knowing. I was never embarrassed of her I was just scared of what others would say of her and me. My history of relationships weren’t the best. I want her now. I need her now. I miss her soft lips. The way […]
I don’t know how long this will be, but I tend to ramble, so I apologize in advance. I’m not actively planning any kind of suicide, so don’t worry, but I’ve been tired of this world since I was about 11 or so, and every day continues to exhaust me a little more, so I felt like maybe this would be an ok place to put this. I feel like an idiot for having to get my story out, but I’ve never really let anyone know, and I feel like it’s time to try something new. I’m not a great writer, so
Problems? What problems? I […]
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do you ever have those dreams that make you stop sleeping i have them i only 3 hours sleep because of them they haunt me, my being my soul my brain my emotions my heart my whole life, i cant do much now i cut because of them i cut because sad and depressed is there any way of getting out of this black hole or am i stuck in this hole forever is this going to my life is it going to forever or short term but i don’t know whether i want it or not i’m scared and relieved at the same time. […]
So, I posted last night about a bit of basics that’s been going on and, well, today it got worse. My mom came home from California today and when I saw her the first words out of her mouth were “you’ll never succeed, you’re not going to graduate.” Not “Hi son! Great to see you again!” I started to come out to her about my depression lately but had to stop early due to the fact she interrupted me and criticized me about thinking those things. Not to mention that built up on top of me talking to my ex today about what I’ve been […]
You can see positives in any situation ! Just try to interpret reality with good sides 🙂
hi.
I don’t know how to start this post…how to end it…I don’t even know how it can end. I could end up talking about puppies.
That was an exaggeration.
Ok um so yeah ok agh I really want to write but I don’t know how to put it into words.
Anyway, I’ve been through hell and back. It’s sickening how much I hate myself. I’ve had family problems for a while, before I developed an eating disorder, began to self harm, a bunch of shit imbetween (anxiety, OCD, etc.,) and just wanted to die. But there’s this saying that keeps me going.
Someone could have it […]
Hi Dudes and Dudettes… Tonight I feel like Sh.t, to much work, to little sex, Correction, NONE in months and well I lost my passion for surf …. I guess I’m just tired of all the crap, really bad weather, no time for fun, wife that doesn’t care Sh.t about me, being overweight, bp Sky high, Not getting Hi 😀 in a long time …. But Im not dying today … Im thinking about it … In a big wave, point break style (movie) but without Keanu (He sucks) …. Anyways Cheers I’m having a beer ….
I’m a panromantic homosexual, and my girlfriend knows I’ve suffered with self harm. She knows I still do and that it’s hard breaking the habit, and she’s there when I need to talk. Tonight I told her if I had never met her I would have left and that I probably still wouldn’t be alive today. We have a long distance relationship, and I can’t see her all the time, so I feel alone. Tonight though, we were on videochat and I told her about all of it. Her first words were ‘Oh my God’, and then she started crying. She talked to me, and […]
So I decided to be completely honest right now about my life.
one of my friends is constantly attempting to commit suicide.
my entire group of friends is into cutting and marijuana.
my parents think I’m the good one.
my teachers think Im the smart kid.
my siblings want to be like me.
but I hate myself.
I want to die.
i can’t even tell my friends who cut that I do too because they depend on me to be the stable one in our group.
the one who isn’t fucked up.
i don’t know how much longer I can take it.
i just want to drive and drive and never look back.
honestly?
i feel like shit
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