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Why Am I Even Here?

by AKidWithAName
written by AKidWithAName

It doesn’t matter. Nothing matters. Why do I even pretend at this point? Why do I try to write some bullshit on this website?

 

It used to help, but that all kind of ended when I realized no matter how much I write about my shit, I will always be a worthless pile of shit. This website doesn’t change my views on life or death. Life is still meaningless. Death is still inevitable.

 

Maybe, suicide isn’t the right choice for a lot of people. Some people have dreams, plans, aspirations.

 

Not me. My dream is to die before I reach 30 years on this shit earth.

 

I want to […]

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I Thought I Was Better, But I Actually Got Worse

by GerbzBaby
written by GerbzBaby

I can’t keep going on like this. I feel so unappreciated. I feel so lonely. I need help but no one doesn’t want to take time out of their day to help me.. All they do is worry about themselves. They care little for those like me who are suffering.. I thought I was getting better when in all actuality I’m just getting worse. I’m so sleep deprived. Working just makes everything worse. As I’m sitting here on my break all I can think about is suicide. I feel that will be the only way to release me from my suffering. I can’t […]

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Save Shatterediris

by Zetsumei
written by Zetsumei

Heh, my ex talks to me, only to tell me she wants nothing more to do with me… Sure, we’ve been in a cycle of: I feel slighted so I insult her out of anger issues stemming from who knows where then I tell her I might kill myself since I fear there is a high probability I might and then when I finally come back to my senses, we repeat the cycle all over again… Since I’m too busy making excuses to kill myself.

 

Sadly, this is affecting my feelings around Iris, as well. So, since the last time for my cycle with my ex […]

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I’m done

by potato
written by potato

Back again…

Well what else can I say really? I’m done. I’m done with this life, once again I’ve proved that I’m nothing but a burden to everybody. It might be better if I go now to be honest before my presence ends up causing even more problems for everybody.

I know that my mum will be the only person to genuinely feel upset about me but at least she won’t have to worry about me anymore in the long run. I think I’ve lived long enough, I’ve done plenty of things to last a lifetime so I don’t have too many regrets. Maybe the only big […]

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Why.

by mememachine
written by mememachine

If this ever crops up on my social media I’m sorry. It means that I’ve truly become nothing but a failure, that I’ve totally failed to keep myself alive for another day.

I’m sorry. I shouldn’t do this. My life isn’t terrible, it never really was. Compared to the thousands of suffering humans who drag themselves awake each day and somehow smile all the while, my life is great. I just,  can’t anymore. I can’t seek help, it’s too late, I failed. I couldn’t help myself, so who could.

My life started out great, my mother was a well earning nurse, I had friends, a dog, and […]

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Scared to Live, Not to Die

by FlaminJoy
written by FlaminJoy

Ever since I was a little girl, living was an issue. I’ve wanted to die since I was 8 yrs old. My mother was/is evil and doesn’t have feelings like most people do. Common traits of a Sociopath; she would have a lot of sex with a lot of people just so she could feel something… Or at least I tell myself that’s the reason why. She married my dad while she was still married and had 2 sons with someone else. My dad didn’t know, but her first husband soon found out and divorced her. My dad in turn raised my two older brothers […]

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I’m Really Sorry

by AKidWithAName
written by AKidWithAName

I don’t want to live. There is absolutely no point in it. No matter what I do, my parents will never be proud of me. I know that this is a shitty reason. It sounds shitty. It sounds like I’m over-exaggerating. It sounds like I don’t understand.

But the thing is, I do understand. My parents want the best for me, which is more than I should be able to ask for. But, I am a selfish and discontent human being. I want something to go my way. I’m not right. There’s something wrong with me. That’s probably just me trying to get attention. Ahahahahhaha […]

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I must die

by Nowhere88
written by Nowhere88

I met someone on the Internet. I got depression, and she was so kind and perfect to me. She understood me like no one else. She loved me like no one else has ever done.
We loved the same hobbies. We loved the talking. We loved each other so much.

But she had BP (Borderline Personality). And we talked for months and she wouldn’t get too close.
She had this constant feeling that I would abandon her. She said she trusted me, but only had to go slow… because those are the feelings she said she always had about everyone. That people will end up disapointing […]

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Today is it

by kamidaka
written by kamidaka

Today is August 15th, the date that I decided for my suicide.

I’m so scared, I don’t want to die. I have so many things I wanted to do. I wanted to read a couple of books and participate in a contest. I have beautiful friends and a reason to live. I got to see my reason to live today and I cried, too many emotions at the same time.

But the bullshit is greater than that, my lack of freedom, my parents that do disgusting things to me, a career I don’t care about, the lack of hope, I can’t anymore.

I don’t know if I’ll be […]

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Fed up

by Psychob1tch1989
written by Psychob1tch1989

I dont really know why i made this thing, im not sure that it will change my mind on suicide. Ive had a rough life since age 10 and im the only one to blame for that. At 10 i began being molested by a boy a couple of years older than me, i am the oldest of 7 blood siblings and have two older half siblings. I allowed this for years as long as he never bothered my siblings which obviously didnt happen and when i told my mom she just brushed it off as kids playing. Few years later at age 15 i […]

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The End

by NormalCraziness
written by NormalCraziness

It’s not often you start a document with “the end”, but that’s what this is.  My brain has long not functioned like a normal person’s brain should, in my opinion.  I’ve recognized this for many years, and while it pains me, I can’t control it.  I have lived a life of self-deprecation, doubt, and misery for a long time.  It’s not healthy for me, but it is even more unhealthy for my wife and kids, who deserve a better and more positive role model and leader.

As I write this, I am racking my demented brain for answers and/or reasons why I am the way I […]

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This is how it ends…..

by whenallthestarsfall
written by whenallthestarsfall

I find myself running in circles more often than not.  I find myself giving myself away, again and again and again….always to the wrong people.  I find I care too much because I am always trying to live for someone else.  I find myself alone, even when, I am in a room full of people.

There is no action that I can make that will equal an opposite reaction; for all my actions only end up one way….heartbreak.  

I’ve given all I can, I have tried all I dare to try any longer.  I am not wanted, I am not loved, I am a human that […]

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I’m not going far

by Rory959
written by Rory959

 

Dearest Friends and Family,

 

First let me tell you that I love you, and it is this love that has kept me here for the time that I have been alive. It is not because I have lost my way, or that I no longer respect and appreciate all the things you have ever done for me. I end my life today because I have reached the end of the road. Why continue when there are no maps, no signs and no one to walk with me along the way? I don’t expect you to understand this, nor do I want you to try and answer […]

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Goodbye world..

by stardust8888
written by stardust8888

To those concerned

This will  come as a shock to everyone but at the same time it should answer your questions why I acted in certain way recently. Please know that this is not an action of impulse,it was  planned out. You probably will never understand my  decision,but FWIW, I think I owe an explanation.

The truth is, I resented myself too much to continue. The hatred towards myself has gotten to a point where it’s no longer tolerable. I’m a big narcissistic, compulsively lying, hypocritical sociopath that hates people in general. I deserve to be miserable. But you don’t see any of these, because I’m a good actor. I can’t […]

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I’m DONE!

by disgusting
written by disgusting

I figured a way out. I can’t even articulate everything right now. I can’t even share a meme on facebook without him going off on his bullshit that he’s the only person no one wants, only he can’t get a date, only he gets rejected at every turn, only he feels the pain! So you know what!? I’m not on this earth to be shit on! I’m sick of being told that I don’t have feelings, that I don’t feel pain, and I’m an absolute nobody that doesn’t count! And he doesn’t get it at all!! He thinks I’m fine because “I’m stronger than I […]

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Hey all.

by TheMoveAlong
written by TheMoveAlong

So this is my first post here. Let’s take a moment of silence for my mental health, because it’s clearly not great right now.

It’s been poor for a while, actually. Here’s some context, draw what conclusions you wish- 25 years old, three time university drop out, addict, alcoholic, factory worker, closeted gay man, iq of 154.

Anyway, back to aforementioned poor mental health. My homeostatic mental health is typically not great. But recently, I relapsed. While at work. And got caught. So now I’ve lost a very high paying job, for relapsing. Another achievement to add to my list. My life is mostly comprised of failures, […]

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My death

by Jessifaith
written by Jessifaith

So I don’t really know how to start this, but I’ve traveled super far from home to find ******** to end it all. The ******** was a b*tch to find let me tell you. No one really knows where I am, or what I’m doing, so this is my suicide note in a sense. Life didn’t turn out for me, which I’m sure I’m not alone here, and my death is all I look forward to. I’m curious as to what death is like, and what will happen to me. To end, your not alone in your feelings of depression and wishes of […]

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This is where my life ends, Tonight

by Sach77
written by Sach77

I’ve been on this site for a awhile now, but I just created an account and I guess this is where I’ll send my goodbyes to the world…

The past three days I was supposed to commit suicide. It ended up not happening, it almost did last night but my boyfriend ended up just talking to me like usual and I felt guilty for going to leave and have our last conversation be so boring. the two days before that I had set every detail in place, I’ve cleaned my room to the T and printed out all my suicide letters. I finished a lot of […]

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Finally I’m ready!

by readytobedone
written by readytobedone

Oka, so after about 10yrs of struggling with this I decided I’m going through with it. I’ve wrote my letter for my loved ones and I’m actually going to discuss my decision with them before hand. My mom knows I’ve struggled with this for a while, but my dad (who lives in another country) will be something else… I’m hoping this method of suicide works, bcus I fear any health  repercussions. I don’t intend on taking a lot of sleeping pills, just enough to get me groggy, sleepy and keep me from trying to get some air from drowning. This is a decision I am […]

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