Poetry & Art

there is a young girl i once knew.  she seems like a distant memory now, falling between the cracks of my mind every time i try to grasp onto her, but i am very certain i know her. i cannot remember who she is, but sometimes a fleeting image of her passes through my head and my bones are wrecked with this strange feeling, unlike anything i’ve ever felt before. it is a sort of yearning, a maternal longing to reach out to stroke her soft skin, to press my ear against her chest and listen to her fragile heartbeat, or to wrap her up […]

2am and I’m singing in the shadows
all the lights turned down and my eyes closed
searching for the right words to describe this
but nobody ever listens to the dark

5am I’m waking up and letting go
of all I loved and of all that I’ll never know
I hate my life cause I’m living at an all time low
if breathing’s meant for living, my lungs are in my throat

hide under the covers, crying to myself
so my roommate doesn’t hear my hurting mental health
shove my head into the pillows, life’s a lie no doubt
but f- it if i’ll do it again […]

Alone, forgotten, and welcoming the end knowing all that’s waiting is silence, peace, and the sadness of wondering if you could have lived better.

yet the sad, lost, and coward you want nothing but the answer that can make you what you are not, and what you fought to not be. where you brave enough? have you done enough? are you allowed to rest? you hoped someone else would answer.

but there was no one. of course there as no one, death was always but a transition. And the questions you ask could never have been answered by anyone but yourself in […]

How could you
how could you?
You’ve known me all my life
You watched me grow up
how could you
You disgust me
I can’t stand your face
All the memories we shared are tainted
You never cared
I’m Disgusted by the lies that you painted
The minute I wasn’t what you made me to be
I was nothing
And you toss me to the curb like trash
Did any of it ever mean anything to you?
All the respect all the bowing in begging and pleading
I knew what I was in […]

Did something happen?
This innocent question I hear
Was it something I said?
What did I do?
Could you somehow see the invisible tears?

It’s been rough, I will say
This hasn’t been my year.
No, it wasn’t you.
Why, do you ask?
I can’t tell my story for my fear

You can trust me
Your secrets safe, I swear.
Tell me your story
I will listen
I will show you that I care

OK OK I shall bear my soul
Maybe you should take a seat
The story leads to darkness
Somewhere past the pain […]