For your poems.
Vincent Willem van Gogh – July 29, 1890
https://www.vincentvangogh.org
http://www.vggallery.com/painting/p_0612.htm
http://www.vggallery.com/painting/p_0779.htm
yo.
i wrote a song and it’s really fucking trash but imma show you the lyrics anyway cuz i wanna know what you guys think.
ahem.
1: ask me if i’m okay, tell you that i’d rather die. i don’t know what to say, i cry every other night.
C: serial killers and freaks of the night, we don’t die x2
2: When i look at you my heart sinks and i cannot breathe. i wish everyday that i look at you look at me.
C: serial killers and freaks of the night, we don’t die x2
3: cry like a cannibal, you make me lose my mind. laugh like a lunatic, fly in […]
My life is darkening
My heart is hardening
My mind shut, am I insane?
I make a cut to numb the pain.
I watch my blood bead down my arms
Scars are my protective charms
They ward me from the evil
Of this world, evil so deceitful
Friends become lethal
To me they act so gleeful
To their real friends, just so evil
Say things that I cannot hear
Then one day they disappear
They were a puppeteer
And I their new toy
A solid hunk of plastic to bring them joy
Do and say all they wanted
I just needed to be wanted.
If hating me makes you hate yourself a little less, I’ll do that for you…
I’ve long since outlived my welcome and my usefulness.
Precious little goodness have I contributed to this world; nothing to my own credit do I leave behind. Nobody here depends on me, all will be relieved when I’m gone.
I’ve nothing left in this cold, desolate place to hold me here.
I’ve lost it all. There’s nothing left now for me to lose, anymore.
There’s just nothing left. C ‘est la vie.
My Poetry (WanderingDreamer91)
A. Untitled (Night)
(Old: 2006-2010 (14-19); High School Teen on GaiaOnline)
The full moon at night,
what a beautiful sight,
the stars dance in twilight,
piercing the darkness with all it’s might.
B. Dirge/Requiem
(August 13, 2017 (Sunday) (26); Facebook/My Puns-Rhymes Computer Document)
(Note: I guess I didn’t have a poetry document or didn’t feel like using one for some reason, I don’t know, I found this again by chance. :p I was even wondering about sharing some, but meh…)
Topic: A dirge/requiem poem I created
(Light)
(A parting for loved ones and animals)
Now your time has come to pass,
but alas,
our memories of you shall not be crass,
so lay […]
Outside of myself. The woman everyone see’s just like everyone else, is carefully crafted. I am strong enough sometimes to smile and make jokes to my colleagues and sort out the chaos on my 3 Monitors to successfully complete a days work. I have pain beyond my threshold leeching on my spine and chest. I contain them until the weekend when I can perform my mental surgeries.
When the wounds mastisize and become larger than my ability to contain them I am frozen. I am powerless. I look at my 3 Monitors and watch the inbox rise watch the Skype pings sting watch that there is […]
Lyrics:
Lonely people from lonely cities
Inside the lonely seashell of the world
On the lonely snow, there is a trace
The lonely me welcomes all of you here
This pale circle is my face
The one with a bloody stain – that’s you
You’re a girl, so your lips
Are the colour of blood
– – –
The light of eyes will go out
When the dawn comes
The world behind the window will crouch
On the windowsill, like a grey bird
Don’t talk, embrace me
Make the time stop, change everything
Let oblivion like twilight
Drown us again
A mist of vodka around our heads
Is creeping like a ghost
How evil, how empty
This whole whole world is
Don’t talk, embrace me
A […]
Erased (Isle of Solitude)
(Anime/Manga)
“I want to go to an island that has no pain or sadness.”
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X-1Qhd87tdo
(Length: 1m, 5s)
Sorry for being one big otaku, talking a lot about anime and games and stuff. ^^; But it’s all still sort of relevant, as their pretty dark and sad… Plus one user (Agnostic Angel I think) was talking about Celeste and put the “Fun and Interesting” tag to it, so I thought I would to. :p
Who knows, maybe you’ll find all the things I share like a hurt/comfort […]
Sometimes I just feel down and sometimes I feel as if im being held down by something so big I cant breathe It casts a shadow over me I cant quite tell how big but its big enough to cover my mind its so dark I struggle to smile people think they know but there just as lost as me they offer advice but it passes by my head like a breeze not a small breeze its like the breathe of the shadow it inhales and I feel blank then it exhales and still nothing happens im at a stand still but I don’t know […]
Opps…. I published that early…. damn enter key not being tab, I’m really tired in general…. Really tired of life…. I did finally find a job, it doesn’t make me feel like a person, I no longer can see my counselor either…. I only wanted a part time job but I’m being forced to work 40 hour weeks eventhough I was hired as a part time person…. But I found time to write this garbage thingy, I wanted to share it…. It feels nice to do this…. I’ve mostly been lurking here as of late :/
What is life worth when we can’t even dream?
Feeling like […]
dear anonymousie
there you go
ruining everything again
without even trying to
how pathetic are you?
you want to die,
and it’s so rightfully justified
because you’re mediocre at best
no matter how hard you try
you could eat healthier
exercise more
erase your past
you could do everything he wants
but who says that will make love last?
you’ve made mistakes
many terrible
some preventable
most were accidental
you can try blaming it on
being a millennial
but not all of us
are fuck ups like you
“consistency is key”
the only thing you’re consistent at
is ruining everything for me
you’re the one that won’t let you be happy
you know […]
Even though we cant talk to each other directly here. I feel safe here. I feel in the silence, a comradery.
I love reading the stuggles the goodbyes because i can relate so much to these entries and i just have nothing but love for you.
Even if you are a judge of me, i can relate and I’m grateful. Whatever comes… I’m just grateful for this silent hive where our honey is our words about our bloody battles of life, death, trauma, pain more than anyone else in the real world could ever handle. We can speak it here in complete truth and honesty without fear.
I’m […]
Introduction
Here’s a poem I made on Facebook on June 1st, when I really needed to vent. :p
(It’s a bit dark and sadomasochistic, instead of just plain masochistic, I hope that’s okay…)
Not that anyone cares, most people just ghost me…
People usually ignore me or hate me, I’m not sure if anyone is at fault when people leave me or don’t want to talk to me and I’m not sure if I should even care…
I just want to be myself… people are too different from me…
I […]
Wouldn’t it be better if everyone of us could live in his/her own unique madness?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F7YEVP4r2ok
Lyrics:
Leave the madman in his madness
And don’t try to bring him to his senses
You don’t know what is hidden
Inside the mind of a madman
–
He might find in his madness
Everything he has desired
And wasn’t able
To see and to obtain
–
Leave the madman in his madness
Leave him in his dream
He’s been sick and tired of this world
And he created one of his own
i feel so invisible lately
its painful, almost
how people can see me
and yet not see me
i feel like a ghost
or a dream
or some other overplayed metaphor
that people use
when really what they mean
is that no one gives a shit
about them at all
and it hurts like hell
because i know its my fault
but i dont know how
to fix it
am i even real?
am i even here?
if people look through
but not at you,
if they talk near
but not to you,
do you even really exist?
do i?