Hi. I’m only 12 and I think about suicide. Please help. My family hates me and will hurt me physically and mentally.
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So I’m gonna get this shit of my chest. I’m insane. I know that now. I’m so close to killing myself. My family are the root of all my insanity. They fought when I was younger and now I have to pay the price. I’ve become Bi-polar, depressed, suicidal and many more things. First off my Mother. She can be a great mom sometimes and I do love her but she is an idiot most of the time. My Brother is horrible. He is 18 and still living with our parents and doesn’t have a job or go to collage. He treats my mom like […]
When I feel like shit I listen to my special playlists about getting better. Please listen to them thet realy help.
*Giving up the gun
*Tomorrow will be kinder
*Concrete Angel
*Elenor Rigby
*Invisble
*How to save a life
*Warrior
*It’s Amazing
*Bluebird
*The day nobody dies
*Same love
*Battle Scars
*Brave
You know that character from movie or story that always make a mistakes and screwed up even at a simplest task? I’ve become that person. I don’t know why but I feel whatever choice I make or anything I do always end up wrong.
Is there any connection between my stupidity and my (self diagnosed, I haven’t go to psychologist) Bipolar Disorder?
This whole ordeal makes me think that I don’t belong here and it feels bad, that I think if I were gone, everything would be so much better without me.
I can still remember the day when I almost tried to kill myself.
Although it is not particularly hard to remember, based on the fact that I am reminded everyday by the pills in the medicine cabinet.
It was late in the day, most of my family decided to go out somewhere. I stayed home as usual, my mom was in her room watching TV, we ended up being the only two in the house at the time. I had already gotten the pills, in fact they were sitting on my beside table, I wasn’t doing anything but staring at them. Thinking. About everything. Friends, family, people I […]
Hey everyone! I’m 16 years old, and have struggled with clinical depression, anxiety, and self harm for quite a while. I turned to drugs and started heavily using in order to cover up the pain in my life. I was stuck in an abusive relationship that I kept trying to make work, but never succeeded. My life got so bad, that every day and every night would be spent crying and self harming. It relieved that pain for just a little while, but of course it didn’t last for long. A little over a month ago, I couldn’t take the pain of my life anymore […]
Sunday night I took a walk along a bridge that I like to call Bridge Four in the city of Louisville, which I unfortunately live in. It was dark, cold, snowy, icy, and windy. I was talking along and spotted a kid up along the rail of this bridge: he was peering out into the distance, just watching the dark water below as the currents passed. As I approached closer, thinking that I would just walk by, he spotted me and asked me if I had a cigarette. Now I don’t usually smoke but once a week at the most, but as it would be […]
Check out this AMAZING youth suicide clip…I wrote it because I wanted to die, in fact I tried to take my life, but things didn’t quite work out that way…Check this out, share it and potentially help save someones life!
i just want to be someones special person, i just want to be irreplacable to somebody. I want to be with someone who i would know that if i were gone i would b missed and that there life would never be the same without me, someone who at every waking moment i could tell myself that my life means the world to them I wish i was special
I hope that this story helps those in need, and if so it will mean so much to me!
I grew up my whole life with divorced parents from the age of 1. I had a everlasting struggle of going back and forth from parent to parent. All my life they disliked one another and would always fight. I’ve always had a close relationship with my mom. She had custody over me and my first memories were with her and Joe (who would soon become my step dad at the age of 3). I always had a hard time with my dad at times through the […]
I’m  from the middle east. Female, ex-muslim, the worst combination in the worst place. Anyway, I’m not doing so well socially too.
There’s a big community of atheists on Facebook which I joined, and even there I just couldn’t express myself or get involved with them.
I just don’t belong anywhere. I lived as an expat in another country here in the region, and kept moving all the time so never had the chance to make friends, or fit in a stereotype which people would accept. I’m just an awful mix of everything I’ve seen or heard.
I’ve been through alot of shit, just like everyone else, Â obviously. […]
i have been friends with my friend (who we will call clair) for 7 years and friends with my other friend (who we will calldave) for jus about 1yr now clair and dave have started dating but clairs 20 (21 soon) and dave 15 (jus turned a month ago) and are dating the whole situation is makin me sick even wen i hear other people talki about it . i seem to b the only one hu dis situation disgusts. im acc considering not speaking to either of dem again. so i wanna ask you guys a few questions and i know if dave […]
She’s mearly 16.
Still fragile and afraid.
She hasn’t actually been in
the real world since 8th grade.
She’s fine
or so she says.
She’s calm for all we know,
but when the darkness goes
away, and she starts to show,
you realize, she’s living with the demon
that’s inside all of us.
She’s too afraid to show it.
Honestly, she barely even knows.
She always try to smile,
and even tries to pose.
But when someone so young,
is just sad as can be,
there’s […]
I am a 30 something male. By all metrics things should be going pretty good for me. I have been recently married, I have a good job that i like most of the time. But I still struggle with depression. I have had struggles with depression and suicidal thoughts since I was 13 or so. I’ve sought help but I’ve never really been able to find the way to help the nagging feelings.
A bit more background information. I am also on the Autism Spectrum, diagnosed with Aspergers syndrome.
I’ve just always felt that I don’t belong or fit in anywhere. I change jobs frequently hoping to […]
for all those cutters out there i know this addition i know what you feel im going through the same thing and the only thing thats keeping me going is my friends and music, music is always going to be my world no matter what even if you dont have friends or people around you music will always be your true friend whatever music you listen to there will always be a place for music, it will help you and keep you going you will be able to self harm no matter what because of that additiion but music will help you a bit more […]
I’ve been awake. But asleep inside. I hate being alone, but i don’t like company. I miss you like hell. But i won’t let you know.
I’m well aware of how it aches , and you still won’t let me in.
Asleep or dead.
I used to be the one stuck on the sidelines-
but lately things have started to change
I would’ve never thought that being the way I am could make everything end up this way
this is never what I would have expected
there is nothing wrong but they still want me corrected
why can’t they just let me do what I do
I’m not hurting anyone so why are they?
how could they try and change who I’ve always been
what did i do wrong? IÂ never wanted any of this
I’m sorry if I ever offended any of them, but I am who I am,
there’s not much more that […]
i’m 25 male. no drive left to even type. don’t care enough to use grammar. have a baby girl. everything else, i don’t care. just want to sleep, not wake. tried no food water yesterday but wife started kicking me until i had food and drinks. i don’t like suicide. want to make look like accident.
i can’t feel emotion anymore except unhappiness, so no point in going on. just tired of trying. everything is boring except baby girl. should do this now before she’s old enough to remember.
don’t want to read response about don’t do it. i’m like a car that’s totaled, it’s hopeless and […]
Yesterday I had my evalution, about what I think if this therapy (MDFT) and how I’m doing. To make a lobg story short: everything is much more clear for me (NOT). I don’t know if I’m going to stop the MDFT right now, I don’t know if we’ll finish the MDFT later. The only thing I know is that they want that I get EMDR for my trauma, because they realized I do have a trauma. (Noo, are you serious? I didn’t knew that already! I’ve told you months ago!) But I don’t know where or when I’ll start with EMDR. Somewhere I really hope […]
“This world you seem to live in is not home to you. And somewhere in your mind you know that this is true. A memory of home keeps haunting you, as if there were a place that called you to return, although you do not recognize the voice, nor what it is the voice reminds you of. Yet still you feel an alien here, from somewhere all unknown. Nothing so definite that you could say with certainty you are an exile here. Just a persistent feeling, sometimes not more than a tiny throb, at other times hardly remembered, actively dismissed, but surely to return to […]