When I attempted suicide in 2012 I spoke with a shrink before I left to an institution. Do you know what he said? He said what I do to myself would effect not only me but my loved ones as well.The reason why I thought of suicide was because I over think what others think of me. Doesn’t that suck that even before we end our lives were suppose to still care for everyone else. What do you think?
I dated a girl in secret during freshman year I remember she would look so sad and hurt when I would ignore her. After school she would sleep over my house and cuddle and hold me. We had the sweetest relationship I’ve ever seen or experienced. She left me though she was tired of me feeling embaressed. I damaged her self asteem without knowing. I was never embarrassed of her I was just scared of what others would say of her and me. My history of relationships weren’t the best. I want her now. I need her now. I miss her soft lips. The way […]
So, I posted last night about a bit of basics that’s been going on and, well, today it got worse. My mom came home from California today and when I saw her the first words out of her mouth were “you’ll never succeed, you’re not going to graduate.” Not “Hi son! Great to see you again!” I started to come out to her about my depression lately but had to stop early due to the fact she interrupted me and criticized me about thinking those things. Not to mention that built up on top of me talking to my ex today about what I’ve been […]
i am 32 and intelligent and have accomplished allot ,i am very happy i exercise regularly and take natural vitamins and minerals and iodine, i fix and install ac/furnaces and make pretty good money, i got a great family which i love, im decent looking and got a descent size wang , i haven’t felt better in my whole life. i am mentally physically emotionally and spiritually improving always and right now i am at my A game, i should want to live right? i think if you want to die because sadness or personal events or something petty ,i think that’s crap, time mostly heals […]
I’ve never talked about my feelings about suicide to anyone, but, I think I should start now because I don’t know where to turn. I’ve gone through a shit of things in the past few months with the passing of most of my grandparents and other relatives. All within days apart, then there’s my parents going through their nasty divorce and all this other shit.. I just need some sort of guidance.. I’m 17 and had a big plan for my future but right now, that plan will never come true. I’m fucking up in school and I don’t know if its because i’m lazy […]
I’m a panromantic homosexual, and my girlfriend knows I’ve suffered with self harm. She knows I still do and that it’s hard breaking the habit, and she’s there when I need to talk. Tonight I told her if I had never met her I would have left and that I probably still wouldn’t be alive today. We have a long distance relationship, and I can’t see her all the time, so I feel alone. Tonight though, we were on videochat and I told her about all of it. Her first words were ‘Oh my God’, and then she started crying. She talked to me, and […]
…in that time, at that moment and in every time and every moment of the future, you truly believe you cannot and will not be able to cope, that it’s all too much and nothing will ever be right and it’s not like it’s ever going to end well anyway so why not just quit now? It makes so much sense to simply put an end to a life that is nothing but painful when it feels like it will never be anything else.
And the people who try to prevent the suicide of others will often say things like “what about your family/friends/loved ones?” and […]
Hey there 🙂
My name is Sara Johnson.
I just came to say, as a regular of this site, I’m in a really good mood, despite the shit I’m going through right now. I do have issues, but that’s not important. I want to talk about you. I know I don’t know you. Hell, you don’t even know me. But I think you’re beautiful. Not on the outside. Fuck that shit. Do whatever YOU think makes YOU beautiful on the outside. But I think you’re beautiful […]
One shot, that is all I needed when I bought this gun. This time it was real. I didn’t think about taking it too far. This was for me, to end my pain and misery. It was 1996, the year that I hit rock bottom and there was no drugs or alcohol involved. It was severe depression. It was that year as it’s said “the love of my life†and I broke up. But the worst was yet to come. My Grandfather was dying. A man who showed me things in life that never would have been possible for me to learn since my father […]
Please allow me to write some Words in German – because thats the only way I am sure, I can express myself in the most accurat way possible:
Egal wie alleine und einsam ich mir vorkomme. Wenn ich hier einige Gedanken von anderen Menschen lese, dann begreife ich, dass viele in ähnlicher Art und Weise leiden und das gleiche denken. Damit sind wir wenigstens gemeinsam einsam.
Es macht mich sehr traurig, dass es so viel Leid auf der Welt gibt. Leid ist eine subjektive Empfindung, so ist bereits auf Wikipedia zu lesen. Dennoch gibt es Arschlöcher, genannt “Freunde und Familie”, die einem sagen “Kopf hoch.” , “Leben […]
I am thankful for my misery when it is consistent, because I already do not feel I deserve what I have, and can only see my life getting worse.
I havent posted for a while and i thought i should start again. so I broke up with my boyfriend and I started self harming again. I stopped eating and cried a lot. One of my mates who I loved asked me out 3 weeks later. That was about a week ago. But I feel like I still have feelings for my ex which is hard because I really badly love my new bf. The stress and emotions are starting to take over me physically and mentally. During this week alone I have punched 2 students, threatened a teacher, punched the walls of the […]
I was assigned a short writing piece to describe an event in my life that made me who I am today. This story is true, and while it ends on a hopeful note, this doesn’t mean that I still don’t have apathetic feelings, it’s just that now I have a way of dealing with them. I found this site as I was typing in questions into google, hoping beyond hope that I’d find something worthwhile. I did. An online community of people that are all struggling. I hope you enjoy this and forget your troubles if for just a short while.
I’ve found that life […]
this may seem really weird, but im actually really excited to die. im counting down the seconds until i will have gone 10 days with out food or water. the only thing that i am kind of feeling iffy about is the fact that im goin to die fat. that really pisses me off big time. i dont know why, but i just really really want to die, it has become a lust, a desire, and an obsession.
I will write to you this faithful poem, hope and peace are many things so far.
Loving, caring, praying, are the thing joyful in many ways. I see your face telling me these things, so I’ll try to do my best.
When I walk into this room, you are the one who I see, whom seems to smile, even with all the troubles running wild.
Hark the sound of angels singing, hark the sound of God! For he is always there for you and me so shall we sing, so peacefully.
I walked towards you too, seeing your face reminds me of so many thing, the hope you gave […]
Note: This is my personal experience and I tried to explain everything I could, I could explain better but I’m not a writer,I’ll write whatever comes in my mind and sorry for the English grammar mistakes 🙂 So, let me show you how to die without pain, it works 100% and I know it is going to be a long article (may be) but it worth reading. 🙂 I’m not here to waste your time or make you feel bad, I want to show you, […]
I’m not afraid of being laughed at. I just think that, even if I do my best now, I still may not be able to reach my goal. No… I know the chance of success is way too low. Knowing that, why would I even try?! Why don’t I just living my life like this ’till the end?
Hello, there. I know life has become so bad, but we can be together forever. No one cared about you but I’ll care for you. You’ve gone into a deep depression and I can help you to get out of your depression and I can make your life happy 🙂
I need a girl’s friendship. I’m just a normal boy looking for someone special in my life! I don’t know if I can find someone to talk to. Even if My life was perfect it was like mess for me, I was depressed too but I learned to getup and change my life. My life is […]
No one sees me falling
No one sees me dying
No one sees me crying.
Not even the rain.
I’m tired, overwhelmed, uninspired, afraid, hurting, uninspired and I don’t know how to get past it. I might not even know what it is I’m trying to get past. I try something new only to spin my wheels. I’m living my life on repeat, with the same worn out patterns and themes playing again and again.