i just want to be someones special person, i just want to be irreplacable to somebody. I want to be with someone who i would know that if i were gone i would b missed and that there life would never be the same without me, someone who at every waking moment i could tell myself that my life means the world to them I wish i was special
Stories of Hope
I hope that this story helps those in need, and if so it will mean so much to me!
I grew up my whole life with divorced parents from the age of 1. I had a everlasting struggle of going back and forth from parent to parent. All my life they disliked one another and would always fight. I’ve always had a close relationship with my mom. She had custody over me and my first memories were with her and Joe (who would soon become my step dad at the age of 3). I always had a hard time with my dad at times through the […]
I’m  from the middle east. Female, ex-muslim, the worst combination in the worst place. Anyway, I’m not doing so well socially too.
There’s a big community of atheists on Facebook which I joined, and even there I just couldn’t express myself or get involved with them.
I just don’t belong anywhere. I lived as an expat in another country here in the region, and kept moving all the time so never had the chance to make friends, or fit in a stereotype which people would accept. I’m just an awful mix of everything I’ve seen or heard.
I’ve been through alot of shit, just like everyone else, Â obviously. […]
i have been friends with my friend (who we will call clair) for 7 years and friends with my other friend (who we will calldave) for jus about 1yr now clair and dave have started dating but clairs 20 (21 soon) and dave 15 (jus turned a month ago) and are dating the whole situation is makin me sick even wen i hear other people talki about it . i seem to b the only one hu dis situation disgusts. im acc considering not speaking to either of dem again. so i wanna ask you guys a few questions and i know if dave […]
She’s mearly 16.
Still fragile and afraid.
She hasn’t actually been in
the real world since 8th grade.
She’s fine
or so she says.
She’s calm for all we know,
but when the darkness goes
away, and she starts to show,
you realize, she’s living with the demon
that’s inside all of us.
She’s too afraid to show it.
Honestly, she barely even knows.
She always try to smile,
and even tries to pose.
But when someone so young,
is just sad as can be,
there’s […]
I am a 30 something male. By all metrics things should be going pretty good for me. I have been recently married, I have a good job that i like most of the time. But I still struggle with depression. I have had struggles with depression and suicidal thoughts since I was 13 or so. I’ve sought help but I’ve never really been able to find the way to help the nagging feelings.
A bit more background information. I am also on the Autism Spectrum, diagnosed with Aspergers syndrome.
I’ve just always felt that I don’t belong or fit in anywhere. I change jobs frequently hoping to […]
for all those cutters out there i know this addition i know what you feel im going through the same thing and the only thing thats keeping me going is my friends and music, music is always going to be my world no matter what even if you dont have friends or people around you music will always be your true friend whatever music you listen to there will always be a place for music, it will help you and keep you going you will be able to self harm no matter what because of that additiion but music will help you a bit more […]
I’ve been awake. But asleep inside. I hate being alone, but i don’t like company. I miss you like hell. But i won’t let you know.
I’m well aware of how it aches , and you still won’t let me in.
Asleep or dead.
I used to be the one stuck on the sidelines-
but lately things have started to change
I would’ve never thought that being the way I am could make everything end up this way
this is never what I would have expected
there is nothing wrong but they still want me corrected
why can’t they just let me do what I do
I’m not hurting anyone so why are they?
how could they try and change who I’ve always been
what did i do wrong? IÂ never wanted any of this
I’m sorry if I ever offended any of them, but I am who I am,
there’s not much more that […]
i’m 25 male. no drive left to even type. don’t care enough to use grammar. have a baby girl. everything else, i don’t care. just want to sleep, not wake. tried no food water yesterday but wife started kicking me until i had food and drinks. i don’t like suicide. want to make look like accident.
i can’t feel emotion anymore except unhappiness, so no point in going on. just tired of trying. everything is boring except baby girl. should do this now before she’s old enough to remember.
don’t want to read response about don’t do it. i’m like a car that’s totaled, it’s hopeless and […]
Yesterday I had my evalution, about what I think if this therapy (MDFT) and how I’m doing. To make a lobg story short: everything is much more clear for me (NOT). I don’t know if I’m going to stop the MDFT right now, I don’t know if we’ll finish the MDFT later. The only thing I know is that they want that I get EMDR for my trauma, because they realized I do have a trauma. (Noo, are you serious? I didn’t knew that already! I’ve told you months ago!) But I don’t know where or when I’ll start with EMDR. Somewhere I really hope […]
“This world you seem to live in is not home to you. And somewhere in your mind you know that this is true. A memory of home keeps haunting you, as if there were a place that called you to return, although you do not recognize the voice, nor what it is the voice reminds you of. Yet still you feel an alien here, from somewhere all unknown. Nothing so definite that you could say with certainty you are an exile here. Just a persistent feeling, sometimes not more than a tiny throb, at other times hardly remembered, actively dismissed, but surely to return to […]
When I attempted suicide in 2012 I spoke with a shrink before I left to an institution. Do you know what he said? He said what I do to myself would effect not only me but my loved ones as well.The reason why I thought of suicide was because I over think what others think of me. Doesn’t that suck that even before we end our lives were suppose to still care for everyone else. What do you think?
I dated a girl in secret during freshman year I remember she would look so sad and hurt when I would ignore her. After school she would sleep over my house and cuddle and hold me. We had the sweetest relationship I’ve ever seen or experienced. She left me though she was tired of me feeling embaressed. I damaged her self asteem without knowing. I was never embarrassed of her I was just scared of what others would say of her and me. My history of relationships weren’t the best. I want her now. I need her now. I miss her soft lips. The way […]
So, I posted last night about a bit of basics that’s been going on and, well, today it got worse. My mom came home from California today and when I saw her the first words out of her mouth were “you’ll never succeed, you’re not going to graduate.” Not “Hi son! Great to see you again!” I started to come out to her about my depression lately but had to stop early due to the fact she interrupted me and criticized me about thinking those things. Not to mention that built up on top of me talking to my ex today about what I’ve been […]
i am 32 and intelligent and have accomplished allot ,i am very happy i exercise regularly and take natural vitamins and minerals and iodine, i fix and install ac/furnaces and make pretty good money, i got a great family which i love, im decent looking and got a descent size wang , i haven’t felt better in my whole life. i am mentally physically emotionally and spiritually improving always and right now i am at my A game, i should want to live right? i think if you want to die because sadness or personal events or something petty ,i think that’s crap, time mostly heals […]
I’ve never talked about my feelings about suicide to anyone, but, I think I should start now because I don’t know where to turn. I’ve gone through a shit of things in the past few months with the passing of most of my grandparents and other relatives. All within days apart, then there’s my parents going through their nasty divorce and all this other shit.. I just need some sort of guidance.. I’m 17 and had a big plan for my future but right now, that plan will never come true. I’m fucking up in school and I don’t know if its because i’m lazy […]
I’m a panromantic homosexual, and my girlfriend knows I’ve suffered with self harm. She knows I still do and that it’s hard breaking the habit, and she’s there when I need to talk. Tonight I told her if I had never met her I would have left and that I probably still wouldn’t be alive today. We have a long distance relationship, and I can’t see her all the time, so I feel alone. Tonight though, we were on videochat and I told her about all of it. Her first words were ‘Oh my God’, and then she started crying. She talked to me, and […]
…in that time, at that moment and in every time and every moment of the future, you truly believe you cannot and will not be able to cope, that it’s all too much and nothing will ever be right and it’s not like it’s ever going to end well anyway so why not just quit now? It makes so much sense to simply put an end to a life that is nothing but painful when it feels like it will never be anything else.
And the people who try to prevent the suicide of others will often say things like “what about your family/friends/loved ones?” and […]
Hey there 🙂
My name is Sara Johnson.
I just came to say, as a regular of this site, I’m in a really good mood, despite the shit I’m going through right now. I do have issues, but that’s not important. I want to talk about you. I know I don’t know you. Hell, you don’t even know me. But I think you’re beautiful. Not on the outside. Fuck that shit. Do whatever YOU think makes YOU beautiful on the outside. But I think you’re beautiful […]