I live in Cincinnati. It is a small town where everybody knows and talks about everybody. I know something is wrong with me on the inside and Im afraid to seek help. I don’t want people thinking Im crazy and weak because I have a mental illness. I dont know for sure whats wrong but something is. I have symptoms like indecisiveness, It takes a great amount of energy and convincing myself to do simple things like cleaning and mowing the lawn, Ive been antisocial for the past year and lost all of my friends and greatly damaged family relationships, Ive planned and acquired the […]
This is a short story I wrote today. It’s a story of loss, learning, and recovery.
Somewhere, in an unknown area, there was a place that lay deep within the depths of a forest. It was called the haven. Surrounding it was an abundance of pink blossoms and lilies that were as white as snow. The grass that nurtured them was bright green and lightly blowing as the comforting breeze gave life to the area. Not once had humans touched it, for no person had ever discovered a place as beautiful and vivid as this. It was much too far away for even the best explorers […]
I’m sorry. I’m so, so sorry.
I’m sorry for all the time’s you’ve cut. I’m sorry for all the pain you’ve felt. I’m sorry for all that’s ever happened to you.
What would I know about pain, about anything? I’m only 13. Just a girl who has no idea what life is. But then I accidentally got onto this website, and I read.
I read from 8 pm to 4 am, all the suffering and loss and bullying. I’m young, and innocent, but that innocence is now mixed with a knowledge that we live in a paradise surrounded by thin glass walls, and behind those walls are your […]
Im 20 years old and I’ve had thoughts of suicide since i was 15 years old. I dont have a long drawn out sad story or history of abuse of any kind. I have a loving family & a boyfriend but i have never felt more alone. I often ask myself “How can you have so much but still feel like you have nothing ” . I have never figured out the answer. Im just so unhappy it almost scares me how many times I’ve actually sat in my bathroom , held pills , razors etc. and almost ended my life. Some part of me […]
I decided that this life is no longer worth living. Â The love of my life has officially left me and I have nothing left to live for. Â I already know where and how i will do it. Â I’m making it a double attempt so if one fails the other won’t. Â My letters are almost written and then I will out them all in envelopes with people’s names on them. Â Each will have a generic letter and one personal letter. Â I get a fresh battle of meds on Monday and I have some muscle relaxers and oxicodon left so the combination should do me in. Â I […]
Music Saved My Life (My Story)Â <— video of my story click the link
All these things pieced together,
Aren’t making me strong,
Aren’t making me better,
They tear down the dreams I’ve finally had,
Nothing can stop them,
There’s nothing more bad,
I’ve been to hell,
And I’ve been back,
Through drugs and rape and panic attacks,
But after these storms,
There’s always some calm,
It works it’s way up and fully forms,
I learn to live broken and shattered,
Not getting stronger or better,
Just more battered,
I don’t pick myself up,
I fly with a joint,
And after a while,
I crash from that point,
I had my problems,
Long before my addictions,
And even before they started,
I had low restrictions,
I can’t wait for the day,
When I get to fly,
Not from a drug,
But from my wings to […]
Today I packed my bags, because on monday I’m going in 24/7 therapy. I really hope this therapy will finally work… But I’m also really terrified. I hope I’m able to write some posts on here, because there’s not much ability to get on the internet. Wish me luck guys…
Cameron,
I fell in love with you the moment your eyes saw mine. Shivers played at me when you were close. Your beautiful black hair, and those dark grey blue eyes. Tall, freckles, always in my favorite color. Black. You were perfect. Perfect for me. But…I apparently wasn’t perfect for you…I know we talked once…maybe twice…but the sound of your voice made me want to cry tears of happiness…
Ugh, wow. Sounding like a total stalker now. Great.
Whatever. Not like you know who I am. You wouldn’t remember me. Yknow, the girl always glancing at you. The shy girl wearing your favorite color. Black. The girl […]
Hello, I am Scott Hildreth, the Author of Broken People. At the age of thirteen, my uncle committed suicide. I hated him for it. At the age of twenty one, my girlfriend committed suicide. I spent a lifetime carrying a poem that she left me in my wallet. Additionally, I carried guilt. Crushing guilt. I felt awful, guilty, and no longer trusted people.
A few years ago, a close friend committed suicide. Then, I decided it was my turn.
I didn’t succeed.
This year, I met a girl who needed help. A suicidal bulimic teen.
I wrote a very uplifting and deep book that has touched the hearts of […]
Not Exactly Sure How To Start These. I’m Just Gonna Wing It.
From The Time I Was In Kindergarden I Was Bullied. Pushed Around, Bothered. No One Really Ever Left Me Alone. It Wasn’t Until 4th Grade It Started Getting Bad. I Started Getting In Trouble In School, I Owed 6,000 Hours Of Community Service By The Time I Had Finished 5th Grade. The Beginning Of 6th My Life Started Going Downhill Fast, My Parents Got Divorced, Week To Week With Mom And Dad. I Was Severely Unwanted At My Dad’s House. My Aunt Lived Next Door And My Uncle Lived Across The Street, I Couldn’t […]
This is my story, I would kindly like to ask you to not put rude comments. When I was a child I was mostly forgotten about. My sister had all the attention. My parents were both alcoholics, that forced my sister and I to be our own parents. I was probably about 1-3 I couldn’t take care of myself so my sister had to. My mom was a horrible drinker. She decided to pick us up from school one day drunk. As we drove back home my sister, she looked at me. Her face full of fear and turned around that’s when we heard the […]
I think this is the happiest I’ve been in a while…I…
Let me start:
When I was younger, I was bullied. I had no escape from the world. That was, until the day I got my mp3. Music was a whole different world to me. It still is. It’s all I breathe for. My life, my love and my soul are devoted to this otherworldly being…I’m intoxicated…
Anywho, there was one song preprogrammed into the mp3. I couldn’t pronounce the name at the time, so I just called it Jane and Eric’s waltz. It fit at the time. I had fallen madly in love with the song, […]
If you’ve read any of my other comments or my story, you know I’m a proponent of choosing life over death, and I think the words in this video kinda sum up why, in a way:
I’m doing a video project that i will hopefully be able to show in school and i may put it on you tube.
It will basically be a video about people that have anything like depression, EDs, Suicidal thoughts etc.
I will have people send in video clips of them telling their story if they want or giving simple advice. Then i will have people at the end say things like stay strong etc
I really want to do this. Its something i’ve had planned for a while now. If your interested or want more details message me here:
http://our-silentscreams.tumblr.com/ask
or here
https://www.facebook.com/shannon.morley.96
It would also help if you could […]
It’s been a long road for me these past couple years. I’ll start my story from when I was 11.
My dad had a job where he was constantly working out of town. It was me, my brother Mark, and my mama for most of my life. My parents would fight constantly over every little thing, and finally my mother started going out with guys, leaving Mark to take care of me at home.
All of the guys were jerks that ended up hurting my mom and leaving her. The arguments between my parents became worse and worse.
I always wondered what it would be like to jump […]
I don’t understand. In my own words and mind, LOVE KNOWS NO GENDER, NO AGE, AND NO LIMIT.
Who the fuck cares if you like someone with the same genitals of you!?
“Oh no! You both have dicks it’s the end of the world and we’re all going to die because of you!”
Fucking dumbasses…Same goes for the lesbians.
“Woah no. ***** on ***** isn’t what a really old book approves of! We should kill them!”
Sorry God, but this is what I believe. If you are my Father, and you love me like you should, then I believe that you will and should accept me for how […]
Including this one. 😉
Here’s to everyone I met on SP, for the comfort that you gave me in my last few months. My thanks to each of you, and goodbye my friends.
Best wishes,
Matt
P.S. I really enjoyed exchanging favorite quotes about suicide with y’all. Especially if it was someone’s last post (I hoped a quote would soothe them) so; here’s a quote for myself..
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The only reason I cant hats myself is because I have to remind my self of something…I have to stay strong.EVERYONE NEEDS TO STAY STRONG.Yeah I know I might not be “Beautiful,Gorgeous or Stunning” or whatever.I don’t want to be that.I want to be my own kind of “beautiful” and that beautiful is not as society describes it.I want to be beautiful by not judging,not wanting to be like others.To be unique…to be an example. An example to be strong enough to never give in to something other then good stuff.And you know why? Because there is always a reason to be strong.Even if you […]
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