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I haven’t been on the original SP in a while….

by RogueShadow1281
written by RogueShadow1281

Been preoccuppied with sp chat and FBSP rather than the original. My old home. I have endured much in my past i jsut want out. I need a gun. Fast. My moms boyfriend wants to take me to mexico so we could shoot guns and shoot drug dealers cuz i want the army to “shoot people”. I want to off myself is the real reason. I am triggered by special phrases that fuck me over most of the time. Whats going on? almost always triggers the voices especially when im insane from 12-4 am… I started crying right now cuz of the voices coming back […]

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my life

by bigsby01
written by bigsby01

this is my story its kinda long but hear it goes will I’m 19 my life isn’t hard. but I’ve been bulled ever since i can remember just because I’m dyslexic doesn’t mean I’m stupid. i can control this i was born like this i know i spell things wrong you don’t have to point it out to every one in the class. also the teachers make it feel like its my fault  if i don’t come to them and ask them to spell check every thinks. I’m so sick of asking for help i want to just do it on my own for once […]

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Why you’re gone, I’ll never know. The pain I feel, you’ll never know

by thedofw
written by thedofw

Back in January of this year (2012) I lost one of my best friends. (Please read it all)

I have always struggled with my own depression since I was about 12 years old. Ironically, I was severely depressed about the prospect of death. I didn’t want it to happen, ever. I knew it would come one day as it does for all humans, but I didn’t want to accept that fact. I wallowed away for so long. Day after day I would come home from school and just fall asleep on the couch and do nothing. It took me nearly two years to come out of […]

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I Want To End It Now…

by Hannah
written by Hannah

I don’t know what to do anymore i just want to end it I’m thinking whats the point anymore…..that’s the real question Whats the Point? you know it will be so easy putting a gun to my head but the hard part would be pulling the trigger and thinking what would everyone do when I’m gone would anyone notice my best friend died yesterday he was 16 and you know what the scary part about is death was that he killed him self i miss him so much you have no clue how much i want to be with him i was in love with […]

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Views on suicide

by XSeven
written by XSeven

 

Comedian Doug Stanhope’s skit on suicide with the best analogy I’ve ever heard before in my entire life (Theatre):

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v3ZA-_kWGGc

 

Doug Stanhope seriously describing why he wants to kill himself:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6X2dCkOI6LY

 

Lord, I’m 44 and everything he said in this clip applies to me. That’s pretty sad.

 

Star Trek Voyager — Best Episode ever:  Death Wish

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0708875/

 

A very deep, very meaningful look at suffering. So many ignorant people in the world believe that if you aren’t feeling physical pain, then you aren’t suffering. A co-worker lost his 14 year old daughter in a car accident on the highway when some stupid idiot decided to text a friend after […]

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Is this what i’m here for?

by ravenstorm
written by ravenstorm

I guess this is what i’m here for…
Just to be someone’s punching bag…
When something doesn’t go right,it’s always my fault…
I guess I can accept that…..
All I am good for is sex and that is about it…
All of my friends are committing suicide and I feel like it is my fault.
Well it is my fault…
I guess the sooner I accept that, the better off I will be…
If only someone in this world were here to love me….
Love me like the father I never had….
 

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I’m Just Sayin’…..

by indierockkgirl
written by indierockkgirl

That a lot of you on here are absolutely amazing and talented people. I find it extremely strange that all of you have knack for stylistic writing. Have you seen how beautiful you write? The way you describe your shattered hopes and your distant dreams. It is so heartbreaking the way you guys describe it in an eerie yet beautiful poetic way. I think that you merely writing about how horrible and hard life has been is something that should help you persevere, as that is how I am beginning to feel. When you guys write on here, I can feel your pain, and it […]

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Just wish it would end…

by AgonyFilled
written by AgonyFilled

Emotional vent.. Sorry I just went on and on, and its pretty much scattered.

I’ve lived a fucked up life since I was young, my parent’s always fought and never got along. I once touched them both at the same time when I was 17.. When I was just 8 my dad met my step mom, the worst thing to ever happen to me. For the next 4 years I was abused excessively.. I was so young I didn’t know what to do, I was too afraid to admit what was happening. It sucked so badly for everyone around you, who cared, to know what was […]

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No such thing as 100%

by XSeven
written by XSeven

I’m not a high school student who failed a test or was dumped by someone I had a crush on.

I’m not a twenty year old with no direction in life and alone.

I’m not thirty years old, single, unmarried, with a mediocre job and a mortgage.

I’m 44 years old… that’s important to know.

When I first killed myself, I was 18. After I was brought back, everyone told me that life would get better–that all I had to do was just hang in there for a little while longer.

When I attempted to kill myself at 27, everyone told me that life would get better and all I […]

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It’s Al Over

by Lost...
written by Lost...

Well, first, sorry for my bad english…

My life is horrible. I never had nothing… I always be different; In the worst way. When i was a kid, my sister and my cousin excluded me.  My parents always fighting and my father never really like us. He just wanna get out, and one day, he goes. But unfortunately, leave took a long time. All starts bad…

I think that one day, i´ll be happy and that all was just a bad time. But not. Grown up that way destroyed me. I think that i am one of that people who born to never be loved for nobody. I […]

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Why can’t I be happy?

by jelly
written by jelly

What happened to the times where I dreamed of becoming a world-famous dress designer? What happened to the brilliantly-written novels I was going to publish? What about that great college I was going to attend? The understanding husband I wanted to grow old with? The two little boys and little girl that would love me and admire their massively flawed mother? When did I suddenly lose interest in the wonderful experiences of life? Or better yet, why am I not fighting for these things? Are they not enough? Why isn’t the ideal life good enough for me anymore? Or is it that I am not […]

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Drowning in the hourglass.

by I'm Here.
written by I'm Here.

Everyone has troubles. It’s life. Everyone endures bullshit from time to time. Though some, in fact, are worse than others. I’ve never told anyone any of this before. And to be honest, I’m scared. I’m afraid of being judged. Of being misunderstood in my story. But I’ll tell you.

Here goes nothing.

I’m seventeen years old, and a senior in high school. I’ve always made decent grades, and am well liked by most people. I’m the funny chunky girl. Here’s the catch. I’m dying on the inside. I feel so.. broken. So lost. And to be honest, I’ve felt this way for years. I put a smile […]

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Failure, The Constant In My Life

by help wanted
written by help wanted

Lights off. Ears plugged. Doors locked.  Notes placed. Water running. Blade cutting. Perfect. All according to plan.

Lights fading. Consciousness slipping. Room spinning. Parents sleeping. Blood pouring. Finally. Time to go.

No more. The End. Black. Infinite black. Peace. Calm. Eternity.

Then noise. Faint. Distant. A hum. A buzz. Audible only because it it the only sound in the beautiful void.

The hum won’t stop. Won’t go away. Won’t leave me alone. I have to find out what it is. What is it anyway!? Look around. Just black.

Wait, I didn’t look around. I couldn’t. There is only black. Maybe if I open my eyes. Then I could find the source […]

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I have done all I can do, same old story told a million times…

by angelskissus
written by angelskissus

I HATE my life. That’s it. I spend all my time, hating my life. My kids, take turns BASHING and PUNISHING me. I am terminal anyway. It takes so much energy to HATE anything, or anyone for that matter. I know that someday I will be in Heaven with my Father. I can not believe that He Hath Forsaken me. I knew the consequences of coming back, I should not ever have come back. I HATE it here. I am so emotionally abused…and everyone sits around like that is an acceptable action ~ to be verbally, mentally, physically, and emotionally abusive. My son in LA, […]

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To whom it may concern

by JustAnotherNobody
written by JustAnotherNobody

This is my story for what its worth and for whom it may concern, its an ongoing story and its ending is yet to be decided but in any case it isn’t going to be an “and they all lived happily ever after” kind of end, and nothing can change that. So if you want a story with a happy ending stop right here. However if you want to find out why the course of this tale can’t be altered and are prepared to peer into the mind of a madman… read on.

Ever heard the saying:”Beware the quiet ones” and asked yourself, “why?”
Have you […]

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Dead by helium – within a week or two if it all goes right.

by beepfried
written by beepfried

Don’t know what to tell about how I got here. It’s been a long ride, a painful one and at this point I can’t even feel pain or much else for that matter. I’m numb to the world, numb to myself and numb to the people around me, but I suppose I would like to tell a little of my story to anyone who cares.

I’m a 28 year old man and I live alone. The word alone pretty much sums up my whole adult life. As a child I was molested by my stepfather. It’s borderline, some people probably wouldn’t call it molestation, but the […]

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Just a breatherrrr

by BreathInBreatheOut
written by BreathInBreatheOut

I’m new to this, and I seriously don’t know if I need to introduce myself. But hi, I’m really pissed right now, and if you’d like to be I’ll-read-your-blog-and-say-something-useful, I think we’re gonna be realll good friends. 🙂 I’m really not on this to create a sob story of my life, because my life is seriously not bad. Or terrible. Or horrible. Or suicide-worthy. It’s just a life. My life. And there are times when I just wanna scream at the world, and I found this site on Google. Seriously.

Recently, I turned sixteen and I’m not expecting much. Let’s rewind back and take a little […]

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The Big Day

by help wanted
written by help wanted

Well today’s the day. Sunday. The plan was to end my life tonight. Leaving a couple different notes addressed to different people. I’ve wanted to do this for a long time. Planning since the beginning of the school year, which started August 27, the day before my birthday. The plan was to wait until after my parents went to sleep, then go do it. My method is not the most preferred method out there, in fact many people hate it and think it’s like THE WORST one. But I have my reasons and I have tried twice before, failing obviously. Waking up in a hospital room surrounded […]

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The mind of…

by RogueShadow1281
written by RogueShadow1281

I feel sick to my stomach. Maybe it was lack of nutrition, most likely not the alcohol. I don’t know. I will try to avoid text slang as I am accommodated to it. My life has desensitized me, I guess. I just picked that word up from a previous post. I believe I might be insane but how can I be sure. I have begun wearing a “happy” mask at my new school as its the last year of high school, so why not keep everyone out of the loop of my insanity and depression.

Yesterday, my happy place was destroyed (the imaginary place in my […]

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