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Suicidal Survivors

For those who have survived suicide.

I think I’m going under…

by xashlerzx 7/15/2016

written by xashlerzx

I need help… I need to feel something again other than pain and sadness and heavy hearted. I’m falling apart and no one notices anymore because apparently I’ve been become too good at hiding. Ironic really that the only thing I’m good at anymore is hiding how I really feel. 22 years of doing it though, I better be fucking good at SOMETHING.

I don’t know what’s wrong with me… Why can’t I ever enter into a relationship where I’m not used, betrayed, or abused? Why can’t I feel happiness again, but REALLY feel it? I smile at my loved ones, I […]

7/15/2016 1 comment

I want to to tell people my story, hopefully it helps someone find hope

by JamalK02 7/14/2016

written by JamalK02

So, I used to be a lowkey, small time drug dealer in the biggest city on the east coast. I’ve lived in the hood all my life and who I am is simply a product of my environment. One of my first drug deals was to some tall white kid who wanted a dub of weed. I could tell he didn’t do this often, he used as much slang as he could and even tried to sound “black”. The problem was that this kid wanted to meet at a train station and i didn’t have my metrocard. I hopped the turnstile to get to him. […]

7/14/2016 3 comments

I’m lost

by poetn.url 7/12/2016

written by poetn.url

Hey, I’m a girl, to be perfectly honest I’ve tried everything on getting better at doing life and all I end up is putting myself into hospital and hurting people around me. Yes I want to die. And yes I wil. One day. I’ve ended up here seeking help, so who knows I wanna find someone to relate to. I can’t be the only one wanting to loose my breath in the dense capacity of the ocean or breath in the sickening toxins of carbon monoxide on a daily basis? 🙁

7/12/2016 4 comments

the first time.

by catsnap24 7/7/2016

written by catsnap24

15 years old. in the middle of another scorching summer there was a heavy weight over my head. something dark pulling me under. i had soon seemed to notice how i didn’t want to do anything anymore and i didn’t know why. i myself at the time had a girlfriend, a best friend, and a few other friends a sibling and 2 parents. but as some people know its not because of them. i was always quiet when you first met me, it was till along time when i would finally shine for the true energetic person i am. but that year i had chosen […]

7/7/2016 0 comment

I Feel Depression Coming Back

by GerbzBaby 7/1/2016

written by GerbzBaby

( Inspired by the beautiful animated films by Miyazaki. I present a drawing of Totoro and Catbus! Enjoy<3)

I’ve been happy or.. At least carefree for a while even though I barely had any communication with anyone for the past months.. I started to feel strong, like I could do anything and honestly not give a sh*t about what people think.. But all of a sudden i feel my depression creeping back up on me. I’m scared. I don’t want to feel depressed anymore. I WANT […]

7/1/2016 4 comments

Four years ago today !!!!!

by noneedforaname 6/29/2016

written by noneedforaname

Hello to old friends and new. As you can see im not dead or in prison which i guess is a good thing. ( depending who you ask ) i haven’t been on in awhile, trying to be strong for eveybody else lmao. Anyways i do pop in to read post now and then but had to post today. Like many people, this is my vent. I get a lot of good advice, kind words, and a whole lotta ” shit ” off my chest. Its been 4 years today that GOD took my oldest son. He was 21 […]

6/29/2016 5 comments

First time on here..

by Tin_Cup 6/26/2016

written by Tin_Cup

Hi,

Y’all can call me Tin if you’d like.

My story and why I’m here?

Well, I was a victim of a very violent form of abuse. My father, a drunk sadistic bastard, would beat my brothers and I. Though I was left without an escape my brothers could run to school, as I was only 4 through 8 at the time.

My mother was framed for abusing us when we were young. I was 3, and my brothers were 4 and 7. Our church were the ones who framed her, and lied to DCFS which led to our being taken away from her.

I suffer from a form of PTSD, sort […]

6/26/2016 3 comments

rewind for the weekend

by forward 6/24/2016

written by forward

weekend, more like a week now, that i have been in the same mood, state and motivational skill as i did last month when i swallowed pills to kill myself.

i dont know whats going on.

ive been a victim of depression, anxiety, PTSD and SAD for 2 years now, and yet i still have times where i dont know how to fight it.

i want to tell you that i will survive but i feel id be lying.

this week, the week after fathers day is the worst relapse ive had in a long time. I’m barely eating, barely drinking, not sleeping, im cutting again, im smoking way […]

6/24/2016 8 comments

Suicidal and Confused

by snugglepuff 6/22/2016

written by snugglepuff

Well, I never thought I would post something like this and honestly its kind of weird but what the hell. As I type this my husband is sleeping next to me, and has no care in the world. Me on the other hand, I carry the weight of all of the care and pain. This is my story.

I am 24 years old, and I currently do not see even a glimpse of a promising happy future. It weird because I am in college and successful at it; I’m smart,have tons of motivation, and can light up a room. But, just as much as I can […]

6/22/2016 1 comment

Seeing the Demons

by xmwdhx 6/18/2016

written by xmwdhx

This is my story to tell and the story you should know.

Janaury of 2013, I was a suicidal trans male. I suffered depression almost 3 1/2 years. It’s very long time than you all expected. I was hurt, scared, tired, lost, abandoned, and many words I should describe myself of being sad. Every day during my middle school year and the year of my 7th grade, people treated me like an animal or a beast. I was beaten up by bunch of kids especially middle and high school boys. I was known as a freak, emo freak, tranny freak, or boy freak. I couldn’t stand […]

6/18/2016 4 comments

People Are causing Me To suffer

by GerbzBaby 6/13/2016

written by GerbzBaby

(A mini drawing I drew to help calm my nasty thoughts :/ )

All my friends and family are unsupportive and them not being here for me is causing me to suffer. Day after day after day all I think about is suicide but.. I’m to much of a chicken to fucking do it. I want to live but then again I want to die.. In the least painful way.. I’ve been waiting for so long to find those friends who finally care.. The […]

6/13/2016 10 comments

“You’re So Much Better Than That.” —Cassie, Suicide Survivor

by HERE4UOK 6/7/2016

written by HERE4UOK

Please reconsider. If you can’t find motivation, it’s not because there aren’t reasons out there, out here. It’s because your state of mind blocks your view and your spirit from seeing ahead. And it’s ok, remember: IT’S OK TO NOT BE OK, as long as you ask for help.

I, unfortunately, am no genie. But like most of us here, I have my past. I have my experiences, and with all due respect, unless you’re terminally ill, you have every chance at witnessing how things really DO get better, but you need to do your part too. Help others help you.

Things most likely didn’t get bad […]

6/7/2016 2 comments

“I Didn’t Want To Die, But I Felt That I Had To…” —Kevin Hines, Suicide Survivor

by HERE4UOK 6/6/2016

written by HERE4UOK

SeeSmith on another post here on SP said it well: “You are the LEAST qualified person to judge yourself [when you are in an ill state of mind]”.

Don’t make the mistake of thinking for others, don’t assume you’re a burden or that others are just too “busy with their own lives” to care for you, to help you.

Ask for help. It’s OK to not be OK! Life is not just about its sweet moments.

6/6/2016 0 comment

Don’t Be Sorry for Struggling. We All Do at Some Point. It’s NOT Wrong Asking for Help, Not Doing So Is..!

by HERE4UOK 6/6/2016

written by HERE4UOK

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6/6/2016 2 comments

I will survive

by skysie 6/5/2016

written by skysie

I want to thank everyone on this site who has commented on my posts. Many of you will know that i set a suicide which was the 1st of June well its now the 5th and i am still here.I have decided to take my life back for my little nephew who is due in 4 months and also odd reason but for my ex. I promised my ex i will not give up and he will not lose me and i am not one to break promises. But also i want to fight for my life as i have a long life ahead of […]

6/5/2016 1 comment

Confessions of a Dead Angel

by Mexicanwhiteboy96 5/29/2016

written by Mexicanwhiteboy96

Hey everyone, just me- Im 19 right now and I really hate my life . I see people complaining back and forth about trivial things and the truth is I always believed they didn’t know what true pain was. But I know it isn’t right or fair because I’m just comparing their pain to mine andy oroblems aren’t anyone elses. I was molested by my cousin when I was about 8 in 4th grade. the earliest time I can honestly remember this, I was experimented on and I was penetrated my older cousin. Both my cousins fondled me though. That may not […]

5/29/2016 8 comments

New – not sure what I’m doing

by nomoreleft 5/28/2016

written by nomoreleft

Well I’m new to this site as found it looking into water intoxication.

Last week I took about 40 setraline (anti depression) and then realised that you can’t kill to yourself with them.

This week I have drank approx 70 pints of water of 3 days hoping that would kill me but nope – ended up in A&e and, after a long que – blood tests, urine test I was out on an Iv drip and still fucking lived.

I’d had diarrhoea the days I was doing it and tried to hold in my wee when I could and most of water was drank over 7 hour in […]

5/28/2016 3 comments

Forensic Cleaning Documentary – An Antagonizing Source for Strength

by HERE4UOK 5/26/2016

written by HERE4UOK

I like this documentary very much. Not in a morbid way. But in the way that where it becomes evident that there isn’t anything pretty about death, the main character in the documentary finds strength and positivism from her job: Forensic Cleaning, aka. Crime Scene Cleaning, aka. Bio-hazard Cleaning Specialists, etc.

She has gone through so much personally, and professionally, her job is so physically and emotionally intense, yet she keeps pushing through, it’s admirable.
I especially enjoy the interactions between husband and wife 😀

5/26/2016 1 comment

I don’t want to live anymore

by skysie 5/25/2016

written by skysie

I guess I should start from the beginning. I am 17 almost 18 and have a brother who is 16 and a sister who is 20. My life sucks is complicated and somewhat confusing at times.

I was adopted when I was 4 by a family who we were all happy to be part of. I was adopted because my parents did drugs and were nearly always unconscious. We were malnourished and my sister was looking after us. So I guess the positive was we got a new family and well that’s where things were supposed to get better but in fact things somehow got worse.

My brother […]

5/25/2016 7 comments

HELP or GET HELP… Talk to Someone.

by HERE4UOK 5/24/2016

written by HERE4UOK

Thinking about suicide? Ok! Now let’s talk about it. Help each other out.

España/Spain:
www.telefonodelaesperanza.org
Atención en Crisis: 902 500 002

USA
1 (800) 273-8255
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline
www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org
En Español:
www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/gethelp/spanish.aspx

UK
0800 068 41 41
PAPYRUS
www.nhs.uk/Conditions/Suicide/Pages/Getting-help.aspx

México
01800- 290- 00- 24
Línea de Intervención en crisis
suicidologia.org.mx/podemos-ayudarte/

Australia
13 11 14
Lifeline Australia
www.lifeline.org.au

5/24/2016 66 comments

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