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For those who have survived suicide.

can you finally see the pain?

by Redneck22
written by Redneck22

 

At the age of 17 after signing paper to come to kicking horse job corps in Montana. I had a break down. remember that I have PTSD, I had a psychotic break down. this is honestly that hardest part of my life Its hard for me to tell people. but here it goes. I had a psychotic break down I was homicidal and suicidal. I showed up at my moms not(best friends mom and his house) house. She wasn’t feeling good. she was feeling sick that day. She looked at me and asked if I was okay. all I could manage was a head shake saying no.  […]

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Did I get Your Attention?

by Please_SomeoneHelpMe
written by Please_SomeoneHelpMe

First of all… I’m not going to censor this. YOU NEED TO UNDERSTAND. I NEED SOMEONE. Listen. Please, just hear me out! I can’t take being ignored anymore! So please, please just see what I have to say! Your the lucky one…all of you who are not me…all of you who you don’t have to ask for your own mother’s affection. Those of you whose own sister isn’t always planning to bring you down. Those of you who’s father actually spends time and gives a fuck about you. Why can’t I be you..? You don’t have to pretend to be someone you’re not over social media […]

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How Depression Has Changed Me for the Better…A Message of Hope

by kreg77
written by kreg77

 

Remarkably, two years from its onset, I’m still alive; still fighting. By some odd twist of fate, I’m still here…still on this beautiful earth that once was forgotten in my mind. I’m still here to speak of the taboo disease that is depression…this stigma that is an incomprehensible sadness. The sole disease that many encounter, yet the sole disease that no one wants to admit to. The sole disease that is so easily swept under the rug. The sole disease that is too disgusting to talk about, so it’s kept to a whisper. The sole disease that is too embarrassing to ask for help, so […]

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I’m honestly not sorry.

by Arandomyoyoer
written by Arandomyoyoer

I’m not sorry…………………………

 

This is more or less a  suicide note that will never be read because I’m a ***** to put it simply.

But if I ever grow the balls to correct the mistake God, nature or what ever brought me made. But I wanted to finish this shindig on a high note.

And this is quite possible the first and last time I’ll ever mean this sentence.

I’m not sorry.

To the wonderful father I have and the mother that was never bad but I always resented.

I’m not sorry.

To my amazing family I do nothing but complain about because I can only hate someone who values me over […]

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First time not so lucky.

by quitter
written by quitter

16 and absolutely hating life. Being in the big wide world having not grasped the aim of it yet……I’ve decided I’m just not made to be here. So, after months and months of contemplating, today I made the decision to try and hang myself . I’ve always thought about killing myself, but never carried out an attempt until today, due to being scared. Scared that if it failed I have to live with the shame from my family. Scared of their reaction.

I used a belt, tied it around my neck as tight as I could, and tied it over a metal bar in the door […]

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I Am Back, But For Good! :)

by Haley427
written by Haley427

Hey, beautiful people!

I was on this site two years ago as one of you. I was young, depressed, and had intentions of taking my own life. While I don’t see any familiar names, it was people like YOU who helped me become the person I am today. Today, I absolutely love my life. The narrow path I was on may have devastated me, but here I am today. I am here to tell you all that it DOES get better. By talking to people who genuinely care about you and having a little hope, you can get better. I promise. I have helped several people […]

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My failed suicide attempts …

by suicide_mahn
written by suicide_mahn

Today I’m sharing with you guys what I did to end my life, maybe it will help you to know what won’t work for a suicide plan.

My first attempts were  some knows classic stuf, cutting, Overdosing painkillers, Injecting some poisonous liquids, drowning etc …

My last attempt was finishing a full bottle of scotch whisky and a lot of amisulpride pills, I was taken to hospital and all I got is 4 days of pain over all my body.

For now I’m searching for 2 helium tanks, I see a lot of poeple fail at suicide by helium because of exhaling Co2, but after all I should […]

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Shut away

by soulsurvivr
written by soulsurvivr

Right now, I am scrolled away in my spare bedroom upstairs.  It can get claustrophobic up here as it is a converted attic with only a small skylight for a window.  I have been up here for two days avoiding my boyfriend…. avoiding the world, really.

I am a 50 year old female with too much loss in my life and have reached a point where I just don’t want to go on.  I am sure I don’t have the worst story out there, but for me, its been far too taxing.

In 2003, I buried my only daughter (9 years old) from a tragic car accident.  She […]

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Perfectlybroken504

by broken_soul504
written by broken_soul504

My kik is prefectlybroken504. I need someone to talk to before I walk out my house and go to the nearest bridge and jump. I’m lost and broken and need help picking up the pieces. I don’t want to live but i do. I think my thoughts are getting the best of me. And I don’t know what to do. I’m 22 years old. I’ll be 23 in a few months if I live that long.

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The start after the end

by ClosedWounds
written by ClosedWounds

This is my first post so hey,

Imagery is a weird thing isn’t it?

Since I was 13 I’ve had that sort of ya know emoish look about me, listened to the music, wore the eyeliner, all that sort of stuff. At that time people couldve somehow assumed, because of this “image”, that I was rebellious, depressed and suicidal. But what’s ironic is at that time when I was going through that sort of “phase” none of that applied to me in the slightest. You could say I was one of the most friendliest, world loving emos our there aha.

I was “a goth” before my dad got […]

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I’m choking

by broken_soul504
written by broken_soul504

I can’t rest, my mind in total chaos. My emotions are doing what they do best, running a muck through my veins flowing to my heart choking me with every thought. I am lost unable to process my thoughts. My voice is gone, I’m choking am I alive? My thoughts wrapped around my throat. As my thoughts continue to flow, the choking keeps growing. My heart beat it’s slowing, my body emotionally dying….

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invisable

by DepressedGirl
written by DepressedGirl

i told you i couldn’t hang out, not that i didn’t want to. You wanted to party, i wanted to die. You thought i was happy and so did i. but little did we know happy wasn’t for me. i wanted to cry. i wanted to die. there was always something in me asking me why. i didn’t know what to say but then i realized that it was everything about me. My hair, my eyes, my legs, arms, my stomach, my chest, back, feet, my hands. It was the way i talked, the way i walked. i never thought i was good enough. i […]

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Die capital D

by lively still
written by lively still

I run today Litterely moving. The world through my eyes is cold. Full of dark colors. The air is crisp around me thin. layers of mist collect on my face under my hat on my glasses.  I hold my keys in my hands their sound as constant as my steady moving lump of body mass. I run. Its has been a long time since I have run and I can’t remember why I would do such a thing at the moment. 

My body jiggles forward my mind moves back in memory. forcing me to quite again to walk I keep moving. I remember wanting to die. […]

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Not sure what to do anymore

by vinci_mariee
written by vinci_mariee

Hi all,

This is my first time stumbling upon this site and after reading several posts feel like maybe talking to you guys could help me connect with someone who understands what I’m, well, we’re, all going throug. These past 2 years have been extremely rough for me. I went to Rutgers University after I graduated high school, I’m now 20 so it’s been two years since I left. I didn’t even make it more than 2 months and I didn’t know what was wrong. I was never bullied, nothing ever happened to me, but ever since I started life after high school graduation I’ve felt […]

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I’m here <3

by LovelyDaze
written by LovelyDaze

Hello all,

I’ve never posted on this site before, but I felt the need to make an account and make one.  To all that is reading this; to all that feels like no one is there; to all that has contemplated life over and over again and feels the need to end things; to anyone that just needs to share their feelings to… I’m here.  I have felt what rock bottom feels like and I have been in and out of depression, contemplating suicide a few times in my life.  I will keep this short and sweet:  the pain may seem never-ending, but it eventually DOES […]

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Live.

by Jane Heperi
written by Jane Heperi

I know what you’re thinking. ‘It’s another girl trying to stop us from thinking about suicide’. ‘Nothing she’s going to say is going to stop me’. You’re right. There is nothing I can say or do to stop you from this. I don’t know what you’ve all been through; I definitely have no right to tell you that you shouldn’t commit suicide. But what I can tell you is that you’re not crazy. You’re not exaggerating. But most of all, you’re not alone. You’re probably thinking, ‘I’ve heard all this, there’s no point, she doesn’t understand’. You’re right, I don’t understand. But there is something […]

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I needed to be loved

by roseyruby
written by roseyruby

the only memories I have of my childhood are of my father, telling me how worthless I am, calling me horrible names when I was so young. I was 16 when I was finally allowed to make the choice to never see him again, up until then court orders had me there. I was mentally and even physically abused for what should have been my childhood. When someone tells you something so often for so long you really start to believe them “maybe I will never mean anything to anyone, not even my own father loves me” I tried so hard for so long to […]

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Being a Knite

by Shadowknite
written by Shadowknite

My favorite thing in the world is being there for someone like us. I am 17, a junior in HS, and I have 7 MS girls who are just like me. Cutters, suicidals. I can only help so much. Today, to get one to stop, I put my blade to my arm, on a line I have thinned out from my elbow to wrist, just in case I ever need to do it. It’s a pain to watch them worry, but a relief to watch them stop. I’ve gone back to cutting, though. What gives me the right to stop others when I can’t stop […]

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