Suicidal Survivors

I just need to get some things out.

I just want someone. Not an online chat but an actual person to care for. I know that people like to have their freedom and that getting tied down is a the worst thing that can happen, but its just a load of male testosterone bullshit. I just want someone I can care for. Someone I can tell anything, ask about their day and hold them forever.

If I wasn’t me this wouldn’t be a problem. All of my friends are in relationships  even the weird ones. Well im weird too, but I mean the really weird ones. Sometimes I just want to escape, […]

Ive never posted on a blog before but here it goes, im 17 going on 18 in january, ive never had   a boyfriend or had someone love me, ive never been kissed and its getting to the point deep down i never will, ive been suicidal for the past 3-4 months recently but the past year all together. Ive got high anxiety as well as being heavly depressed.Every day for me is a struggle to find a reason to keep waking up in the morning, ive attempted twice. Im a tom boy i love video games, sports, cars, im into pretty much every type of […]

I feel like a lost cause i keep crying and my mom keeps saying its ok to be happy meaning dont or stop crying and so does my dad and my counler no one understands i just wanna put myself out of missery i feel its the right thing to do

I don’t ask for help. Never. Ever. But today I need it. I’ve been depressed for 3 years now, suicidal for 2. Last year, around this time, I attempted and wound up in a hospital. They put me on an anti depressant but it didn’t work. Now a year later things have gotten worse. I hear voices in my head and I get words stuck in my mind. I can’t sleep. I have nightmares every time I try. It used to be just when I had to deal with school but now…now I still hate myself when I’m out of school. I keep relapsing in […]