Sometimes it’s not always about your surroundings and situations. I don’t know about the rest of you, but I hate myself. I have my good and bad days like everyone else. If I’m honest though, I can’t stand myself. I can hardly find a single positive attribute of myself. That is simply the fact of it for me. My life has been a series of shitty decisions on my part, situations/circumstances/incidents that have crippled me and/or haunted me. I’ve always told myself that there are people who have it worse and not to be a baby. I have done most everything I can think of […]

Worst I’ve been in a while, crap. Just posting to create a timeline.

Hello my name is Jeff black, the truth is people have the right to do what they want to and freedom comes at a price,
anyway well I have changed my mind on how I feel, it comes to my attenstion that’s life isn’t worth chucking away,
to be honist, things happen to people that make us wake up some times, to I still think people have the right end their end own exsitence if they want to yes, but that doesn’t mean that happiness is impossible to find,sometimes it can be found when we least expect it,
anyway good luck to people on this […]

Hi Everyone,

I guess you might say I’ve been ‘trolling’ on here now & then but more so lately. I’m not sure when I signed up but especially this weekend & I posted a few comments. Not very helpful ones, just  the “I get it” kind.

Anyway, I guess it’s time I said hello & told my story. I’ll try not to get too detailed.

I am a 46 yr old, married mother of 2 boys 7 & 10.  They are all great but I don’t know what I thought motherhood would be. For some reason (possibly the fairy tale we are led to believe in by society?) […]

It was so quiet when the clocks had stopped
so empty when the gates were locked
so vacant when the dreamers died
their hopes and love sucked ghastly dry

their dreams they withered to despair
which left their minds so bleak and bare
no longer blessed with zest and joy
their emptiness left to destroy

their darknesses painted works of art
and dressed in black their hollow hearts
which no longer were upon their sleeve
but buried far beyond their reach

they were told that on the other side
they’d find their missing joy and pride
but the knowledged that they sadly lacked
was once you’re there you […]

Hi, My name is Mary Jean.  I have this small problem, well I guess you could say it isn’t small. I have been trapped in a world of self harm and self hate for nearly 4 years. The biggest reason is the huge rumors going around that I can’t ever seem to stop. They all keep asking me if I’m pregnant, which can’t possibly be true.. because I’m a lesbian. Shocker.. right? This girl named Caytlin has been helping me through my problems since the beginning of this school year. I’m head over heels for her and I know that she is, or at least was head […]

I was born into relatively lower middle class family. My mother  is an school teacher all her life and my dad is an alcoholic since forever working in construction. Ive born into a small town, with no opportunites and with no financial aid, I attended the school and finished by graduating 12 classes. As a kid I played used to enjoy playing football or just pass time as a computer which is most of my whole life. But If I were to defy myself Im incredibly shallow, no confidence/self esteem, have not felt anything in years, no-one to care for or something to hold value […]

They don’t know, I don’t clean the house to help them out. I clean the house to keep myself from killing myself. The thoughts are there, I know I am stronger, truth is I just don’t want to be here anymore. I need not be alone with myself, and these thoughts. I wish I had a friend to talk to about this, but I don’t I have no friends. The only people who come in contact with me only want me for one thing, that is my fault, because I have always given it to them. I don’t want to be that way anymore, I […]

I find this page this One day when I was in the point of suicide. I was wondering and I just get into the Internet to find a a swear like if someone else feel like I did and yes. So I need to tell someone everything I feel before I blow up and my story to know if someone feels like I do or have the same I do.

My name Nobody really cares but I’m a teenager and have had depression for almost five years, recently I discover i am bipolar I got bipolar disorder II plus eszquizo/affectivity depression. My family form my dad […]

i suffered from social anxiety and major depression since i was a about 14 years old i was too afraid of people so i drop out of school and all i used to do is stay at home all day playing video games i was to afraid to go out my house i felt like people were always watching me, talking about me and making fun of me. also with my depression i was always in pain, so i had no friends, no girlfriends after so many years of pain i tried drugs, i started smoking weed for about 6 months but it only made […]

Hello. My name is Bill and I’m 45 y/o.
This is the first time I have spoken to anyone about this, but I feel compelled to right now.
My life began falling apart about 7 yrs ago, and has continued to worsen to the point where I feel the end is near.
I had it all. Married. Great job and career. House. Cars, financially stable and moving up and forward. No kids though. Wife couldnt have kids. Then, in the course of a few weeks I lost everything. Lost my job. Two weeks later, wife left me unannounced. Saw neither coming. Lost everything in divorce. […]

I just joined and this is my first post.

Just testing it out at the moment.

Hello everybody.
Love from me.
I am 22 and I live in Bosnia. Its fucked up place like every place on this planet.
I”ve been all over the world. Worked on cruise ship for two years. I feel so lonley. Like nobody unmderstand me. Even when I am with other people,drinking,laughing,I feel alone…completley…All the time thinking about that…Feeling so distanced from other people.

Born as Muslim,but started to practice religion with 16 for 3 years. Now I dont belive in nothing but death.
I have so many disorders. Obsessive compulsive disorder….etc
Didnt had girlfriend. Now I met girl called Sandra and I  a made mistake again. […]

Staying strong means continuously uplifting yourself positively as a confident person by pushing through the hardest rock bottom times your best. Give it your all. And don’t bow down to bullying etc. Make a difference. Think about what you love and what you do thats special or even find a new idea. I like to write now because it helps me and people see it and feel it. Be a soldier, not weak at soul. I skate loyally and hard, i’m beyond commited. That’s most dope. That’s why I have it tatted across my upper chest. It’s me. It’s a view and reminder […]

Common question I have been asking myself. Life is ironic . Those who wants to live dies. Those who doesn’t stays on.
Perhaps this is what discontentment is. Yup you can say I am discontented. The honest truth is that I do not see my purpose of life anymore

I am going to start my Final Year project soon. I am worried that I will pull my teammates grades down. I am worried he will end up doing all the work.

I don’t know what drove me to start this project with him. I guess I have misjudged my capabilities again. I […]

I am clumsy oath. I have no feel. I tried to massage my mother. I do not seem to feel anything. What am I good at? What am I doing here?

My ideas get rejected. I cannot even do a simple university assignment. I want to leave my university. My ego wants me to stay even I know really well I am going to kick out.

I like being alone because I feel even more alone with the people around me.

I am tired. I want all this to stop. I just don’t have the guts or energy to end this. THe world has come […]

wow, there’s nothing quite like failing spectacularly at finding a job to make one want to off oneself. there’s nothing quite like becoming a pathetic free-loader for almost a year, desperate and hopeless.

my life is going nowhere.why continue?

I took 4.5mg of synthroid a little over 2 hours ago, I sure hope this works but all I have noticed thus far is a headache. I sure hope it starts to do something soon because I don’t want anyone to witness my death. Really wanted it to be over already…

Tunes in the drop
Indeed, dead and sinking
Nobody and everything
The light that I don’t have
Shining all around
The only that isn’t natural
Something growing from outside
Shining all around
The hazard of all arrive
From the pierce underground
Looking from space and is everything right
Dragonyte, fly me back from never never-land
Take me, are you “Angel”
Only isn’t alive
Continuum there is a vacuum of void in spiritual
That is only, left from the arcane, tied and upside-down
You are the Sacred-Clown, I bow down
Something […]