So this girl and I went out and we both have a hard life alcohol, I smoke weed, I have abusive parents always bullied we broke up but remained friends we both cut she saved my life because when I met her I was planning suicide we both started cutting again after the break up and we promised each other we wouldn’t cut again and I told her if she cuts then I will to. Two weeks ago she broke the promise she cut and so later that day I to did to all in this day she told me she loves me she told […]
A month, wasted. Clean for a month, no cuts, no new scars. Now….wasted
I have had depression for the last year and a half. But about 6 months ago I started wanting to end it all. I even broke up with my boyfriend so he wouldn’t feel the pain when I left. I want to kill myself, but at the same time I don’t. Please help me. Does anybody else feel the same
Living isn’t any easier for me. Waking up, isn’t either. The cutting doesn’t even numb anything anymore either. But now there’s this girl. I work with her, and I actually like her…I’ve never thought of a fellow female like that. Just confused
I’ve recently moved to a new place, in a new state, away from all of my precious people. I can no longer afford my depression medication, and that, combined with the loneliness, anxiety, and feelings of unworthiness are pushing me to a point I’ve never experienced before.
It hurt so intensely earlier today that I cut my thighs to bloody ribbons, but not even that helped ease my pain. I can’t go back home, because to do so would only add a financial burden onto my family’s already burdened shoulders.
I know I can’t kill myself yet, but I’m afraid. I’m thinking of it more and more, […]
Hi, i guess i just need to vent. I am so tired of fightin urges to destroy myself. Will be 4 8soon. Have been fighting this my whole life. I come from a family of major abuse, riddled with mental illnesss – schizophrenia, borderline personality, addiction. I have complex PTSD that never got ack.owledged – I just got meds which didn`t work and ruined my health. Had my brain shocked. I’m disabled now and completely isolated. My friends got tired of me being depressed a.d I got tired of them telling me, “Hang in there, it will get better.
Last week a neighbor left me a […]
I am perfectly aware that this is a stupid post but who cares? Is it bad that I listen to music about suicide, rage, and good ol’ depression. Should I listen to “happy” music or should I continue my current listening habbits?
My first time cutting since March.I just feel like the weight of the world Is on my shoulders.I can’t think straight.I feel like I’m loosing my mind.I feel guilty.I got off way to easy.I just wanna go home.
I cannot choose anything in my life. Underground Man was right. No desire in me goes deeper than my desire for truth. i was wrong when i said i will choose freedom over truth if such a choice comes. i was recently given this choice. i stuck to truth. truth is unbiased. each decision in life is biased. you need a reason to do anything, and that reason has a beginning somewhere. no reason is “holy”. something has to begin somewhere. so how can i choose anything? on what basis i will make that choice? what is worthy enough to be given preference?
And what’s worse […]
How do I say bye to the one and only person that I believe when she says I love you? In my suicide note I ask her to never cry for me I beg her so much in the note that this is the best thing for me. I just wanna know how I can say bye in person when I see her today. It’s gonna be the last time I ever see her and when me and her are done hanging out idk how I’m gonna hold my tears in when I’m hugging her goodbye knowing that she has no idea it’s gonna be […]
Its been a year now since my wife and I seperated. We have two beautiful children whom I adore very much. I moved here almost 10 years ago from another state after a string of failed relationships. I met my wife and married her almost eight years ago. It was great in the beginning, but first come children and then financial worries and somewhere along the way we began to grow apart. She left me for another man and when that didnt pan out she still felt she was better off without me. Now I have to work constantly to pay my bills and give […]
So words are kind of failing me right now, i’m not really sure what i’m intending to type in this post but i guess we will see where it goes.
I’m just struggling to keep caring, to keep on going and to give a shit about what i do with myself any more. I’m stuck in this fucking void of self hate and i only hate myself more for being stuck there because i have absolutely no right to feel this way. I just don’t know what i’m supposed to be doing anymore, i’m just such a fuck up and i get everything wrong. I’m […]
one must compare. Human life is evolved in a way we must compare to survive in the system
lets do it
1. Happyness- Rich people, Rich kids, unconcious people
2. Sadness- homeless, handicapped, slavery jobs
3. Lifestyle- if you satisfied with your lifestyle what about Obama, bill gates
4. Money- Warren buffet, Larry Ellison
5. Achievements- mark zuckerberg
6. Glamour- Justin bieber
What driving us to live a life?
if you know you are not even comparable to any of above people
–If you are in a system you are not a free man( unless you are powerful, rich, influential)
–If you are out of system and living alone you don’t have a life( because life is real when shared)
–A human is not worth living if he don’t have a life
–Only action a human can do to get freedom is suicide
I want to get better,but I got no one to help me…No one to care…No one to even ask me how much more I think I can go…
I want to die and I want to get better at the same time…I’m a nutcase,suffering from various mental problems,so I guess that is the reason most people tend to avoid contact with me…They’re afraid,but they’re wrong…The only person I’m a danger to is myself…I just wish someone was there for me again,like she was…She would always care,and I would do the same…We would support each-other through our struggles with mental disorders…We would fight together to live another […]
Wow, that’s about all I can say. It’s hard to believe I was about fourteen the last time I logged onto this.
I’m almost sixteen now. It’s scary how much can change even when you feel like you’re stuck in a rut, its terrifying honestly.
My childhood friend is getting married, my other ‘friends’ don’t even speak to me, and I honestly feel worse than I have in forever. My parents found out about everything going on with me, and they think everything is better now, that it just disappeared because the doctors said I was better.
I’m scared… I’m terrified of life, and I don’t know how […]
Im strung out on coke and weed. And all I can think of is that one day when I survived. I think about it everyday and wonder what I did wrong to have to survive in this world. I literally have everything yet I feel like I have nothing. I just want the pain to go away.
Thanks for taking the time to read my first post & comment so kindly. It’s not surprising that many of us are in agreement on the subject of making the conscious decision to put an end to what is for most of us the unending hell of constant emotional pain. (As I’ve tried to explain to mental health “professionals”, it’s like being trapped in a room engulfed in flame, and the only escape is to jump to your death.)
In my over 30 years of experience in being […]
I love you truly do deep down I just try my best not to feel it anymore. I know that we messed up equally that neither of us is solely to blame for this disaster. But I feel like I could have been better, tried harder, supported you more. I didn’t mind hurting myself or loosing myself but loosing you the idea of hurting you it kills me. Because I can accept failure in any other aspect of life just not with you. So to be honest I’m not ok, I’m not happy, I lied about everything that I’ve said. I do want you still, […]