Basically I am in a bad situation. I don’t have anybody around for any kind of a support system and I don’t want to call some hotline. I am dealing with depression, abuse, and suicidal thoughts quite often and I am stuck alone. Most of the time I’m not allowed to leave the house because I’ve supposedly  done something wrong. I don’t think I’ll be ending my life anytime soon but I might end up giving in if my situation doesn’t change. Anyone have any advice?

I’m not sure exactly where I would fall on the spectrum of suicidality. I have a plan. I am in the process of obtaining the means. But even once I have them, I’m not sure I’ll go through with it. I want to have the option.

I’m sad, but it’s due to having to face this decision. Given the choice I’d rather live, but after 20 years of intractable pain with no promise of a cure or even treatment, I realize that this can’t go on much longer.

I have a rare and exquisitely vicious form of OCD. My mind reacts to every small mistake I make […]

My whole body mind heart craves and yearns for death .  Sweet death.  i need it like I need air….  Help me pls

god I’m so fucking pissed off with my DHB; They expect us to pay through the nose in taxes and then won’t even give us the services we need!! WTF is this shit?!? and people ask me why I’m an anarchist… I don’t need the health of the majority dictating what sort of illnesses I get covered for!!! fucking idiots…. and then they act all suprised when we wan’t to kill ourselves! well DUHHH!!! USE YOUR BRAINS FUCKING DUMB PEICE OF SHIT POLITICIANS

I am here,because of one reason this is true “Love” I am strong I know this because I am also weak. Ive been through most of it,and seen alot heard most of it..I am 19 i’ve lived this life and keep living even though i’ve had my darkness and even when the light is in,theres always gonna be dark because ive learned “The sun cant stay out forever,but the darkness leaves always,and cant stay forever either” this is my story and yes it is true.

I found love at 16 a point in my life when I thought I was gonna give up and give in […]

TLDR: 20+ years old, moved abroad to meet online friends, did something silly and now debating whether or not to leave cause I’m happy as fuck here but if I go home (and make the people here happy) I’ll spiral back down.

Hi everyone, first post. I’ve read this forum for months while trying to constantly claw myself back up from rock bottom, and I thought I did (temporarily) until I came into this problem.

I’m in my early 20s and moved across the world to be a nanny. I was studying at home, working, and just felt like a drone. I had met a few friends […]

I’ve decided to start cocaine.

-on a point that im afraid of my own mind

All my dad says is to get over it. I can’t. I’m not like him, but it doesn’t matter. Nothing I say matters. I will always be a fucked up piece of shit somebody scraped off of their shoe. I want to die so badly, but I’m not strong enough to do it. I don’t know what to do.

My father completed suicide a few days ago.  No one ever saw it coming–he was a religious man, a bachelors in Theology and an ordained minister.   He was terminally ill and getting worse and worse by the day.   He did not want to be put into a nursing home or die in a hospital.  He died at home in his own bed.  He was only 60 but his quality of life was so poor I don’t blame him for doing it.  He is so much better off, in no pain now and free from his need of oxygen to live.   I am sorry […]

Contemplating suicide for the longest time, but the more I live, the more I yearn to die. Being human just sucks! If I were young, everyone would be concerned and talk me out of it right? But I am a senior. Now, you are not concerned and don’t give a damn right?

I am currently cleaning house. Purging my belongings. No one notices. No one cares. Good.

I feel like I am The Only One. The only one that is Truly Alone. I know that is not true… But somehow all my searches for somebody with life circumstances like mine only further validate that I Am Alone And No One Understands. Oh and by the way I am Not A Teenager. I wasn’t a particularly angsty teenager. If I had been one, perhaps I would have been ok now. If I had realized earlier that I might have social anxiety and/or be a HSP (whatever the difference is, I only learned about HSP yesterday) maybe I could have solved this sooner.

I just […]

Eventually crying yourself to sleep will go away and your mind will tell your brain to just stop, give up, stop. Obviously the tears aren’t helping your depression. They won’t fix things, they won’t make you feel better, the only make you feel worse. Tears drown you in your pain and sorrow and make you over think why you were crying in the first place. Then you find yourself thinking of all the times you fucked up and how you wish things were different and how much you don’t want to deal with people, emotions. And thats all you need to make the biggest decision […]

It’s so horrible that I feel like I want to die every day! Like, why me? Why do I deserve to feel this way?! It all started when I was 13, started cutting, burning myself and suicide attempts… But when I was 15 it got so much worse! I had to deal with my 21 years old boyfriend at the time (we were together 10 months) Raping me, hitting me, making me do things that I didn’t want to do, stopping me talking to my friends and begging me to cut myself because he liked the look of it.. Because of him I tried to […]

I’ve been done for years now I just keep holding on in hopes of a better future but I can’t keep holding on to hope then watching it shatter in front of me I love to much so I break to easily even my Mom doesn’t care I’ve been trying to stop feeling this way to stop feeling that’s all I want I tried to kill myself Thursday but as I’m typing this you see I failed and now I have decided it’s the end I don’t how I’m going to but I have to

I think about you everyday, I miss you so much and I wish I could see your smile again and hear you singing silly songs just to make me laugh.

Te amo

I took 400 mg of ******** yesterday and I slept till now (5 pm). Anyone else there using ******** against insomnia?

Nothing really matters to me anymore. If you need a listening ear, I’ll be there for you. If you told me something funny, I’ll smile and even crack a joke back. If you cried, I’ll offer you my shoulder and spend all my time comforting you till you feel alright. And then I’ll feel really numb, I don’t really know how to describe it, but I don’t feel happy anymore. It hurts to laugh and smile sometimes, when I just honestly want to curl up in a corner. I think I’m just being insecure, but all these thoughts will rush into my head, and I’m […]

I hate the way that when someone mentions suicide, people automatically assume they have a mental illness, or are in sone emotional state clouding their judgement. This isn’t always the case, and certainly not for me. I think people find it hard to grasp the concept that human beings aren’t perfect creatures, that every now and then genetics, hormones and the environment come together to make a mistake; an incoherent individual. This might present itself in many ways; dysphoria with your body for instance. Unfortunately we haven’t fully mastered the human body, and there is still plenty that cannot be changed to ensure coherence. do […]

But I’m done!!

I can’t do this anymore!!

oh and Happy Easter to you all

i hope you all get through it better then I did