It’s just so useless.

Nope, they’re all delusional fucks for thinking poorly of you trying to be be yourself. Did that sound harsh? Well I think it’s true.

As for [quote] bursting into tears in front of your parents, have you ever thought what would happen? Are they the type to sympathize. Could it possible make you feel better to just release it all to them. And if not, crying isn’t bad, you can always step elsewhere and let it all out, as loud as you want. That’s strength, right there.

Your name says it all, that your hopes are shattered. Perhaps time for some new hopes. Sometimes I think we dwell to much on how to pick of the pieces of the shattered, broken hopes. And how to revive the dead ones. Why not look a different direction?

I know, I know. Easier said then done. I’m just trying to be suggestive for your happiness, or grips out of the pit.

Personally, I wouldn’t want to fall asleep and never wake up. Out subconscious still functions, and that is still, too much for me to deal with. Especially for eternity . . . sheesh. So pay careful mind to your subconscious, that overlooked thing works.

For right now, what small possibilities do you see that have potential to make you stronger. It is apparent you are smart, aware, and observant. I guess it’s all up to how everything comes into play. But what moves do you plan on making now?

I know how this low point feels. I am very sorry you, too, have to experience this position. I wish you didn’t. But for now – good luck out there 🙂