Well…, I’m not on as much anymore because my laptop isn’t working when I want it to and the computer we have is broken. Anyway, I have been writing a lot of poetry and been working on the story I was planning to write. It hasn’t been turning out that great so I stopped writing it and so now I’m working on something else.

Well, where do I start? …
It’s complicated, I don’t even know how the things got this way…
First of all, what is nihilism?.Nihilism (from the latin nihil, nothing) is an ideology, a rational way of thinking and interpreting the cosmic reality.It’s not a belief or anything like that, nihilism is based in scientific evidences and phylosophy.Science has evolved a lot, and it’s evolving even faster lately.The mysteries are but puzzles, but almost all the pieces are now found and placed, allowing us to better understand the universe that surrounds us.Cosmology, biology, quantum physics, showing us how did the universe begin and how it works, […]

I can’t take it anymore I really wanna kill myself but can’t get the courage to do it…. I cut myself sometimes and I’ve been huffing Lysol so I don’t have thk think about things but now I’m really at my lowest and just wanna end it. I’m going to hang myself but need to get the courage cuss I’m a lil *****.

“How was your day?”
‘Good.’

“Are you okay?”
‘Yeah.’

“Are you alright?”
‘Yeah.’

“How are you?”
‘Ok. You?’

“Was your day good?”
‘Yeah.’

“How ya doin?”
‘I’m good. You?’

“Your day was okay?”
‘Yeah.’

Question: have you met any fellow SP members in real life? Specifically, by initiation after interacting on here/ private messaging.

I have been suicidal for at least two years now. I cannot stand to be alive and i have NOTHING to live for. I have no job, i live with my mom (im 33), i have no friends, no partner, no money, my family treat me like an outcast and i have no motivation or excitement in my life. I want to die but cannot for the life of me understand why im still here! Oh, and by the way im not religious. Does anyone else here have the same problem? Ive even chosen my method to exit this world but i dont know whats […]

My past is now haunting me. I was raped when i was 13. Im almost 16 now. and now everyday im reminded of what happened. it kills me inside. i cant still feel everything he did to me. where he hit me, when stuck it in, when he let it out, when he hit me, when he kicked me while i was down, when he stabbed me, everything. i cant get away from it.and i see him every day because of school. hes always staring at me or following me in engineering.  i cant sleep anymore. i feel myself distancing myself from my boyfriend. i […]

Hi, i’m new here and i don’t come from english-country so please excuse me language.. i don’t really know why i registerd here.. i found this website by accident. I’m thinking about suicide every day and in every minute.. A was really close many times. I think that i’m not here beacuse i want or need help. Maybe i just want to find out if anybody is coming through the same problems as me.

Why is it still snowing!? I’m in Michigan and I, more than ever, need some sunlight and some relief from the snow… but it just won’t quit. At least give me a good scary thunderstorm to appreciate.

Otherwise… I’m trying Lexapro and it’s taken a month to finally kick in (I think). I only realized it when I noticed I was humming a song at work. I never do that.

You’d think I’d be into the clear but I can’t seem to let my exit bag / tank go. I don’t want to get rid of it. It gives me strength and security to deal with my […]

Hello  everyone,

Just wondering if there were people on here from the UK and if so what area are you in?

Just curious as I’m new on here

Why is depression such a relationship killer? If I want a successful relationship am I just supposed to hide the depression completely? Past experience has shown me that this seems to be the only option. The problem being is that as you start getting comfortable around someone the shiny façade starts to slip and reveals the ugliness underneath.

I’ve tried letting them know ahead of time. That I suffer from depression. For the most part the meds manage it, but there will days where it gets through. “Sure”, they say, “everybody gets down once and while, no worries.” But when they actually see it, they learn that it’s […]

something is going on with my body. this new “fun” thing just started.  i am having trouble speaking-getting tongue tied. people talk to me and i can’t understand what they are saying. sounds like gibberish to me. i am shaking like crazy. the weakness i have been having has spread to the rest of me.  feeling like i am watching myself from afar. i am drifting away . making myself invisible . having a lot of trouble concentrating on what it is i am doing. feeling anxious about leaving my house. i know i should go in to see my shrink. it is obvious the […]

Life is a fascinating experience, but life can also be very negative, and when you die..you’re in utter peace. You feel nothing, know nothing, you’re just nothing. (unless God exists…) It’s like going back to before you were born.

Im done. Im so ready to kill myself. I just want to go on a hike with my good friend 9mm and never return. My desire to die is stronger than my desire to live. Im not sure how I survived so long, maybe it was because Im living for others, but how long can that last? Eventually I have to to be selfish right? Im tired of being suicidal for the past 8 years, I don’t think it will ever get better.

“There’s so much I could be doing.

So much that I want to do—even if I don’t know what it is that I want to produce.

But I can’t go faster than I’m already going and I’d rather die than stop but… where else is there to go?

I’m so… so scared of lying still and yet too mortified to switch gears.

Now all I do is linger.

In bed.

At the dinner table.

In the shower.

Everything happens but me.

And if it keeps up, I’m going to die this way… having gone in every direction

—but not having reached a single finishing line.”

It’s hard to go through sadness and helplessness etc. I sometimes wish that I can’t feel emotions at all but that takes out the basic part of being human.

If given the choice, would you rather not feel emotions (to prevent feeling pain)?

Honestly, no motivation words will work for me now. I’ve decided to suicide but I’m still trying to find the best way to do it. I am totally hopeless. I am 23 years old, single, ugly, fat, poor, no job, and talentless. Perfect reasons to do suicide. I just wanna ask anyone (who has suicidal thought too), how is your best plan to suicide? I really can’t survive anymore.

Thanks before.

*I’ll really thank you for sharing the way. I really want to die, please.

If you failed at attempting suicide, did you try again? and why?

“When I walk into a room, even filled with people who hate me, I feel like I’m cumming. Not the orgasm, but the satisfaction that comes with it. That’s how I want to help pothers feel, because it allows you to be unbreakable. And as much as you may think you’re already there, you’re not.”

“And as much as you may think you’re already there, you’re not.”

I’m sorry if I put out the vibe that I think I’m superior or that I get off on attention, […]

I ask this because, maybe I do have friends, but I feel more and more alone each day. I separate myself from them. I try to be somebody for everyone in my classroom, but they just ignore me. I try to do something to impress anyone and feel like I exist, but I fear failure. I have never been able to do anything worthy. I’m so useless.

Please don’t judge me, it’s just that I can’t talk to anyone about this because they will only say I’m an attention seeker. I’m sorry 🙁