Fuck you world. Â Just fuck you.
Why the fuck are you making me suffer so much? Â Why is everyone constantly screwing me over? Â I just can’t take the injustices anymore.
Fuck you world. Â Just fuck you.
Why the fuck are you making me suffer so much? Â Why is everyone constantly screwing me over? Â I just can’t take the injustices anymore.
I don’t want to live, but I don’t want to die either.
I’m sick of the pain and frustration that life forces on you… there is no escaping it. But I’m afraid that my attempt at ending it will fail, and that I’d continue to live as a vegetable or in a form of agonizing physical pain.
I also do not wish to cause my mother grief, nor anyone else for that matter. Pain is the exact thing I’m trying to avoid in life, so I’ve never gone out of my way to hurt others. She did not wish for a daughter that would have rather not […]
At school…ugh just have a feeling im going to sleep in one of my classes…counldnt sleep last night over that woke up to be SICK….hate it, hate being sick
I used to like waking up in the morning. But now I can’t stand it. I stay up late unable to sleep. I don’t want to wake up every morning. I want to sleep forever.
She knows what’s happening to me. She knows what people are egging me on and trying to get me to do. All she has to say is “Die already”.
Make millions of money, own a big yacht with a copter on top of it
go to jail, write a book
let famous hero make a movie out of it and watch him take Oscar
turn out a public speaker
not
finish the graduation
get a avg paying job
ugly looking wife
mediocre kids
If someone ask, why you building yet another avg life on earth? reply him ” I like what I do and I am curious to learn, my goal in life is not to become great, my goal is just to live happy avg life”
To be frank, self convincing power saving lots of human lives on earth. Without it 90% human lives don’t have […]
I couldn’t say that things are alright.
Because I can’t remember the last time they were.
And the truth is that I have been battling each day,
just trying to hold my head above water.
I don’t want to live like that anymore.
I don’t want to live in state of constant battle with myself.
While I will never expect to see myself happy;
I refuse to continue to be my own worst enemy.
When everyone wants to see me fail,
I have to be the one who is rooting for me.
I have to be the one who proves everyone wrong.
I have lot of experiences( good and bad)
Why my brain only interested in bad experiences I have?
When I am trying to direct thoughts to good experiences it feels like foolish to me
May be this is how depressed peoples “meta brain” works 🙂
My name is Denise.
I am 17 years old.
I am a junior.
This is my story and the events that led me here.
I was born and raised in Texas. Honestly, I’ve been depressed as far back as I can remember. Sure I laughed and played like anyone else as a child, but there was a darkness I could feel consuming me as I grew up. When I progressed into middle school that’s when I began to let the darkness in. I was bullied.  I met girls who cut. And so I started to cut too. It felt good. I cut […]
I’ve wanted to kill myself since freshmen year of high school. I’m 17 now. I still want to kill myself. I’ve had one half-ass attempt. I hate my life sometimes. It’s a good life though. That is fucked up. I’m smart. Motivation is hard. I have suicidal thoughts. They vary in intensity. Life is hard. Too hard sometimes. Fuck life. I’ve been in-between suicide and life for too long. I don’t know.
I have to wake up early in the morning to go see a pyschiatrist.
I’m really scared though.
I mean, what if he/she thinks I’m some crazy person? Or thinks I should be locked up in some mental hospital?
My anxiety is being a big bother at the moment, and I have no mecidine to control it at the moment.
Wish me luck for tomorrow .. er.. today I guess since it’s 12:00 a.m.
I’ve ran out of patience with trying to figure out my “life purpose”
I may be in a better emotional state than I was in late 2011 and the first half of 2012, yet that isn’t enough to make me value life
when I look back, life hasn’t been very enjoyable since mid 2010 and it’s time to put an end to this farce
my only regret: among all the people who say (believe) they care about me, not one would be willing to help me in any way to leave this prison
DON’T BE FOOLED: people value their feelings more then they value your well-being … yet they […]
^ yup.
not to mention that my dog may have cancer. those of you who had read my previous posts may understand how much she means to me
I am a b.tech student in united. I just don’t want to disrespect my father by all this my life. My family is expecting much from me. So, I want to die .
So, basically this is one of my last chances until suicide is my last option. I’ve been thinking about suicide since i was probably 14. I just turned 16 two weeks ago. Â It feels as if, I’m just a waste of matter. I feel like I’m just taking up space. I can’t do anything and I won’t ever be anything. When I’m gone, I won’t leave a mark on anyone’s life. If they were able to survive without knowing me, then they’ll still survive when I’m gone; they’ll only feel grief for about a week. I’m always being pushed down in life, and there isn’t […]
Fairytales aren’t real … the stories you read in the books when you were little , they’re all lies to. There’s no happy ending , no prince charming and there’s no one there to save you when you need to be rescued. There’s just the darkness and its there to eat you alive , to remind you that your life sucks. It pushes you until you break down , it breaks you until you are completely broken. People say that if you fall 10 times you get back up 11 times well here’s the thing … that darkness knocks you down 12 more times. Sooner or […]
I’m seriously thinking about suicide too often now. When I’m walking to school from the bus stop, its dark and I think about running in front of a car. And when I get in the school, I think about jumping off the side of the stairs. When I’m home, I plan on overdosing or hanging myself from the hook on my bedroom roof…
I’m angry and anxious 24/7. I think about killing people all the time. Usually the homeless; no one would miss them in their absence. Sometimes children–isn’t the world overpopulated enough? I hate what I’ve become. Even my cat isn’t safe. I feel like I’m losing my soul to madness.
I’m confused on whether I want to commit or live.
If I live, there is that possibility that life will be how I want it to be in the future, but it could tyrn out shitty like it is now.
If I just commit, it’ll be over.
I won’t have to suffer and struggle anymore.
I just, there are SO MANY positives and negatives with both.
I can never really see my future, when I try to it’s like “Yeah, I’m already gone so..”
BUT when I plan on attempting, I realize I’ll miss the videos my favourite youtubers make
I’ll miss listening to new […]
So I think about suicide. I have been thinking about it for years now.
My biggest problem is when someone lies to your face and tells you that its weird to think about suicide. To make a decision on if you do so or not is based on ideas, opinions, or thoughts about suicide.
So yes I do think about suicide everyday. Which isn’t entirely too bad of a thing. For one it led me to this site. To make a decision on not to kill oneself also requires some serious thought. Weighing different outcomes, and evaluating ones life is necessary.
I apologize if I am rambling, but […]
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