You were that foundation
Never gonna be another one, no.
I followed, so taken
So conditioned I could never let go
Then sorrow, then sickness
Then the shock when you flip it on me
So hollow, so vicious
So afraid I couldn’t let myself see
That I could never be held
Back or up no, I’ll hold myself
Check the rep, yep you know mine well
Forget the rest let them know my hell
There and back yet my soul ain’t sell
Kept respect up,the best they fell,
Let the rest be the tale they tell

I am 19 and for the past 3 years I have felt like shit. I fell hopeless, unloved, unimportant, insignificant. I feel like nothing really matters. I feel like my life is directionless and has no meaning. I am in major pain. I have a low self esteem even though I have been told the opposite of what I think. I feel like people are lying to me. I make good grades in my college courses that I take. I still feel stupid. I feel unwanted. I have no friends and no boyfriend because I am introverted. I can’t seem to make myself feel better […]

Wish your day is an unique and special as you are… Love You all <3

Sorry! I couldn’t post on time =_=”  but it’s not too late because we all have a special day and right everyday and everywhere…

I’ve never liked when someone asked me how i was feeling because it seems like no one understood that i didn’t have the answer to that question. People only see emotions as black or white and they don’t realize the grey area that is between. People get frustrated with me because i always answer ”i don’t know” to that question and they ask ”how can you not know what you’re feeling?” well i don’t get it either because sometimes i don’t just feel sad or happy. I can’t even tell them that i feel numb because they wouldn’t understand that either. ”How can you feel […]

i’m actually so totally done. i keep fighting with my mother, and i can’t get along with any of my friends unless we’re getting high together. my dad, the most important person to me and my only hope to get out of this hell with my mom, has decided he doesn’t want me full time. i’m now way behind in school and i’m late every class and i can’t seem to get anything right.

i’m 14 and i already am willing to die. if someone handed me a gun right now, i’d point it at my head and shoot. but life isn’t that simple and i’ll […]

After playing video games for a while I decided to take a nap and I had a nightmare about my time in the hospital and I ended up waking everyone up with my screaming (I occasionally talk in my sleep) and my mother keeps bringing it up… I told myself that I would stop cutting but again I failed :p I suck but whatever. Hey at least I admit it! 🙂 Anyway I’ve decided to kill myself but I keep pushing it back. I don’t know when but I don’t want it to be spontaneous because then i’ll make a mistake and have […]

I started cutting my self yesterday and I have probably around 70 scars on my left arm, and I don’t know what to do. They’re not that deep, but seriously, 70 scars are insane for what seems like the equivalent of 35 hours.

I need help, but I just can’t do anything. If my psychiatrist or parents see this, I’ll get stuck in a mental hospital. If my “friends” see this, they’ll think I’m crazy and leave me. If my family sees this, they’ll tell the rest of my family and I’ll be labeled as insane. Cutting feels so good, I just can’t stop. And these […]

You are important and valuable. So priceless, that I want to spend my time on you. Please come talk to me. Nothing would delight me more. I have an ear perfect for listening. And lips always good for a smile. Or an encouraging word. Do not be shy. ^.^

I’m not going to say i had a such a horrible life, because i have never truly been hungry, never been homeless and got a lot of things i wanted. What i didn’t really have were supportive parents and friends. Majority of my life i was sheltered from things in life which made me oblivious to a lot of things. for example, i literally don’t know the barriers of conversation and cross them constantly, when i needed new tires i thought they came with hub caps, etc etc. I’m just dumb, and it shows in my work place, and since i fix aircraft lives literally […]

To be perfectly honest, if I had only one more day to live, I would spend it playing my keyboard, shutting the windows, and falling asleep. I have no ambition or inspiration to bring my music to the public. I have no desire to seek out anything that will help me to live. So I wonder… are some people just worthless? Are there people who, no matter what they learn and acquire, they just drag themselves into the general population and take up space? I don’t want to live out there. I don’t want to try. Maybe I’m one of those people.

At least that’s how […]

Dads.tatoo – A new website and a place to tell my story and educate the masses!  Would love to hear what you think about it!

Some people think that suicide is for weak people. They think that they are taking the easy way out. They think its a selfish act. But its not. For some people its hard to imagine committing suicide, and for others its way too easy. People need to start realizing that bullying leads to suicide. People need to stop bullying. We are all the same on the inside. Some people may not be prettier than the other person but that doesn’t give them a right to bully them. They may not be skinny enough for your taste but you still shouldn’t judge them. Everyone has feelings. […]

Why is there so much pain and injustice in this world?  Why do so many of us suffer?

I just want to have a good life and be happy for once.

I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that’s real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar’s chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right […]

In today’s life when one is thronged with worries and tensions all around, it is very difficult to maintain a positive attitude. And often the more you try and be positive, the more it seems the negative energy around you gains strength. So here are 7 ways to change our modus operandi, be positive and work towards a healthier lifestyle.

Do Not Wait for Happiness.
Do not wait for good things to happen to you. You need to work towards happiness. You need to create a happy environment around you today to remain happy tomorrow. This is called an attitude. If you adopt a positive attitude, […]

‘Ring’ ‘ring’ ‘ring’. I woke up at the sound of my alarm. ” oh gosh , it is still 6:30 am ” . I checked my phone I had no messages from my friends . “That’s weird , my friends used to talk to me everyday! ” I wondered to myself . I took a bath , brushed my teeth and prepared some delicious pancakes with my coffee .
As I was enjoying my sweet breakfast and listening to the sound of the birds , my friend vikki called . […]

(i dont know why its upside down..) This is me. I may not be the prettiest person alive but here i am. I know im not pretty, i hear it everyday from everyone. even my own family. Im used to it. Call me whatever you want. Im a cutter. Im suicidal. This is who i am and nothings going to change that. Ive tried killing myself 8 times. my 8th attempt happened recently about a week ago when people at school started picking […]

My life hasn’t been perfect to me. I get into fights with people a lot. My family likes to pick on me a lot.  My sister calls me names all the time. She calls me a *****, a ****, a lesbian, and a dyke. She punches me a lot. Shes made my mouth bleed. I don’t know how she can be so cruel to me. She never acts this way in front of my dad but once my dad leaves the house shes a devil to me. She starts yellin and screamin at me, callin me names. Shes 21 and has a kid. She shouldn’t […]

I made you a promise.. I promised to tell somebody, to show them the cuts and scars. You promised that things would get a lot better if I did. In all honesty, I’m scared to. Why should I tell someone something that they’ll never understand? They won’t know what to do or how to react.. The idea of getting better really scares me. I haven’t felt “better” in so long that even if I do get better, I might not even realize I am.

I want to go where you went. I want to experience what you experienced. I need to go far away, I need […]

On April 21st of two-thousand-and-twelve, I made a post that started with a picture of me from the return of a field trip. I told everything that I could, up until there wasn’t anything left to tell. I’m back. And there’s more.

It doesn’t say so here, but my name is Wyntre. I’m sixteen. I’m in love. I hate school. I don’t like people, and I don’t appreciate the world enough. None of this is new, isn’t it pretty much stereotypical for a teenager?

Lets begin this where I left off.

“I’m falling in love again, with a boy whom I care so much about. We are not […]