Today I’m going to lunch with my best friend/sisster. She knows my whole life story and I love her and respect her so much. I don’t know what I would do without her. She has been through a lot with me and I make up excuses and she doesn’t buy them so that’s how I know she will always be there for me know matter how many times I try to push her away. I’ve lost many friends buy pushing them away with all my excuses. I hope today goes well for me and I will let you all know how it goes.
i dont know myself anymore, i look the same and act the same but i feel dead inside, incomplete and alone. this is not because i lost love or some shit like that, but i just dont feel worth anything. not a second of your time, not a breath of oxygen, not even the space i exist in. this isnt how im suppost to live this, isnt how i am. i’m gay…i came out to my mom a few months ago. she’s alright with it, but i just cant hide in this shell anymore. she told me not to tell anybody about it because they […]
I need advice.
I know I need help, I want help, I want to be able to talk to my parents about how I feel, I’m tired of being seen as the happy girl with no problems. That’s why I’m scared to say anything about how I’ve been feeling for so long, will they believe me? Will I disappoint them? I never talk to them about much anymore, I don’t feel I can. How can I tell them something like this?
How can I tell them? I’m dying inside day after day.
Feeling insecure,
PURPLEPAIN
This may sound stupid but I just want to know…
If you are visiting here and believe you can relate to the postings and feelings of worthlessness and despair, and truly feel like you want to escape, have you as a child or at any other time messed with a Ouija board? I know it sounds corny. But I’m curious.
I’ve never really thought about typing this out, but after reading who knows how many of these post that have made me feel such I wide range of emotions, knowing how much they’ve helped me I figured maybe adding mine could help someone else out there.
Sorry for this part, I know it will be boring to read, I just want to get my whole story out there.
My name is A, I am sixteen years old. I have severe depression and anxiety and probably OCD. I’ve been bullied since 6th grade. I’ve been called just about every name in the book, but […]
I (x) out all the tags because I don’t want my post to be tagged, but every time I delete them and click update, it keeps showing back up!! Â How do I get rid of them? Â Please help.
I thought fuck this. I considered suicide. I looked on Google as I search Google for everything. I wanted a painless way to die but I couldn’t find one.
I didn’t want to feel any sort of pain or discomfort matter of fact I didn’t want my life to end I just wanted the bad stuff to stop. I still wanted to hang in my PJ’s all day, watch movies & eat junk. I just didn’t want the crap like expectations/
get a job
keep it
b successful
have children get married
I found this website when I Googled ‘suicide starvation’. Some sick part of me wants to thank the people who’ve written about such topics, as I’ve never found a website that made me feel so secure before. Reading the stories and other bits on here has given me a new light to look to. One where I’m not as alone as I once believed to be.
I don’t have much else to say right now. Now’s not the time to share my story, and I’m doubtful of anyone wanting to be bothered with that anyway. It seems we all have our own problems to deal with […]
Hi Guys,
Phew! It’s been two weeks, well 14 posts!!! So thank you for sticking with me and I hope you continue to help me through this journey of my life.
This post really isn’t going to be about my day, more of what I am feeling like right at this moment.
This moment. Right now. I’m curled up in my room, on my floor, with a comforter over my head, The Scientist by Coldplay on repeat crying my eyes out. Why am I crying my eyes out? I can’t find something. Now before you go and comment, “Oh stop being a drama queen,” or anything like that. […]
I cant stand the depressions i keep getting.im on all these fancy medications and ive had 6 major depressions in the last year.sometimes i loose hope and just want to hide but i cant and its painful just to breath.does anyone else feel this way?
I am the point where that bottle of fucking pills is it. It’s what I want and I’m tired of pretending that it isn’t. Fuck it.
I just told my sister… Well she’s not really my sister but we call each other sisters… well anyway I just told her why she really means so much to me. She saved my life an I swear she’s saved it more than once but this one time was the biggest impact on me. I don’t think she fully understood why she means so much but I think she will now! I love her so much and I don’t think even you could understand why.
How could this site be so addictive!
thank you guys ,you  for making me feel better about myself!
Every night I fall asleep thinking of what it is I wish I could have the most, at one point in time I wanted to be happy. And then I found happiness, I found myself falling in love with someone so completely imperfect. I knew that what it was that was between him and I wasn’t a reality because at the end of the day he fell asleep next to my sister, except on the many occasions that he fell asleep on the couch with me beside him. But in the end he was beside her, she got to call him “my boyfriend” I got to […]
These are a few cheerleaders who cheer for the Oregon Ducks. Aren’t they great?
They look so happy, so vivacious, animated and gleeful. Lively, bubbly, high spirited.
I want to be a cheerleader.
I don’t know what to say
Someone cares
Someone shows that they care
And I don’t know what to do or say
Because no one has really ever showed that they cared
Not my family, not my friends
But this one person comes into my life
And picks me up
And tries to fix me
And shows that they care
I don’t know what to say or do
I’ve been used to not being cared about
I’m used to be the worrier the carer
Not to be worried about
Not to be cared about
I don’t know why
They even go through the effort
It’s […]
That moment when u don’t know if what you want today is what you actually want or what todays brain chemistry is telling you that’s what you want and if tommorrows brain chemistry will tell you the same thing or the exact opposite, in such a case do you take half if it or sack up and drink beer untill everything becomes not thing more than something to piss against, prehoas dogs have the right idea. They sniff something to see if its interesting then they piss on it and keep going.. Perhaps that’s where humanity has gone wrong
Maybe it’s for the best
That we no longer talk
It’ll break us both
Into a million pieces
Well at least for me
But then maybe your life
Wouldn’t be so dramatic
Maybe if I left you
The annoying thorn in your
Side would be finally gone
Maybe it’s for the best
That I leave you in peace
Another day, another page
Counting down
Another tear, another fear
Coming to an end
My book is worn and frayed
Focusing only on mistakes I have made
I can’t help but cry
The scars run so deep
Just like a river
Tears bring me to sleep
Behind this smile
is an empty soul
Behind these eyes
coloured charcoal
Behind every word
Behind every thought
Behind every scar
Worthy of life I’m not
To be loved is earned
To be forgiven is yearned
To be rejected is pain
To be forgotten…
Like a midsummer rain…