I recently wrote a piece which received a stunning number of sarcastic responses. The majority of these said I don’t understand. So here’s my story.
I grew up with an abusive father. Two of my four siblings were depressed. One of my brothers killed himself when I was eleven. I found the body.
My first husband was abusive. I finally divorced him after he was sent to jail for locking me to the garden shed and lighting it on fire. I escaped, but. My neck and right arm were baddly scarred.
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I foresee my life not as president of USA, CEO of fortune 500, invent something like Einstein, climb Everest, gr8 public leader, football macho, best NBA player

but doing a mediocre 9to5 job , given by one of above people to achieve their dream

do you think my life worth living? ( indeed any one of this kind?)

Is there any answer which motivates average people that doesn’t include self-convincing, hope, positive thinking, some foolish preaching.

does any one realized majority of human beings trading their 80 years with money?

For the past few weeks, my life was looking as though I was getting better. My moods were good and 90% of my days were pretty happy. I found new friends, found a couple people that I ended up dating. I was happy for once…then last week it all went downhill. I began to get really depressed and started having pains in my stomach. I am a stomach sleeper so I was also having trouble sleeping bc it hurt so bad. Then the swelling and redness started…now none of this was subtle. From the time the pain started till the redness and swelling got their […]

http://listverse.com/2013/11/20/10-bizarre-ways-youre-making-yourself-miserable/

Do ya’ll believe in God?

Here’s my story. One year back I was the happiest man alive. I had a good job. I had just got promoted. I was the senior most in my office. My marriage was fixed. Then this eye problem cropped up. The doctors diagnosed me with a rare incurable genetical disease. In just a year I’m now almost blind. My muscles are so affected that I’m wheelchair bound. I have lost my job. My fiancee left me. I have lost all feelings in my body I can’t feel hot or cold. Now the doctors say my kidneys are also failing. I’m in constant pain. I’m just […]

Why do you think I’m an idiot? Why do you treat me like a child? Why do you think I’m incompetent? I own my own home, take care of it myself, have lived alone since 1999 and always find a way to get help when I need it. Why are you so cruel? I understand you are not overly sensitive like I am, but I wish you would understand that even though you are not sensitive like me that there are people like me in this world. Why did you laugh when my property was destroyed by the local oil company and I lost every […]

You can see positives in any situation ! Just try to interpret reality with good sides 🙂

Death embraces me wherever I go, a more attentive friend than I’ve ever had.

When did it get to the point where loneliness, self hatred and a blade became my best friends, whilst my old friends became strangers?

They said that I could talk to them, trust them, that they can help but as soon as they know how messed up I am they take slow steps back. I couldn’t possibly blame them, I can’t even stand myself so how can I expect them to?

doing a little better today. Finally realized I can’t be everyone else’s rock when I can’t even be my own. Listened to Second Chance by Shinedown a LOT to get that. today, I think there is good in the world. And on my next bad day I’m going to come back here and read this to remember how I felt.

I was last here for almost 18 months ago. I cannot remember the username I had then, something to do with light.

I have tried 7 times to kill myself, at least5 have been serious and I have survived.

I am 36 or 37, I actually do not know how old I am. Anorexia, severe depression, alcoholism, self harm, cutting and a search for death.

I want to die, please, somebody tell me why I should not?

I’ve had five people get intouch with me so far,  the conversations have been great, but I’m wondering who else is out there?

I’m a 21 year year old guy from the UK. I have anxiety, I get depressed, and I have suicidal thoughts. I don’t normally talk about my own issues, though I’m always upfront with others, I’ve found it easier to talk deeper about said issues with someone that actually relates. But I would also like to talk about other things, I guess it depends on whoever contacts me. I don’t care about your gender, I’m panromantic, not that it matters. I would say […]

Why are parents so happy at the birth of a newborn?

They didn’t bring a child into a loving good caring wonderful world….they basically sentenced a new innocent being to a life of strife and turmoil and ultimately a death sentence….and sure some will say “but not everybody life is bad” I never said it was….but this world is bad….and somewhere along the line it will reveal itself to be bad to them…. if I had a child I would feel so guilty….I know this life is shit….I know this world is shit….so why would I willingly bring another person into it to be subjected to […]

well i tried committing suicide several times and i cant seem to die maybe there’s a purpose for me to be alive on this earth i have cried no ones there to catch my tears or to give me their shoulder to cry on no ones there to mend my broken heart to help me through the frustration and stress i have a eating disorder which is anorexia my online boyfriend takes money from me but i love him to much to let him go he took like 10000 dollars from me my family said they would make sure they kill him if i die […]

Every night i just sit in my room with tears sliding down my face just wonder why do i exist.

So, I don’t know how I got here with my life… visiting a suicide forum and feeling serious about it. I was the happy go lucky girl that loved working, movies, my sister and puppies. There is no room is life for fucking up. I miss my mom. I would have never fucked up if she wasnt gone. My dad murdered her because she was on meth. I managed to recover, graduate college, buy a house, etc. but then I fucked up And made myself a social outcast. I just want to die bc I can’t have a redo. All I need is a redo! […]

I’m tired if this…

I’m tired of feeling like everything I do is wrong…

I’m tired of messing up in everything I do..

I’m tired of not doing everything right..

I’m tired of feeling like such a screw up..

I’m tired of smiling when all I want to do is cry…

I’ m tired of being the mistake I feel like everyday..

I’m so tired….

sooner or later I’ve got to have a rest,..

Whether it be permanent or not? I don’t know…

All I can hope is that I get better…if not..I don’t know..

Guess you’ll all get what you need…

Me gone…

The human race is just a chemical scum on a moderate-sized planet, orbiting around very
average star in the outer suburb of one among a hundred billion galaxies. we are so
insignificant that I can’t believe the whole universe exists for our benefit. That would
be like saying that you would disappear if  I closed my eyes.

–Stephen Hawking

If everything happen on earth is very insignificant, why can’t our problems?

I adapted this from an anonymous poem:

Don’t Judge Me

Don’t judge me for how I left this world,
Remember the love I gave,
A lot of grief has followed me
Drowning me like an ocean wave.

Changes intrude on everyone’s life
Some are good and some are bad,
All the change in recent years
Has made me very sad.

But in time the memories
will from your hearts the hurt release
And my presence will be felt by all
With an inner peace.

Remember me when the sun is bright
And laughter fills the air
And a moonlit night and a whisper of wind
Will tell you I am […]

I’ve been around for a while – like more than half a century. My health is lousy, to a point it’s my fault but the reality is that I hate my life so much that there are subconscious self-destructive dynamics at work I cannot change. It is very much like having a slow-motion dream where you have 4 arms and 4 hands; 2 are tied behind your back and the the other two are slowly pulling the pin out of a grenade with the intent to shove it in your mouth and you are powerless to stop it.

People feed self-hatred by using someone or carelessly/intentionally […]