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I didn’t know that someone else was trying to upload a song, so sorry for stealing your thunder :/. It’s called Suicide Note. It’s rough, but oh well. Movin’2

I’ve been lying to myself and to everyone else and in my posts on this site for the last few months without really even realising it.

It’s just that I keep telling myself and everyone else that I’m super happy and super confident, telling the small minority of people who knew how broken I was in 2012 that I’m far from that now. I tell myself I’m strong and I’m happy and that I can do anything, when I’m sad I tell myself it’s not permanent and that I have to snap out of it. I’ve shaped myself into an unfeeling ***** and now I have […]

I want to post a song to the site.
Is it possible to do that?

Anyone knew a girl named Catrina?

She was from Anchorage Alaska and went to my high school.

I knew her not, and I doubt people will on here, but yeah. Just thought I would ask.

My plan is to check out around age 45 (I’m about 40 now). By then my will to work or deal with life will have about expired. I plan on getting a divorced a year before the deed, so the wife is used to living alone when it happens. I’ll make sure to write a will to leave everything to (ex) wife 6 months before I eat the bullet, so my asshole family members can’t contest it by saying I was insane at the time.

I have heard objections to this plan and this my summarized response:

At the point at which I begin operating at a […]

I lose myself in music when I don’t want to talk to people or face the world. However, music has been the thing most accompanied from my suicide attempts.

I remember every song for every time I tried to commit suicide.

1. You Only Live Once – Suicide Silence (the irony, I know.)

2. A Match Into Water – Pierce the Veil

3. If I’m James Dean, You’re Audrey Hepburn – Sleeping with Sirens

4. The Drug In Me Is You – Falling In Reverse

5. Miserable at Best – My Chemical Romance

6. CheaterCheaterBestFriendEater – Never Shout Never

7. A Trophy Father’s Trophy Son – Sleeping with Sirens

8. Baby Don’t Cut – […]

The article is below but this is my plan. It says he may have not been completely submerged and was floating face up when they found him, an hour later. I was planning to jump backwards and figured I would just drown if I didn’t die on impact but now maybe I’ll go bellyfirst. I really don’t want to survive this.

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MACKINAC CITY (WWJ) – While the who’s who of Michigan politics were hobnobbing on Mackinac Island Wednesday, the Coast Guard was busy making a dramatic rescue.

A man remained hospitalized on Thursday after a jump off the Mackinac Bridge.

Lt. […]

I went to my old high school today. It was awful. I arrived and I couldn’t find anyone for a while so I just decided to randomly walk around the building for a while. I got made fun of for wearing my sunglasses indoors by some random dude (really? REALLY???) who apparently thought I was ‘trying to be cool’ (in reality I was just really fucking stoned… how sheltered are these people?)… I eventually ran into an old teacher of mine who found one of my old friends and I went to sit with her and two other visitors (apparently, she’s really popular??). I was […]

Does anybody know of any other  suicide forums online beside suicide project – confidential, trustworthy with a slightly more pro suicide view?  Not A.S.H., that’s turned into nothing but trolls.  Can anyone suggest something trustworthy and confidential they’ve seen?

I thought I had found my place. Between the nearly death, on the darkest, deepest corner of the web… But I was wrong. I don’t belong here. I don’t think I belong anywhere at all, for that matter.

I don’t think I can die so easily. Not yet. I don’t deserve it. I will walk some more, live some more. Look for my graveyard, somewhere to die, someone to die with, perhaps.

Good luck.

Filthy vulgar human excrement

If this happened in class then I’d die laughing.

Hi, I see a lot of posts about people cutting.  I am not judging- we all deal with our pain in our own ways.  Mine is to mope and cry and isolate from the world.  I’m just curious- why do you guys cut?  Does it actually make you feel better, or does pain actually feel good in a strange sort of way?

People think im selfish for wanting to commit suicide, its actually quite the opposite, im an enigma, a parasite, the world is better off without me in it!  I am ending all today.  Goodbye evil world!!!

I Lift up my empty hands to you Lord  .I have faith in You to move mountains.and I thank you for Your presents  around me and long to go home to You Lord with my hands lifted high for You…..

I thought i was done. Done with self-harm. but i realized i was wrong. Dead wrong. Today after 2 months going strong of no self harm i did it again. I dont even feel bad. Thats what i deserve. After enduring days of cyber bullying and a broken heart, i realized that i could act as strong as i want but ill never truly be strong. So now im on here saying I am Rebecca Goodridge and i am addicted to self-harming myself and no im not strong. im weak. Weak for having one of these suicide profiles, not being able to stand broken hearts […]

I don’t know

why I started doing it.

I truly don’t have a good reason

and I don’t understand what happened in my head at that time

because I didn’t know it had a name.

I was in 5th grade

and all I wanted was to feel pain.

The dumbest is that I was in class

I took my ruler and started scratching my skin

inside the elbow

bellow the table.

Scars of cutting or any self-harming

were for me

like a trophy

that I liked to contemplate.

Or maybe

an indelible memory.

Thanks to all those who felt their big philosophies and scientific theories could upturn my conviction. Thanks to all those who denounced his existence and helped to isolate themselves from their maker. Thanks to all. And even more..
It may not please you or even add to your depression to know that i will never forget him or leave him. Thanks again. To one and all.

The lawn may be green
But you better not be seen

Walkin’ through the gate that leads you down
Down to a pool fraught with danger
It’s a pool full of strangers

Okay, this is really weird, telling my story to a bunch of strangers. But maybe that’s the only way for me to tell my story. I mean maybe none of you give a shit, and that’s totally fine, but it’s pretty cool if you do take the time to read someone else’s story. I appreciate that.

So let me start waaaay from the beginning. I was born with my eyes wide open, I notice everything. Too early? Too bad. Wanna know something else I was born with besides an innate sense of observation? I was also given the gift, or curse depending on how you view […]