On islands we all run
Onto islands in the sun
And the sun too: is an island
With islands all around

We’re all islands in the sea
And the islands want to reach
Other islands passing by
An island in the sky

On islands everywhere
All the islands ever there
Are all waiting on an island
That island stands alone

She doesn’t know how to cope.
She doesn’t see any light.
So she picks up a blade
and cries the whole night.

He drowns his demons
With whiskey and pills
He’s fully aware,
of how much it kills.

She dreams of flight.
But not like the birds.
She just slices through air.
Without any words.

He’ll catch his train,
To the land of dreams
While the life he left behind,
Tears at it’s seams.

I’ll go soon enough but for now
I’ll just wait.
For my demons to guide me to my
dark,
dark,
fate.

The last 3 years off my life has been hell and I have suffered from suicide attempts and self harm. I have wrote my story down but it is 500 pages long and too big for here. I am trying to publish it to promote awareness for mental health. I have made a video of it on YouTube. You can look up a friend 4 me – diary of a suicide survivor. If anyone can point me in the right direction I would be very greatful. Thankyou.

i realzied iam the biggest pieace of shit that can exist i somehow make others around me to try to commit sucide somehow by just being myself there is no help for me anymore

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Rip currents choking me constantly. No matter the amount of pot smoked, or the amount of Prozac consumed. Torturous and stabbing thoughts barge into my mind and kill the newborn happiness and peace with their burning hot swords. The pain is sour, hot, liquid fire. It erodes the walls of my mind that act as a nursery to the best parts of me; the healthy parts of me. Trying with all of it’s might not to tumble over and lose the battle, the walls of my mind rattle and shake to stay erect and guard over my inner happiness. It sends shock waves down my […]

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We all know why I’m here, so let’s get straight to the point.

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