Why do you bring me down so much. I got home from sleeping over at my brothers house, so I could give you time away from “stress” and I come back thinking you would be happy but NO. As soon as I get home I see your pissy ass face. You start yelling at me for no reason, saying your going to leave me and move away. All you do is complain and yell at me. You think things don’t hurt me and make me feel even worst about myself. I love you, and I hope everything goes well at your surgery, your prob just scared, […]
I feel like im completely alone surrounded by my misery i have know one to talk to, my so called friends will be happy to come to me and talk to me about their problems which in my opinion are stupid but i still listen and care and give them advise because they matter to them but when it comes to me they dont want to hear or they change the subject into them.
I have no one to speak to at all and im not even sure if ill have anyone to speak to on here anyway, i mean people are to self involved in their own problems to ever […]
Into the great wide open
with a shovel and a broom
which one will you choose
to dig up your family’s blues
the sick smell of perfume
reminding what you have to lose
saying ya gotta cover up your chest
because you were blessed
with big bright balloons
that make the fella’s swoon
and you can’t just give it away
you have to wait until they’re okay
with what your gonna do
I geuss they’re in on it too
and no one wants to be uncomfortable
so the longer you wait for them the more polite you seem
smashing all your urges, but not all of your dreams
a lady is a classy woman, the highest of esteem
because she knows her place, […]
Last night, I talked him. The guy who has been my best friend for the longest time.
Surprisingly enough, he actually made me smile. I mean, every one can see me smile, or express happiness, but I never really mean it anymore.
But he made me experience genuine happiness.
I laughed. I actually laughed. A real one, at that.
And the things he told me. The way he smiled at me.. I couldn’t believe it.
It seemed as if I was dreaming, honestly. To think I actually had that sensation. That feeling.
Happiness. Bliss. Euphoria! I was experiencing such an abundance of delight, it was flooding my entire being. I felt […]
..friend i want to share my true story here and with everyone. i have lots of friend who come to me for their problems and together we solve it. But i have no one to share my feelings, no one whom i can call mine, share happiness and specially when i am depressed. Just few min back i had lost my love, my life, my everything. I thought that i can share myself with him but he left me for my mistakes. I am really addicted to him and i cant think one sec away from him or without him. I fear i might take wrong step […]
Recently, I have lost 2 people I knew through this website, and a couple more are very close. It’s saddening to me, and I’m sure there are many others I haven’t known that are gone too, so I just want to say rest in peace to those people, here, as a tribute to their lives. As for the ones I have known, RIP Charlie and Lexie, I know how bad you were feeling and I’m pretty sure you’ll be gone. And my best wishes go to those who are close to killing themselves.
its stupid my old foks are out i think i held i knife in my hand for harf the day befor i realisd what i was doing im pethetic im sorry i even wast your time im losing the game in facet i think i lost a long time ago :/ i know you cant be here with me but some times i think you are nd i start to talk to you but then i realis im on my own am i going crazey im sorry im like this i cant help being help less am i atenchion seeking i dont know am i […]
well here we go, the story of the pretty little rich girl is being spoken about.
Hey, my names Shauna if you knew me you’d know that I’m a very outspoken, confident person, nuh huh you don’t really KNOW me then. where do i begin?
My ‘father’ was an alcoholic, drug and woman abusing piece of scum, he numerously abused my mother and would’ve abused me if i wasn’t for my mothers courage to leave him. Thank god she did otherwise i wouldn’t know where I’d be right now. Nether the less i started primary school, i was the fat gingery blonde girl with glasses who everyone […]
Hi everybody, I don’t want to reveal my identity so my friends or family could not read this (just in case). I’m 18 years old and here is my life story.
At first, everything was going perfectly, I was in the primary school, getting all the best grades and so on, suddenly, my life changed after me being 9 years old. New teachers came to school and fucked me over. They treated me like shit in the way that they restricted me to only 1 grade (C) and I’d get all C’s from every class, even though I’d do something for an A+ I’d get a […]
im just getting worst every day that passses i dont know how much longer i have so an early good luck to you
well lets start this fucking bullshit shall we. Okay so what the fuck do you do when everything you touch or do fails? what the hell do you do when girlfriend after girlfriend leaves you? After they use the fuck out of you? Or roomates who wish to rip you off at every turn? what the fuck do you do when you’ve cried to the point where you can’t anymore? I fucking feel nothing anymore no joy no excitement no passion for my favorite things no expectation for good to happen nothing ever goes right anymore but when something fucked up happens to me it […]
Will someone explain to me how this site works..I just want to figure all of this out before I start using it.
I am a 25 year old musician. I have never had a problem with depression until recently. I was happy, touring in a band, making money doing it. Then everything came crashing down. Now all I think about is everything that I have lost.
My best childhood friend dies unexpectedly, then my mother, then my friends turn their back on me.
I have lost all inspiration, I hate everything I do. My girlfriend who I live with are becoming more and more distant. I’m stuck 1,000 miles away from home with a shitty job, nothing to show for myself, and all I want to do is curl […]
I’m 29. I have a wife, two kids, a  job, a home, a dog, a master’s degree, friends, etc.
Nothing makes me happy. Nothing excites me. I look forward to nothing. I don’t want to talk to anyone. I do nothing at work, and then nothing at home. Every day. Everyday I feel like I’m on the edge of a cliff about to fall off. I’m terrified someone will ask me Do you even care about me? This job? Anything? and I’ll answer honestly: no.
I don’t ever see myself caring about this absurd existence. I don’t matter. The people I know don’t matter. No one matters. […]
If he takes his life I’m taking mine because this is all my fault. He’s gonna do it.
I’ve been feeling depressed for a while now, basically for the last 10 years or so. Really the one person who has kept me from thinking about suicide, and who got me to stop cutting has been my girlfriend for the last four years. A couple days ago she tried to tell me that things weren’t really working out, and basically she thought it would be best if we took a break from being in a relationship. At the time she made a convincing argument, basically saying neither of us has time, effort, or financial stability to deal with a relationship. I’m under the impression […]
It really surprises me how my mood can go from being OK (I wasn’t entirely happy) to  me feeling like utter scum. I started talking more in lunch and fifth period and I usually don’t talk so whenever I do I feel like people just look at me like “why do you even open?” because of the looks they give me, but that doesn’t bother me that much compared to talking to the people you like because it feels like “am I annoying to you?”  I don’t know maybe school’s just another trigger for me but I feel like “look at all these people probably […]
Why try to live if it’s harder to live than die why would it be better to suffer. I think the only reason I’m still here is because I’m living for others who rely on me as I rely on them.
I hate how inevitable it feels. Like, I can pretend all that I want to be happy or that I have purpose or whatever, but it doesn’t change my fate. Like I’m destined for suicide. It’s what I always come back to, and it’s getting harder and harder to say no to it anymore. I don’t want to say no. I just want to be done with all this pain, and this world only dishes out pain. It isn’t going to end in this lifetime, so it’s like my only shot is in the next. But shit, I’m a Christian, and suicide is a sin. Will […]
I’m drunk
I took too many pills
I’ve been cutting myslef.
tonight seems like the night i shiould kill myself
goodbye,