My life so going so well. I had a boyfriend, a job, I got into multiple colleges, I was doing well in school, and I was eating healthily. Then everything went downhill so fast. My boyfriend broke up with me, I started to fail my classes, I’m almost losing credit in some of my classes and I’ve been getting fatter. I just can’t do it. On top of all of this, I’ve been more depressed than I have been in a while. It just upsets me so much and I want to give in to it, but I know  shouldn’t, but it is just so hard […]

I was doing better. I didn’t want to die for a couple of days. You know, I had a documentary about depression to start on, I scheduled classes for senior year of college, I spent time with friends that I love. Then I see a stupid Easter status that mentions the dickhead who broke my heart, and I’m snapped back to reality. I’m a nobody. The one person in my life who has ever claimed to truly love me never did. He said it himself that it was all fake. Why was I so stupid? I actually thought for a bit that maybe I was […]

Things were finally getting better now its back smh

watching me taunting ..grining that sinister grin . It has me once again I want to get away but it’s hold is too strong I can’t breathe can’t sleep I want to cut deep deeper and more than ever before. I need to breathe need to be free just one more time please. I have to I need my best friend. Sharp and cold against my skin. I missed you sooo much

I need ways to die within the next 45 mins please help!I know what im doing im not going to miss out on anything just please give me ways to die asap! Email me at darkerimagery@gmail.com

I’m angry at myself. I wish I had begun laying the groundwork years ago – had pushed my family and friends away, been a dick so that they wouldn’t care. Now I am stuck.

Im 60 years old, was married for 25 years, 3 kids, 5 grandkids. Been divorced for 4 years now. Divorce was difficult since kids sided with the mother, but have since come back around. I was somewhat emotional about divorce but more upset about kids. Been dating since and has had its good and bad. 2 years ago I met a lady that rocked my world!!! She is awsum. Problem is I wouldnt commit and I messed up by pushing her away somewhat during a major house buying and renovating project. 2 weeks ago she dumped my sorry ass!!! I am devasted, been crying like […]

This morning I woke up and I was so happy (NOT-.-) because it was Easter. I was half awake looked out the windows when I was downstairs and I saw snow. Snow?? No that’s not possible. I mean snow is already a miracle in The Netherlands if we have it in the winter, but on 31 march?? No, not possible. Somebody was joking on me, with a machine that makes snow, but when i saw that it was also high in the air slowly falling down I realized this was no joke. When I realized that, I got totally crazy, because I thought I was […]

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I don’t know. my parents were addicted to meth. To be honest my mom did meth through out the time I was in her stomach. I did not come out wrong I was never normal though. My parents loved me of course but they were always to busy doing drugs and stealing from the government to really take good care of me. My mom eventually went to prison for 5 year. I was sad of course but she left all the time anyways so it was normal. My dad quit meth. He started drinking. Most people would be happy but my dad was worse when […]

I suffer from PTSD, OCD, and bipolar II.  I’m also a FtM transgender person.  My father died in 2009; I was only 20 and was his next of kin and had to to everything relate to the burial.

It took a toll on me.  I didn’t even tell my doctor until 2010, when he put me on antidepressants.

The medication works, for the most part.  But sometimes, my depression creeps back up again.  It did that two years ago.  I had pills stashed, I was ready to do it…

But then an anonymous person commented on a blog post of mine.  It was just the first public post […]

Here is the place where I will let myself be terrified
I’m sick of telling you that I’m okay, that I’m fine
It’s getting to the point where I’m starting to hate lying
This time I won’t turn off the panic, I wanna cry
Release, I need to free the monster, free the fear
Even if I have to cut apart the cage
I will destroy this with my rage

I don’t wanna prevent myself from being this way
I don’t wanna tell you that I wanna live today
Because if I were to be honest, I don’t
And I’m scared of what I’ll do to […]

Bitter, broken dearest
Can only sullenly repeat
How hurt she is, the pain she feels
Like babe suckling at teat

Slashes at her wrists
Like a toddler with a knife
Yet expects you to acknowledge
The hell that is her life

Tis the ones just like her
That leave me only silence
The ones that are those proud to wear
Their suicidal violence

Yes your pain is justified
And your wounds are real, I’m sure
But witnessing your selfish acts
Makes me want no more.

They drove me to ignore
The hands, the words, the plea
Bitter, broken darling
I blame you for losing me

I want to kill all my emotions, i can’t deal with it anymore. They are hurting me to much, the pain in my heart is to much. Nobody cares anymore, they are all leaving me. I’m trying to hold on but it hurts to much. I want all my emotions to go away, pain, anger, sadness, happyness, everything…

I have been on this site for about a month now.  I have read a lot of posts and commented on some.  Meanwhile I struggle more and more everyday.  I feel like I am screaming please help me but all I hear is things like “you’ll feel better when the spring comes”, or “you’ll feel better when you get back to work”.  A little background, I have been off work for 3 years because I was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia.  I have told my psychiatrist that I am feeling depressed, eating and sleeping too much but even he doesn’t understand how much I am struggling […]

All of us here has a different religion ……so could all of you please drop the religion problem ……its so depressing now

Happy Easter my friends. I pray and hope that you all and myself may find peace and some serenity to our anxious minds. I love you all!

JerzyBoy

Hush a bye baby, Now close your eyes
And dream of broken butterflies
That tore their wings upon a thorn
You know the pain that they’ve endured

Drifting dreamer
So soft, so sweet
Cut your wrists and bleed on the sheets
Slashing and thrashing
While black tears flow
Crimson stains now mark your pillow

Smiling cutter no more, no less
As you beg for the kiss of death
Dreaming slicer all tucked in bed
It will be long past morning
Before they realise your dead

Rock a bye baby, and say goodbye
Let’s fly away with the butterflies
Slice away
Just one more slash
Down comes baby
Into […]

The thought of suicide is constantly on my mind, you could probably say i am obsessed with suicide (maybe thats why i’m on a suicide website). Well i guess i should explain myself first, as long as I can remember I have been depressed, initially mildly but for the past 5 years or so it has been intense. My life is just one big circle and i end up back at the start, im depressed as hell for months at a time i plan the date that i am going to end it all and then when the date comes i chicken out. The reason […]

Goodbye, I wish I could have left you with more. But, this pretty much sums up why I have decided to move on. Don’t worry, if there is such a thing as ghosts I will stay and watch over you all until the end.

I have always felt that suicide was connected to communication. Not due to a lack of opportunity, but to an impossibility to communicate and be understood. It can be frustrating to try to share something with somebody, something important and real to you, and see in the face of another person that he doesn’t care or, worse still, simply doesn’t understand you. […]